Mio and Claude POV

What I just did? Did I kiss Claude by my own initiative? Was I crazy at that time? Mio, you are stupid, what did you think? Do you consider that shutting Claude's mouth by kissing him was a good idea? Are you crazy, Mio? I rolled my body on the bed with a panic state. Ah, ah, ah, what did I do? How come you become this stupid, Mio? I am sure that he will mock me tomorrow, and why do I have to move out with him? I want to move out but by myself, and why should I live with my enemy?

Will the sunrise in the east tomorrow? or could there be a big storm tomorrow? What dream I had last night until I have to stay with my enemy? Ah, I don't want to move in with him. But I can't do anything to avoid this problem. Why should I move in with that bastard? I hate Luke the most, and why didn't he let me go at all? There is no benefit for him to continue our wedding, but he looks serious about forwarding our wedding. I feel anxious about this marriage, and I don't feel happy at all. I used to think that after I got Claude, I would be glad.

But after I truly get Claude as my husband, I don't feel happy at all. Maybe the reason is I am the only one who falls in love with him. I think that when we get married I will become delighted, but after I get married to him, I only feel emptiness surge in my heart. I do feel happy, but this happiness feels empty after all Claude doesn't love me.

I am stupid, then Claude can play with my feelings. He already rejected me many times in front of his friends. But why couldn't I move on from him? Why these feelings didn't disappear after I reincarnated. It is strange. I've read a reincarnated novel, and all of the protagonists hated the guy who hurt them, but my feelings don't disappear at all. It is unfair. I don't want these feelings anymore, but I couldn't make the feelings vanish from my heart. I hope that I have a delete button that can erase this love.

I don't want to meet him tomorrow, and I hope he won't come to my room. Why did he come to my bedroom? He said that He didn't want to get close to me, but why did he come? He said that I was full of germs that could infect him with a dangerous virus, but why did he still come? Claude is the hardest person that I can't predict. What was he thinking? Why did Claude suddenly change his attitude towards me? Or maybe he wanted something from me? But it is impossible, and I am a poor girl, after all, of course, I don't have anything valuable with me. Maybe Claude was only daydreaming.

Who cares about him? I don't want to think about that bastard anymore. Please go far away from me, but my hope was in vain because, the next morning, he came to me again.

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I saw that Mio used all various expressions that I never saw her use before. If you want me to be honest at this time, then I would tell you that she was too cute. I couldn't help wanting to have her in my arms, but it was impossible because our relationship was not that closed at this time. I wanted to savor her, but it was still impossible, I didn't even know how long we could be together in this lifetime.

In my last life, I was too stupid. I thought that Mio snatched everything that was mine. I regarded that if Mio never appeared in my life, maybe I would feel happy. But the thing I felt when Mio truly disappeared from my life was the opposite. When Mio left my life, I only felt emptiness surged within my heart. The first time I drove her out from the Lockheart family, I thought that I would become happy, but I didn't feel anything. I ignored the emptiness in my heart and continued my life, but this emptiness grew each time I didn't meet Mio.

I didn't think much at that time and considered this feeling as ordinary. I used to think that I fell in love with Lily was pure come from my deepest heart, but when I drove Mio out from the Lockheart family, my feelings for Lily withered each time we met. Then I knew the real reason Lily liked me, she only wanted my status as the Lockheart heir, but she never loved me. She even used my privilege as her wings in the entertainment industry.

I ignored this problem because I had a little feeling with her, but later I found out that she used my status to step on Mio. When I found out that she did something despicable to Mio, I was so angry at that time. I did hate Mio, but I never thought of hiding her from the entertainment industry. My parents still loved her so much, but she rarely came back to our house because I was always there.

Sometimes there were other feelings that surged in my heart, but I tried to avoid it at that time. I regretted it, why did I avoid that feeling? If I knew those feelings earlier, maybe Mio would be still alive. But my jealousy towards her made her die with my own hands. I knew that her death didn't have anything to do with me, but Lily used my power to kill Mio, it also meant I was the one who killed Mio.

After Mio's death, my life was dark without color. When she died, I realized that I loved her, but it was too late for me to say I love you to her because her body was already cold. I never know that I have such a twisted feeling within my heart. I bickered with her, but it was only to make her look at me more. I realized my feelings too late, and I couldn't do anything to fix this problem. Even though I cried so much, Mio would never come back to me.

I thought that I would feel happy if Mio left my life, but it was a nightmare without an end for me. I always dreamed of her, and she tried to run away from the people who wanted to kill her. She kept calling my name, but I could only watch those guys hurt her and saw her body turned colder. This nightmare tormented me every night, and I always visited her bedroom in our mansion, but I couldn't even see her remnant, because Mio didn't leave anything behind in her bedroom.

I regretted so much, why was I blind to see her pure love towards me? Why was I too blind to see her? I thought that after she left me, I would be happy, but I only felt emptiness and sadness. If I knew earlier, I wouldn't do such a thing to her. I thought that she snatched my happiness away, but when she left me, I realized that she brought it away with her without leaving anything for me.

I lived my life like a corpse every day, and I didn't let Lily away after she did something terrible to his Mio. Then I began the hell for Lily, Lily begged mercy to me, but I ignored it and left her without looking back. When I knew which one was pure, it was too late, because Mio would never come back to comfort me and told me everything would be okay. I walked towards Mio's cemetery and said, " I missed you, Mio."