Quarreled

I took a deep breath and started singing.

[Say, whom are you thinking about right now?

As for me, I'm thinking about you.

I could sense the scent of the night,

ah, when I opened my window.

Right now whose face

is surfacing in your mind?

When I was soaked from head to toe

from the freezing rain,

you were the only one

Who would offer me a hand?

Just why is it that you're always

the one giving me strength?

Whenever you do,

you're making me fall deeper in love.

Say, I want to see you.

Falling in love is quite painful.

You're always the reason behind

both my happiness and my pain. ]

(An: this is a song from Maiko Fujita nee, the song is in Japanese)

This is my favorite song. This song symbolizes my sadness and happiness. I was touched by this song. My love life is not the same as everyone else. Sometimes I was envious that they can be happy with their boyfriend but I can't be like them, my love ended with a broken heart.

I am always crying every time I listen and sing this song. I liked the sad song more than a happy song. I always felt happy songs would make me forget my sadness. I needed to remember my sadness so I could give up completely. I didn't need to cling on to these feelings, it will only bring me pain than happiness.

(An: It is my taste, I like the sad song more than happy song hehe hehe)

I got reincarnated to this life and it was different from my last life.

I came to the orphanage as a victim of a plane crash. My big brother (Claude) can't chase me away, I am afraid of what he will do to chase me away from him. I didn't have anyone that could protect me.

I paid attention to the atmosphere outside the window. It was lively. It was not the same as my painful life. They chatted happily like they have no burden at all. They laughed freely. As for me, I didn't have anything to make me happy anymore. Nor past life or this life, my life was the same and I always came into hell.

There was the sound of the opening door behind me. I looked back and shocked. My body trembled hard. It was Claude who was coming to my room. He was always cold and I could feel he was glaring at me. Why did he come here? What was his business? I stood up in tremors.

He sat down indifferently without looking at me. Of course, why would he care about me? A poor girl who didn't have a family? Yeah if he revoked my status as Lockheart family, I'm just a poor girl whom he can treat me as he pleases like a pile of rubbish.

Why was he silent? Of course, he is not a talkative person in the first place. I was the one who always started the conversation, of course, I never got any reply from him. He is cold-hearted and liked to break a woman's heart indifferently.

I couldn't refute that I am indeed a poor girl, maybe he was right that I loved his money but I knew deep down I just loved him as he is but of course it was a burden for him.

"Why don't you talk to me?" he asked me suddenly.

"No reason", I said without looking at him.

"Where are your manners", Claude was dissatisfied with her attitude.

"It doesn't have to do with my manners", I shouted in anger.

"You dared to raise your head in front of your brother?", He asked angrily.

"Since when did I become your sister? I am not your sister and I will never be one", I answered

"Mio Lockheart", he shouted.

"I am a patient and you dared to raise your voice?", I pointed my finger at him.

"A patient? huh, a suicide patient is not a patient, you made it by yourself, If you didn't cut your wrist, you won't be at this hospital right now", He said coldly.

"You said that I am not your brother that was why you tried to seduce me? How shameless that's why you don't have any manners at all, how shameful was it for my family to have a child-like you?", he said indifferently.

He was shocked that he could say those sentences.

I was stunned for a moment.

"Of course I am just a poor girl that you can throw away anytime", I shouted in anger but there was sadness in my voice.

"You didn't have to come here, don't bother to come, we are not family so we don't need to meet each other forever", I said.

"How dare you say that? you couldn't even stand-alone outside when I revoke your status, you won't be of any use at all", He provoked her.

"Of course I know, just revoke my status, I will get out of your family, your family didn't need me at all", I shouted.

"Do as you please", He spoke indifferently and left.

I couldn't stop my tears at all. Claude heard her crying voice but he didn't come in and walked away.