Daoist_spider

These are thoughts collected when feeling extreme emotions. In no way are they everyday thoughts or opinions. This book is not suited for anyone under the age of 15. Warning this book depicts depression and/or suicidal thoughts. This book was made purely for the hope that the author can use this to cope. If you don’t like this genre or the book/topics make you uncomfortable. Leave while you still can. Basically it’s like a diary, I post this so I may find out about myself and hopefully learn something from it. I do not post everything on here and some of the chapters might be removed due to either sensitivity issues or me being unwilling to share the thoughts anymore. Grab a bag of tissues and a box of melodrama and we can all just cry this out.

When you’re angry. When you’re sad.

I want to destroy myself but I don't want to live with the pain.


When I'm mad or sad I want myself to suffer


I want to tear my skin, I want to destroy the walls and floor. All I feel is sorrow and regret if I do.


I don't have thoughts but when I want to do something like say get up and out of bed because I already wasted more than half the day away, I can't my body feels heavy and won't respond.


I feel like the definition of the quote "I'm well acquainted with demons inside of my head, they beg me to write them so they'll never die-" there's more to the quote but I don't feel like dying anymore that emotion is over now I just feel numb.


I feel like people will miss me when I'm dead but I also feel like no one else will when they die, I'm younger so I'm going to outlive almost all of them.


I can’t help it if I destroy myself