Daoist_spider

These are thoughts collected when feeling extreme emotions. In no way are they everyday thoughts or opinions. This book is not suited for anyone under the age of 15. Warning this book depicts depression and/or suicidal thoughts. This book was made purely for the hope that the author can use this to cope. If you don’t like this genre or the book/topics make you uncomfortable. Leave while you still can. Basically it’s like a diary, I post this so I may find out about myself and hopefully learn something from it. I do not post everything on here and some of the chapters might be removed due to either sensitivity issues or me being unwilling to share the thoughts anymore. Grab a bag of tissues and a box of melodrama and we can all just cry this out.

When you’re angry. When you’re sad.

I finally got it. Nobody hates me nobody wants me to die the world is not against me. It's me.


My mind wants to kill myself but my body wants to live. I don't know what to do.


I figured it out what stresses me is me. 


I don't know what to do when my mind says to myself with absolute certainty that I am a waste, useless. Worthless mess. Who can't control themselves and destroys anything they touch. Someone who is a broken being.


Someone who doesn't matter and will only be missed for a few months before people will move on. Someone who is crazy and needs to be killed or locked away. Someone who is dumb.


I hate myself and I was never able to shake that. Even when I'm calm and happy I don't hate myself instead it's I don't like myself.


What do I do about this? What can I do about this? How does one love oneself?


I don't know how and I don't think I can if I knew.


Figured it out