Chapter 2

Then God said something to me but I wasn't able to clearly hear it because I was engulfed by a golden light and my body slowly perish like glitters in the air. When I woke up, I was back being a child.

It took me days before I can recover from the happenings. I wasn't able to believe that I really came back, lived, and see my grandparents again. I vow that in this life, I'll treasure them.

Tomorrow I'll be going with Mama in the library. She's a Librarian, she and baba switch days when they take me with them and since I was with Baba today. I'll be going with Mama tomorrow.

Those people knock on our door after my birthday. All men in black and a butler. He's the elderly butler of my grandfather on my father's side. He was very tall and I have to look up to see his face and he looked so strict at that time because he was looking down at me but I'm very wrong. the person I thought was very strict turns out to be the one who's very kind towards me. he's the only person who showed respect.

Moving forward he explained to us that the reason he's in our home is because of me. He surprised all of us with the news he brought with him. He said that I'm not the real daughter of my mother that I've known. That there has been a fire in the hospital my mother gave birth to and the babies were switch. They conducted an investigation and tried to locate all the babies in the same hospital my real mother was in and they found me. They said I was the real daughter of that family.

I failed to see the hidden loneliness in the eyes of my grandparents. They forced a smile on me and said that they were very happy. Of course, they made sure first that I was really of blood with that family and let me make the decision if I want to live with them or with my real family and I didn't think twice. I said I wanna go with my real family.

As I grew up, with no right guidance, my attitude got it's worse. When my foster grandparents come and to visit me, I let them in using the backdoor.

When they come to bring me food. I was embarrassed.

When I saw them in the street together with my friends, I ignored them.

When they tried to talk to me in public, I pushed them away.

Then one day came and they stopped visiting. I didn't mind because I do not care much about them then, time passed, seasons came by. When everything became unbearable and broken for me. When everyone hates me, everyone mocked me, that's when I needed them.

You will never know how important someone or something is until you lost them.

I came back to our old house. Looked for them. I realized my mistakes and I wanted to apologize. Ask forgiveness for all the mistakes and sufferings I caused. I wanna get back at them but when I arrived, No one welcomed me like before. The house is deserted and dusty.

I looked every inch and everywhere but they are nowhere to be found.

'They are no longer here.' I looked back and saw a familiar woman

'Auntie Nira.'

She came to me and I was about to smile at her but I saw her expression

Why does she look so sad?

'I saw a car parked outside and I thought finally, she came back' she said

'Auntie Nira, what do you mean they are not here? did they go on a vacation? Looking around, this place hasn't been clean for a long time.' I said but when I finished, I saw how her face weight down. there's a folder she's been holding and she gave it to me.

She extended it to me and I looked at her confusingly

'Take it and open it' she ordered and I did what she said but while slowly opening the folder.

I was wondering what this is all about. I remembered Auntie Nira to be very bubbly. In my memories, she was the chatty and radiant type of person so why is she suddenly so serious right now.

When I saw what's inside the folder, I was so confused and looked at her full of questions.

how come she has this?

'What took you so long Little Yue? Why did you come back just now? They were waiting for you for a long time.'

'Wha - - what do you mean Auntie Nira?' I asked her. my heart is pounding. confused about everything and I don't know why it feels like she will give me a piece of bad news.

'Your grandmother got very ill. She was diagnosed with cancer and was given a limited time to live because of old age, no operation can heal her anymore. She wanted to spend the remaining of her life together with you and your baba but you kept ignoring them, they kept waiting but you didn't come.'

It was like a huge blow to me. It was like my heart was crushed. hearing all this. It can't be, this can't be true! I refuse to believe this is all true.

'You're lying' I said but when I looked at her, I saw tears silently falling from her eyes and from that point onward I can see that she's saying the truth.

There are no lies,

no hidden agendas,

no anything. Her tears are like a contagious disease and I was immediately affected. River of tears started falling from my eyes. My heart aches like a thousand needles piercing it. like knives stabbing it multiple times. The next thing she said to me make me want to just disappear.

To perish because it hurts so much.

'Your grandfather, he tried to live because your grandmother told him to. even it hurts him being all alone in this house. he tried because you're grandmother told him that you might come back and you will be left alone if he also leaves. we tried helping him as much as we can but you know him, he likes doing everything on his own. He suddenly had a heart attack when he tried to protect the market that was about to be demolished. he said that he wanted to protect the place because it holds special memories together with his granddaughter. for his little Yue.'

My feet weakened and I collapse.

I was sitting on the wooden floor crying. my tears kept falling. I beg for forgiveness over nothingness. wanting someone to tell me that they forgive me but I know,

I know that I was evil and terrible and what I did was unforgivable.

Aunt Nira just continued talking.

'That enveloped was handed to me by your grandfather. he said to give it to you if something happened to him. he said this is the only thing they can give to you. they never spend even a penny from the money you are sending to them. the passbook is there together with the title of this house.'

I looked at the folder and I want to throw it away because it's the evidence for all those terrible happenings that I can't process to my mind.

In the end, I can't throw it and just hugged the thing that they gave me for the last time.

'We may not be your real grandparents by blood but we love you as our own. You are an Angel sent to us by gods and we were so happy that you came into our lives. You will always be our little Yue now and always'

I looked up at Auntie Nira when she said those words but I can't see her because of the tears.

"Why are you here? Please don't follow me"

"Baba, that is old school"

"I don't want to see you"

"Please don't come here, I'll come to you."

What have I done?

'Yue stopped crying, they wanted you to be happy always. They never blamed you for anything. they wanted to protect you and cherish you. they loved you so much so you need to be happy okay?' I can feel that Aunt Nira is upset at me but she just felt bad when she saw me. She kneeled and wipe my tears that's still falling down from my eyes.

'Aunt Nira please believe me. I didn't know any of these. No one told me! Baba and Mama! how can you leave me like this?!' I cried hysterically, everything burst out. I can't breathe I can't see.

'Yue, calm down' Aunt Nira said in an alarm tone because she saw how I tried to catch my breath.

'Why did they leave me?!' I cried and clutching the cloth in front of my chest because I'm suffocating by these emotions

'Yue! breathe!'

Because of crying too much. I passed out.