Club Talk

After her talk with her parents Alex decided to study up on love in books to complete her daily missions for that night and all of the next day which she did but as Alex didn't really get any answer for falling for someone she decided to talk to Abigale and Mai in the clubroom the following Monday. During her time in class that Monday nothing really happened but Jessica's hot eyes made her very uncomfortable the whole day so Alex was quite happy when she made it to the clubroom with only Abigale and Mai present.

"Hey there what are you up to?" Alex

"Reading" x2

"Ah right so uh listen I need some advice from either of you." Alex

"Alright what is it I'll answer to the best of my ability." Abby

"Okay where to start... I'm dating this girl and uh well we are pretty much only friends with benefits is the short of it but both of us want to love each other but only feel like we are friends." Alex

"Huh what's the problem?" Abby

"Well we aren't you know getting that special feeling you get." Alex

"So what y'all are still together just get over it maybe you'll fall in love with one another or maybe you won't this isn't a problem if you ask me." Abby

"Well bu-" Alex

"No buts Alex your problem isn't a problem at all you just don't understand your feelings yet. One day you'll wake up and understand if you love them and if you don't break up with them it's that simple you don't have a problem just a strange relationship." Abby

"Okay but I don't want to have sex if I don't love her." Alex

"Then don't" Abby

"No you don't understand we are only dating because of this argument about my libido" Alex

"Isn't that actually your problem? It's not like anyone forced you into it you are obviously willing so what made you think your relationship mattered in the first place it is just to prove a point." Abby

"Well that's true but I still want to love her." Alex

"Then just fucking do it I am getting really annoyed with your obviously made up your own problems need help fixing it attitude today for fucks sake is anyone forcing anything on you to make you sound so god damn bitchy. Some people have real problems that they can't solve while you're just bitching about a situation you made yourself just get the fuck over it." Abby

"Woah okay my bad." Alex

"Alex I know you're confused but the problem lies with what you set in motion and just accepted obviously you don't mind too much you just want an excuse to make yourself feel better" Mai

"Well maybe but I want to know how I should feel when in love because maybe I've felt it and didn't know." Alex

"It burns it makes your heart ache so much you don't know what to do anymore it's like an inferno of various emotions you can't control and brings envy and hate along with it you become a tangled and uncontrolled mess when you're with them you'll want to stay but when you're apart that gnawing anxiety you feel makes you paranoid and you try to keep your thoughts clear like oh maybe he's with his friends or maybe he's at his parents but then you hear whispers in your head that he found someone and it isn't you or that he's actually gay possible a playboy and it slowly breaks you." Abby

"Uh that sounds horrible." Alex

"It is but then again my love is one sided so maybe it's different but now you know how my love feels at least." Abby

"Uh I've also never been in love like Alex but from her description it doesn't sound great especially since I can't date them in the first place. I'm glad I've only had an attraction so far." Mai

"Well my parents love was different so it seems all love is different so I guess just trying to love Jessica might work." Alex

"Maybe but hey you never have to go through with the sex thing don't forget it's your choice in the end." Mai

"I suppose you're right well you both are... I should just face the things I've made and accept them." Alex

"Well uh read some romance books or some thing they might help." Mai

"I have been not that helpful though to be honest." Alex

"Well read a smut romance book then." Mai

"Huh? Why?" Alex

"Well your problem is about sex so reading a romance book involving sex should work better." Mai

"Uh do you have one?" Alex

"I do. *looks away blushing* it's uh not a lesbian one though." Abby

"Uh thanks I'll look at it at home." Alex

That she did she read it and was engrossed in it and wondered if sex could actually evolve the relationship like in this book.