Hospital Overthink

Touka Journal

I'm in the hospital right now and broke my right arm, not just broke, snapped sideways, it was painful as hell, and this will be the most memorable thing this year to be remembered.

I'm Touka Arkada, I'm 16, about to be 17 this year, I became student late because of our family problem, but I never once called it like that, I always refer to it as "syndrome", since we haven't resolved this problem ever since.

My family is poor, and mom is diagnosed with comatose, and I am the one with a job since dad died before I even know who he is, and my brother can't get a job because of his frail looking body, so he's the one taking care of mom at home, mom's at home since we can't afford to pay the hospital bills.

I was once offered a sweet deal before, since it was hard for me to find a job since I'm just 15 back then, but I turned that offer down, since... It was pretty shady and it's a s*x job, obviously.

But I was lucky to find a job on Street Elrap, in a Comic Cafe, the manager there is pretty laid back and chill, and he needed a young lady to attract more customer, he just hired me on the spot after hearing how old I am.

Ever since I'm there, my perspective of the world and my knowledge was widen, thanks to the comics I myself borrowed there, I saw some of the craziest sh*ts that could occur in the world, violence, rape, gore, bad politicans, and all other more, I think you pretty much get it.

Till then, I became, like more mature? I can't really say that for myself, since I can't justify what I am doing, it just depends on what I wanted and needed to do, and the way I learn new stuff is quite fast now.

But let's go back to the Hospital, since that is a good content for my journal.

My surgery went good, they patched up my arm, luckily my nervous system in my arm didn't snap, or else I couldn't move my arm anymore, I still can't move it since it almost break.

I have to wait for 3 months for it to recover, and yes, I'll have a lot of trouble doing normal stuff, that's why the girl that crashed onto me, offered me, well not her specifically, her dad, Shouta Theodore, which is a glamorant, and glorious if I say so myself, since he's pretty big.

He said that his daughter, Shouza Theodore, will be assisting me with my daily routine and stuff, since I can't really do anything without my right arm, there's just one problem I didn't suzz out.

And that is I'm antisocial, I have a hard time speaking out the things I want to say, I could say them but I stutter every goddamn time, that has been a problem ever since I got my job, at first I can't really do anything other than clean and return rented books, but when I practiced for over 2 month, I was tasked to do the counter duty.

"Ms. Arkada?" a nurse that entered asked for permission to enter.

Yeah of course, did you picked the wrong room or something? Or is this nurse just stupid.

"Ye.. Yeah?" I said, it's like the things I thought about her backfired at me.

"You will be discharged tomorrow, have you prepared for your leave?"

"Not.. Really.. Yet. " I awkwardly say.

I am suppose to be ready but I can't really move freely since my right arm.. Anyways, I have to move my a*s here since I've been lying here in the bed for a week now, I can't be stuck here like this, it'll be a habit.

I took all my things with me, well, there are not really a lot I have here, since my brother just visited me once, and only gave me a few change of clothes, and never visited again.

Well we don't really get along since I haven't talked to him ever since I made him take care of mom.

*Flashback*

"If you can't find a job brother, then take care of mom, I'll find a job."

"But you're just kid! I will find a job!"

When he said that I grabbed his wrist and grip it real tight.

"Oww!!"

"Are you sure you? You can't even resist your little sisters grip, you're too weak brother, just take care of mom, eat a lot, and get fat already, your so thin! I will find myself a job!"

*back to present*

I really was a stubborn kid back then, and now, I'm a bit laid back, thanks to my manager, if I were to return back in that situation, I would've not stopped him and let him find a job.

I was sitting at the Lobby's bench waiting for Shouza to arrive since she's gonna take me to her apartment to live there temporarily, I will leave after my right arm injured.

"Hey, Arkada." A girl called my last name.

Probably who I'm predicting.

"Sho... za?" I am really bad at talking, I will change, just you wait social anxiety.

"You're ready?" she asked.

"I.. am.. please wait.. " I said, step by step at least.

I lift my bag, it was heavier since I'm using my left arm, it was the biggest struggle I've face that week, I can't believe my left arm is this weak.

I will exercise this more soon, well maybe while I recover my right arm, this should give me an opportunity to use it more.

"Let me help you, I'll take this, hurry up now, I'll take you to my home, and be sure to take what you need at your house, I heard your arm will recover in the next 3 months?" she ask, she speaks a lot, I don't think I can keep up.

"Yeah... I will.. do as.. you want.." I once again awkwardly say.

"Well let's go now, I have to do something after this." it feels like she's mad or something.

Well, that is obvious though.

I hope this three months will pass quickly, and I hope I don't mess things up, I have gone to someone's house yet, well, our family syndrome is one of those problems.