Should Have Said Something

After the initial shock, Nick and Sally thought they heard their baby girl wrong. They could not understand what wold make her feel in such a way and blamed the strong negative emotions to stress. The older woman was overwhelm by emotions and couldn't bring herself to even ask her baby girl to explain herself and despite them giving her some time to further explain what she meant so Nick pulled himself together and asked, still maintaining the cautions air around him "how can that be?" this was because he thought that his Princess was not aware of what she had just said, safe to say he refused to believe his precious baby girl could ever pose a threat to either him or his wife. He shared similar thoughts with his wife in this regard.

"Do you think maybe we can sleep first and just calm down to really think about what we want to say. . . just to collect our thoughts"? Sally concluded that maybe her little girl just needed to rest. She kept having a constricting feeling in her chest that felt like an ominous presence since the moment Dana made such a declaration. She couldn't understand why but she felt cold chills running the length of her spine and could tell something felt off but couldn't put her finger on what it is exactly. As a mother, she had felt her daughter shrink as if reverting to her five year old self as soon as she embraced her in her arms and assured even herself that they were really together but the young woman whose hand she was holding right now felt very different and not in a good way.

"No mom, I don't really think I can escape my nightmares at this point. I can't fall asleep without seeing my nightmarish life haunting me. I know you also have questions of your own too" she exhaled in a manner that suggested she was gearing up for a long session with the two adults. She looked to be collecting her own thoughts, her face contoured and dissolved quite a few emotions, forming and dispelling them as soon as they take form.

'Can I really ask them without getting half-truths, they said it themselves . . . all in' Dana was in her own world, still careful not to be offensive nor disrespectful to her parents 'can I trust them to tell me the truth without holding back anything from her, even if they think it's to protect me' she exhaled loudly, which was noticed by the two adults. Dana wanted answers and knew that postponing her questions is doing her no good at all. She wanted to know about herself too, no more surprises.

"I'll tell you what I mean but I also have my questions, but frankly" she paused a bit before going on to say "I don't know if asking them will get me the answers I seek" she let her thoughts be known to them.

Sally's eyes moistened hearing the deep scar her daughter had. She was, in her word saying they have knowingly kept her in the dark albeit knowing how much disclosure could have helped her stabilize her in some way. They didn't really know the deeper details but at least they knew something more than they let her know.

"Sweetheart, we are sorry about this, we know you feel wronged and alone but we are both here for you, we know you deserve answers about a lot of things and baby trust me when I say this" she looked at her daughter to make sure she sees her eyes, hoping for someone like her, to know that she is being sincerest she can be and squeezed both her daughter's hands for emphasis, "You can trust us, we will be family this time. We will stand with you and give our lives if it comes to it.

'Sounds like a devoted follower of some dark cult' Dana mused darkly at the words from her mother. The mere fact that such a line even crossed her mind scared her to a certain degree. She used to be such a sweet girl. . .She let her dark musings go to have the talk with her parents, how does she even begin explaining.

"I am so happy to hear you say those words mom" she passed a silent glance at her dad and when she found his attention solely on her, she gave him a nod as if to acknowledge his silent pledge as well and then went on to say "but I really need to understand a few things before I explain everything, just so I know who is telling me the truth and nothing but the truth because that is the only way I can find my way forward" the atmosphere had dropped even further in the living room at this point. She hoped for something more than being told how the truth being withheld from her is for her own good. "I just need to know that I am making informed decisions because right now it feels like everyone expects me to do what's right without the slightest clue of what that is. I want to know that if I mess up somehow, that I did it and I knew what I was getting myself into" she looked as exhausted as she felt at this point and saying it out loud really got her feeling like a heavy weight has been lifted off her shoulders.

"What is it you wish to hear baby?" her mother's gentle voice echoed softly as if she wasn't sure if she asked the right question.

"I still wish to know who I truly am, I know how much you both love me but I also know you two are just humans with no otherworldly powers, coupled with the fact that I have people hot on my tail with tails of how I have an evil man for a father and a rogue for a mother" the words were almost painful for her to say and yet her heart felt cold and distant, even her voice felt raw with unshed tears so why did her heart seem like a dismembered limb not a living part of her body. She decided to ignore the strange phenomenon in her own body for the time being.

"Everything you were told by us until this moment is the truth as far as we know" Sally saw her daughter frown upon her statement and thought to correct her statement "with loopholes maybe but it is the truth as we know it so maybe just your question was phrased too vaguely" she waited for her daughter to digest her words before bombarding her with questions because she felt like her daughter had a very specific detail that she was looking for.

"Am I an evil entity?" she blurted out, almost mindlessly.

This was the last question Nick and Sally expected their daughter to ask them and it left them conflicted by so many questions and it still boiled down to the couple feeling guilt for failing to protect her from outside influence.

"Why would you ever feel that way Dana" Nick couldn't contain the bitter taste of bile raising at the back of his throat.

"I don't know dad, maybe because grandma thought I am, and this guy claiming to be my dad has these creepy dark powers. . . or because I feel like some banshee with a magnet for pain, death and destruction. I don't even know how to breathe when I'm around people I care about without wondering when the next dark thing is going to catch my trail and somehow end up hurting my loved ones. I lost Dre, grandma and-"she caught her breathe when she almost uttered Sasha's name. She couldn't bring herself to say her name without the pain resurface but this time, the pain had a tinge of something dark. . . something wild and untamed. She shut her eyes tightly and exhaled loudly and it calmed the raging storm inside her. "This whole thing keeps taking from me as if I'm a sworn enemy of happiness but it feels wrong to say it because I know the happiness and warmth you gave me in this house is real" she had a wry smile on her face "so tell me dad, am I a good entity, because I know I'm not imagining all these things?" she posed her question again and saw her father was visibly shaken by the count of events but she thought if they got reminded of this much without knowing the rest of the gory details.

"I can't give you a definite answer to that my Princess because think about it, no one person is entirely good or definitively bad, everything boils down to circumstances and what could be said to be the right call at that point in time and even then, you can't judge one's character solely based on that. What happened to convince my princess that she is the villain and not the victim in the situation?" Nick wasn't okay with the notion that his little girl was being manipulated by people with the intention to corrupt her innocence for their amusement. He felt cold rage brewing from a part of him he didn't even know existed until this moment.

"This world is full of some powerful people dad, it frightens me to think about it. I grew up thinking I am special until I met them, people who make you feel helpless and vulnerable. People who make you feel powerful only when they want to use you. They make you believe the world is at your feet then turn around and burn that same world with just a snap of their fingers while you watch, helpless to stop them. No matter what I do, I am vulnerable to them. They claim to be on opposite sides to each other but their actions give the same result to my life. . . I want it to stop!" her eyes held a determined gaze to them. She didn't know what to do yet but she was determined to stand on her own and find the truth of who she is through her own means, maybe this time her parents will help her.

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