83 I Love You, Angelica

After having such a long conversation with the three kids Angelica fell asleep instantly in Ivan's arms. Ivan only helplessly shook his head and told the three of them to leave while he watched over Angelica.

They knew she had just woken up after a few days so they tactfully left. Leaving the two behind in the study room.

Ivan looked at Angelica who was peacefully slumbering in his arms and chuckled inwardly to himself. Making sure she is comfortable he shift her a bit and made her head lie done on his lap while he cover her with a shawl.

He spent the rest of the day sitting with her in his study. Yes, he was a bit selfish and he wanted to be with her. He quietly played with her silver strands of hair and wondered how to let her know his feelings and also how to make her fall for him.

Angelica's had her hearth closed for love between a man and woman. But for others she has a big heart and is completely selfless.

He rested his head on the sofa and looked up to the ceiling that was blank. Many thoughts swirled in his head and he wondered what he should do without making Angelica feel forced or hurt if he was courting her.

Yes, he had shamelessly steal kisses from her while she was asleep, but he also wanted to kiss her while she was awake and hope that she would do the same and have the same throbbing feeling he's been having all this time when with her.

He wants her to look at him and no other man. He wants to hold her hands and see her beautiful smile and happy expressions. He wants to see all her good and bad sides. He wants nothing but her.

And only her.

"Angelica when will you fall for me? Do you want me to be shameless but if I do that you might runaway? But do you even see me as a man? I'm so lost and confused, but I'm sure that your the only one thats taken my heart. And I don't have any room for any other woman than you. So tell me... what should I do? Will you give me a chance? No, actually... even if you say no to me... I'll do everything to make you understand that I want you and only you... so please call for me so I can put a ring on that finger.." Ivan whispered to her.

Ivan remembered in the early conversation how she avoided the topic of dating and felt helpless. At least she knew what dating was but why did she avoid it? He wanted to ask her right then and there why she acted like that but he could only stop and let her go.

But now he refused to let go of that question! How could she do that? He was really looking forward to the response but she heartlessly played it off and switch the topic successfully.

He was oddly annoyed and sad. He was excluding a gloomy vibe in the room and it succeeded in waking up Angelica who was now staring at his multi changing face.

'What heck has this man so worked up?' She wondered and moved her head and was surprised.

Why the am I sleeping in his lap!!?!! She wanted to get up but he man held her down and looked at her with sad and annoyed eyes.

"You..." she started but was cut off by him.

"Angelica, why are you so afraid of love?"

Angelica swallowed her words and looked at his serious eyes. For some reason she felt that her lies would be uncovered easily and it would be a good option to lie to this guy since he's very observant.

"I...I don't understand it. What is love? How does it work? What can I get from love? I don't under why love is important. I heard live can cause many problems and I don't like problems. So that's why I avoid it... afraid? I think I am. I'm afraid since I don't understand it." She said honestly and cover her eyes.

"And why would someone love me? Isn't that ridiculous? I'm insane and I'm not good enough. And I'm a witch. Witches are evil women and I'm painted black with that. I'm not a good person. I have people I care about but at the end of the day, I'm alone and my own person.... only a insane and stupid person would fall in love with me." She have a weak reply.

Angelica had done bad things in life and she believed that the more bad that you do the more hate you would bring in. And with hate... is there any love?

None. There's no love and only hate.

That's why she guarded herself and made sure that even if she died, it would be alone. It may be sad buts it better than be hurt by someone.

"Love... is complicated.. Ivan, even I have fantasy's that love can make a person complete. But I also believe that love is dangerous... so dangerous that it could cause people to hurt themselves for it... who would like love like that?" She said but the man made her completely dumbfounded by his words.

"Angelica I love you." He said and saw her sit up and look at him like he was crazy.

"Love isn't crazy like how you said. Love can be beautiful and it is beautiful since I have you. I never thought that I would fall for you. And once I did, I only had you in my eyes." He took her hand and rubbed circles on it slowly, "When I'm with you, my heartbeats faster. Every time you look at me I feel acknowledge and cared for. When you speak to me with trust I feel happy. But deep down I want you to understand that I love you. Because it's you. Your a strong woman, you like fighting and books, your good at observation. You like teasing people and when people tease you back you blush a beautiful shade of red. You love compliments about yourself. And most of all, you have a a beautiful heart that cares for her family and friends with out them knowing." He said and gave a enchanting smile.

"When you smile, it like how flowers bloom on spring days. When you laugh, it like a melody I can listen to forever. When I hug you, I feel like I'm holding glass and afraid to break it since it dear to me. Your very precious to me and I don't plan on holding back. I, Ivan Constantine, plan on courting you with plans of marriage."

"I don't care about status or your past, but I would like it if you think of the future and present. Because I'm a man who doesn't give up and even after I succeed I plan to make sure that your heart..." he pointed at her chest and looked into her blue ocean eyes, "...only has me in it and that no one can fill up that spot but me." He said confidently.

Angelica only felt a heavy weight on her heart after hearing his words. Her mouth open and closed multiple times but nothing came out of it.

Did this man even listen to what she was saying about before??!?

"Why? Why me? Didn't you hear what I said! I said I don't believe in love and certainly I don't deserve love...I'm a selfish and greedy person.. so why..." she felt a warm hand touch her face and wipe something away. It was then she notice that she was tearing up.

"...because I love you, Angelica." He wiped away her tears that she started to shed.

Angelica only looked at him with uncertain eyes and hesitation. He could only sigh and bring her into his arms again and kiss her tears away with his lips. He continued to do so all over her face. Her cheeks, forehead, eyes and finally her lips.

A soft and gentle kiss that lasted for only seconds.

"Angelica, love isn't bad or good. But if you want to know how much I love you then I will teach you it and make sure you remember all the good things about love." He said softly as he watched he open her eyes to look into his.

He then picked her up in his arms and kissed her forehead softly.

"Sleep. Think about it tomorrow and don't worry. If your ever lost come to me and I'll explain to you what I mean." Both in gentle and roguish ways. He watched her close her blue eyes and finally fall into a slumber. He smiled and couldn't help but kiss her lips again and again, before stopping and decided to bring her to bed. She was recovering and after a long slumber she would be feeling a bit more tired than usual.

Ivan strolled down the hall and ignored the servants who clearly looked at him with a strange and shock look. He entered her room and gently laid her down on the bed and made sure she was tucked in properly.

He smugly smiled at his confession just now and knew that this was the start of something special for him and her.

And of course this was the beginning of his shamelessness.