Chapter 48: Failure

October 12, 2020 3:04am:

I have failed you, yet again.. I just hope that Webnovel is legit. Please leave a comment if you have truly enjoyed this book thus far.

I know that some of you do, in a way, rely on this message for hope.. And that is what I'll give you. Let's get that momentum going again!

This truly isn't about me (which is weird to read I know) but I want to be here for you. I don't know if I told you guys or not but I was in jail for almost 3 and a half months.. I made a mistake.

While going through my seperation with Lilly, life in fact has been tough.. She would call me and say she wanted to come back, but then she would go back to the comfort of her parents. Yes, I am currently a "starving artist."

I'm technically disabled, but I make things work, you feel me? Now instead of relying on the government I'm stretching my abilities to head back to college for welding. That's my plan, but with all this craziness in my life, I don't know if God is going to be closing that door too..

I had another situation the other night where I was staying, so now I'm on the opposite side of town away from my college. Yes, with no car of my own right now. I'm just trying to escape. You feel me?

Recently, I have been testing my faith. I guess because I felt like God had abandon me. My life, like yours, has been a difficult road.

Please.. Through trials.. Don't abandon what you believe is true.

God has not abandon you and maybe I am a prophet afterall and if that means encouraging you along side my journey.. This is our journey!

You may have failed recently.. But I'm telling you... Get up!

Failure is part of the process of becoming like Christ. His status of peace, joy, and happiness.

Like Billy Graham in his time said, "It is by grace you are saved, not by works lest any man shall boast." Why love God? Because He first loved us!

I'm telling you.. I love you. I'm not perfect ladies and gents, but I'll try to love you.

Just try. Dust off your boots and get back to work. These are the days to rejoice.

Why? Because you have me until my last breath. When I'm wandering through life and I don't post for a month remember this..

I love you.

I believe in the Savior. I know He lives.. And because He makes our wrongs right we can face tomorrow..

Trust the process.. Be perfected in Him. Talk to Him.

He will hear you and He will answer you. Meditate on the good. Count your many blessings!

I know that Jesus is the living Christ because I have been saved by His grace alone. My salvation is given only due to His mercy on me. For the merciful shall obtain mercy.

Forgive that person who wronged you.. Forgive your partner, and most importantly.. Forgive yourself.

Love you guys!