Junior year - 1st semester

This year starts out the same as the last ones with going to band camp. I am now an upper class man which is pretty cool. I had some incidents over the years with bullying and some medical issues. I loved going to high school but I knew most of the kids in band didn't like me so this year I decided to keep myself distant from most of them. After some time it was September and around my birthday and there was this boy I liked which I've liked for a long time and I invited him to my birthday party along with my other friends. No one knew that I liked him because I kept that part a secret. I was scared and never asked him out myself because I was afraid I would get hurt. We started to hangout a lot more than we use to after my birthday. Like hanging in a friend group and going to all sorts of different places after school and one day after school we all decided to hangout at his place to play pool and monopoly. Right before me and my sister and her boyfriend at the time left his place he ran up to the car and asked for my Snapchat which now days is how kids communicate so I said yes. And when I got home we had a conversation for about an hour long and he said "can I ask you a question". At this moment I started to get really happy hoping that he was going to ask me out. After a minute of him typing he asked me if I was single and I almost threw my phone in excitement and said yes I'm single. At this moment I was flipping out and smiling so much and he asked me out. I said yes right out the spot and after we had a conversation about dating and if we wanted to take it slow or if we were comfortable telling everybody about us being in a relationship. This was my first time being in a relationship and it was for him as well. We didn't know what to do because it was like middle schooler's with their first boyfriend. After two weeks into us dating people started finding out because they saw us holding hands when we were off campus for lunch. But when people started to find out I started to get bullied again this time it was cyber bullying which for me it was something I wasn't use too. I was use to the other types of bullying because I actually knew the people who bullied me back then but because it was to much of a traumatic experience I blocked it out of my memory. Over the weeks the bullying was getting worse and worse because I ignored the online text who ever was bullying me started writing in sharpie across the bathroom walls saying I was a whore. Which I knew I wasn't a whore but it still hurt I don't know why but it hurts to this day. Around the middle of the year and me and my boyfriend and my friend Kaitlynn and her boyfriend went to the school dance. I loved going to the dances since you can sing to the music with your friends and it's always so fun. Someone did try to ruin my mood at the dance but it didn't work because my friends were there to cheer me up. This was at the point of it reaching half way into my junior year I did have some downs but I mainly had ups which I wasn't use to and it made me realize how much my friends and my boyfriend loved me and were always their for me.

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