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Naiiyak na ako habang inaayusan ako ni Mama at ng iba pang kasambahay namin na mugto ang mata kakaiyak.
Tinalo pa ako! Ako nga ang ikakasal eh!
"Ikakasal ka na... you've grown into a fine woman, anak, hindi ko man alam ang nangyari sa pagitan niyo ni Stefan but I can tell he's good for you. I've known your Kuya and them for a long time kahit paano kampante ako sa kanya para sayo.
I may not be the best mother because of what happened to you right now but always remember na hindi ako nagtanim ng galit o kahit pisi man lang ng inis after hearing that you're pregnant. Maybe a little bit shocked but hey I'll be a grandmother now! Hahaha!"
With that my tears fell like a waterfall as well as droplets of rain filling a bucket.
"Your make up will be ruined! Let's fix that..." mama said and fix my make up.
Umalis na sila sa kwarto ko. I stared my wholeness at the mirror in front of me. I'm pretty as ever. Too pretty na kulang ay maihalintulad sa isang jonaxx girl.
I should be happy.
But why am I not happy?
Is it because of the majority that we're wedded out of responsibility and not because of love?
Or maybe because all along I knew that I can't steal his heart in Mam Cornelia?
Getting married to someone like Stefan is a dream come true but why, in me, I think it's more of a curse! A punishment to be exact! Marrying him is like digging my own grave six feet deep.
Wearing this white off shoulder wedding dress and a little flower crown in my hair...
This is a choice and a huge step in heading to the new chapter of my life.
I caught a glimpse of my fading promise to Mam Cornelia. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. or any of this to happened.
***
I'm nervous! And I didn't know why!
What if she ran away?!
Goddammit! How can someone like her can do this to me! I'm never nervous all my life!! Only she can have this unintentional capacity to do this to me!
I want to pace back and fort but I'm so scared of losing the tracks here in their garden! Ma-misinterpret pa ako ni Sire na galit pa din sa akin at ng maasar na mukha ni Estevan na kulang na lang kumuha ng full video ng kasal ko.
This is so humiliating goddamn! Thankfully Mom and Dad passed away. I think if they're here this will be worse.
"Relax MEN, sisipot si Scorches. Sisiguraduhin namin yon ni Papa kaya umayos kang tangina ka! Tapos na ang maliligayang araw mo!" banta ni Sire na matalim ang titig sa akin.
Lihim akong napalunok. Mukha pa ata siyang nakainom base sa amoy niya. Samantalang ang nanay nito puno ng pasensya ang mukha.
Nahihiya pa ata sa amin si Tita Annette.
Parang ni hindi ko napakisamahan ang dalawang ito noon.
"Patay kang bata ka bwahahaha hello baby daddy" asar ni Estevan sabay stick out ng dila niya na kinahagikgik ng ilang maid doon at bisita.
Bakit ba siya ang sinama ko dito?
The garden is all set. I must admit, this is pretty for a shot gun wedding.
The arc full of lilacs and white tulips.
The white lights that's giving a huge highlight and mood in the wedding.
The foods and the clean and neat reception near the pool... thumbs up for me.
Now Playing: Westlife - Hello My Love
Parang bigla nagsync ang tingin ko para lang sa babaeng nakatayo kasama si Tito Gerald na hawak ang bouquet ng lilacs at tulips.
Nakangiti siya.
Wearing a simple off shoulder dress but looking simply elegant and breathtaking.
Parang nagslow-mo ang lahat.
Sa bawat hakbang niya at sa tugtog nakafocus ang attention ko.
It seems as if the whole world blur right before my eyes by just focusing into Scorches Nicaea's admirable beauty.
I can still saw the smile.
But,
Heck!
It's a sad smile!
My wife wearing a sad smile on her lucious lips, pain, regret and sadness evident in her beautiful eyes.
Holy guacamole! I must be mad.
I'm starting to get attracted to my 25 year old wife.
***
"You may now kiss the bride"
I didn't waste time! I gave her a bone melting kiss, so slow and passionate.
The clap and cheer of joy fills the Cappacheli garden a vibe I've not felt before.
After this the reception near the pool is all set.
A heavy course is served as well as the exchange of pleasantries for us. Wishing us a blessed healthy married life.
Ofcourse the activities a natural wedding is held.
The eating of the cake, flavored with ube macapuno and the toast for us.
I'm enjoying this and I really feel something special in this that I just couldn't point out!
Nagsasayaw na kami ni Scorches na kahit ata isa man lang sa mga activities hindi niya na-enjoy that's a huge bother in me when suddenly I heard a very familiar voice.
That voice I've been longing for.
Coming from an uninvited guest.
"Rad? W-What's t-his?"
Cornelia Marie.