Why...?

I went to sleep and woke up to him watching me sleep. My first reaction was to hit whoever it was so I punched he in the stomach not knowing who it was because I didn't really lol, I just saw someone and hit at random "THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!?!" I yelled until I looked up and saw who it was. "Uhm.... S- Sorry..." I said and stood up. "Rude. And I have five men, you will be their punching bag. Follow me" he said as he left the room I followed him and there was five men in a line. "Hello this is the punching bag, yes she is a girl but you may hit as hard as you want." I gulped and stood there waiting to be punched like my dad did to me. I opened my eyes and no o e was there but him and I was confused

" What's going on ? I thought I was their punching bag" I said confused. And he looked at me confused "you actually think you can handle their punching?" He asked me. "Yes, yes I do." I said as rolled my pants and shirt up to show him the indents in my bones and the Bruises from my dad and the scars. "You didn't see theses at first because I had makeup on so no one can tell but I actually went through a lot of being a punching bag, so trust me I'm fine" I said as I rolled my shirt and pants down. " bring em' here" I said and he got the first guy to me. "Go ahead, hit me, kick me, do your best, let all your anger go." I said reassuring him. He punched me in the rib cage very hardly, kicked me in the feet so I'd fall down and kicked my head hardly, and I didn't even cry. "I'm done." He said and left. the guy came in here to help me up but I slapped his hand away and got up on my own. "That's all your doing today." He said and I rolled my eyes "I could handle more, there are still four guys, just let them hit me. I'll be fine." I said to reassure him but he just grabbed my shirt and rolled it up to show the blood coming out of my ribs and asked someone for a mirror "look at the mirror and tell me what is coming out of your ribs" he said and I looked at myself and saw blood coming out of my ribs "So ? It doesn't matter even if I die it's not like anyone would care. You took me away from what was left of my family, I have nothing else. No friends, no family, no nothing. So just let them kill me... it would just be easier for me that way... so just let them kill me. It's not like you'd actually care, you don't even know me so just let me die" I said with a tear coming down my eye.

"Why do you feel like it won't matter when die? It could make me sad" he said as he looked at her. "Hah.. yeah right, I don't even know you." I said and rolled my eyes

"Then let's change that. I'm Luka" he said as he wiped my tear away. "I don't want to know you though. You took away what was left of my family, and I rather not know people because I want to die and if I have nothing it'd be easier to die. All I wanted was to die... that's all I want... so please don't make this harder than it has to be... I don't know you and I never will.." I said as tears came down both of my eyes, I stepped back and looked down. I hate myself so much, I don't allow myself to have friends because I feel like I don't deserve them or anyone. But with him I feel different... like he could be different.. but I know that he's just like all of the boys in this world... Evil.

"Why don't you trust me? Because you don't know me that good ? Because I stole your family from you ? Or because you are scared of me kissing you?" He asked and grabbed my chin and forced me to look at him. He wiped away my tears and kissed me. I stepped on his foot really hard so he'd let go. "I knew it! Your just like every one else! Your trying to use me and when you trick me into marrying you, you'll hurt me again and again just like my dad. I knew I couldn't trust you or any one... I won't fall into a trap like my mom did... I won't... just kill me so I can go to hell and be over with this horrible life..." I said and more tears came out. I stepped back to the wall and just cried knowing he'll probably just rape me or hurt me like every other guy would do to me. "Just do it, rape me, and then throw me out so you can get a new toy...I just wanna be over with this life..." I said as more tears came down. "Stop crying... your okay. I won't hurt you..." he said and slowly walked over to her. "I'm sorry your dad did this to you but I'm not like him... I'm okay... I'm not evil." He said trying to claim her down as he wiped away her tears.

"It wasn't just my dad... he told his friends to rape my little sister and my mom so I took my sisters place so she would be okay..." I sobbed more, he gritted his hands after hearing what I said. "I'm sorry for telling you this... I— I'm just a burden... I should be killed and go to hell for being born..." I said and looked at my feet trying to hold in my tears. "Your not a burden. And don't say stuff like that." He said and hugged her as she said sorry again and again. "Why.. why are you so nice...? You can rape me if you want to, and you can kill me if you want to or sell me or use me as a punching bag... but you choose to be nice.. I don't get it.. there must be something that you can get from being nice to me... just tell me what you want... I don't like it when people play with me.." I said and wiped my tears away again.