Think For Yourself

"What the hell are you talking about, kid? There's no way you can do It, just give up just give up... I mean seriously, who the hell even believes that you could do It anyway? No one, right? Kid, If someone actually believes in you then there's no way you would be here because they'll protect you. The fact that you're here already means they don't give a shit about what would happen to you. It's a one-sided love you're feeling right now. Trust me, kid... I know a lot about love! Love is one of the foundations this world is existing! Without Love, humans won't exist. Without Love, plants cease to exist. Without Love, animals will get extinct. Without Love, altruism won't even be born! Everything revolves around love, right? WRONG!!! This whole world existed because of Lust! Because of Lust, humans existed! Because of Lust, Plants continued to live! Because of Lust, animals are scattering! Because of Lust, humanity survived! It's the lust that kept us going, human desires! Get It, kid?! All they care about are themselves so you should too... Care about yourself... A whole week has passed and yet no one even cared to search for you, isn't that sad? So just think about yourself even for the last moments of your life, you know? Not having any desires or anything is already weird enough and you seek to do something for other people? They might be your family but deep down, they're still human beings who hide their horns inside their heads. The moment you let your guard down and they'll do something unforgivable! Unforgivable! Unforgivable! Unforgivable! Unforgivable! Unforgivable! Unforgivable! Unforgivable! Unforgivable! Unforgivable! Unforgivable! Unforgivable! Unforgivable!

I take pity of you, kid... Not only you don't understand the worth of fucking every woman in existence! You're not even trying to understand nor listen to my burdens and here I am for you, giving you the advice of the lifetime and even going as far as to care for you even though you're going to die anyway. Aren't I deserving of gratitude, kid? But a true samaritan never expects something in return, don't mention It, kid. But you know what? Seems like that weird chinese guy won't be getting here for a while and I heard there's a girl inside of these cells, don't you think It's the perfect opportunity to live up and at least try to experience my ideology before passing away?! Isn't that nice?! Supposed to be nice?! That's so nice! Truly nice! Really really nice! It' nice! So what do you think, kid? Want to fuck the girl?! I can give you a special treatment and let you go for a while so you can have fun, I'm the kindest and probably the most thoughtful guy known to men, you know kid?! Think of yourself! Think of yourself! Think of yourself! Think of yourself! Think of yourself! Think of yourself! Think of yourself! Think of yourself! Think of yourself more, kid! By thinking more of yourself, you can avoid getting yourself with problems, allowing for you to be focused with just fucking girls! Why are you striving to change your family's life anyway? It's not like you're something special. You're just an empty, shallow human being without any role at life... You're an empty, boring person without any reason for existence. You're not a hero that will change everything and save everyone, you're just a kid. This is not a a novel, a movie, an anime, or even a fictional world! This is reality! What you're aiming for are truly ideals aimed for shallow-minded brats who don't know how the world works! You're a naive brat for thinking that you could change your family's life! Don't underestimate life, you idiot! Why the hell am I even having this job If I can just fuck girls left and right, up and down?! My dream is completely selfish, yet I'm having a hard time even completing a mere 1% of It! And you daresay that you will do It when your dream doesn't even involve yourself?! Just how cocky can you get, you fucking brat?! There, I already removed your handcuffs... The cage of the girl I'm urging you to fuck is this way, right here... Look, isn't she beautiful? Doesn't leave you with a boner, eh? I'll leave you here, I'll come back here when chinese dude finally arrives"

END OF CHAPTER 46