Chapter 11 Room of mirrors

Setting Narrator

As our main character woke to the sound of rain and thunder she covered her body looking next to her at the man she had spent the night with. She held the sheets close to her body and stared at the bed that reminded her of the scars she wanted to hide. The room had a mirror in each corner as if to represent the walls that trapped her mind. She looked to the one in the corner closest to the bed on the right and she saw her face and couldn't look away. Then she looked to the mirror behind her on the left closest to the bed and she could only see his face mocking her, as she swung her head to look at the mirror next to that one she once again saw her face and it laughed at her and asked why she didn't just leave. She jolted to the last mirror in the room and slowly crawled over Suga and walked over to it she touched the mirror as she saw the one face she didn't want to see say the worst thing in the world, she saw Bea mocking her asking why she couldn't just enjoy the sex that she clearly wanted.

Azulia pov

HE snored lightly as he slept so effortlessly it was then that I shot up and a chill went down my back. Suffocating, was all I could feel as from one direction to the next only awoke a new horror. In which I couldn't tell if it had lied in my mind, heart, or the world itself. In a room was all I felt lost trapped in isolation. The time was one of loss as the demons I tried so hard to keep inside derailed and awoke. His body next to me only made it worse. HE laid with marks that a part of me had given him. I just couldn't tell which part, or even if I had wanted to know.

" OH you want to know.'' said a sultry voice that had a familiar hidden undertone. I looked to the first mirror I saw and it laughed at me, it was me. "You could have said stop or no but you didn't you just let him control you just like the last guy did. HAHA look at you soooo confident and yet you can't show that courage when you're in danger, or when you think you're in danger." That's what the me in the mirror said as she smiled and then i turned away trying to hide my shame but I found another mirror, this one looked like Suga he said in a mocking tone "I know you liked it, don't sit there pretending to be scared ." ' We both know how much you enjoyed it. " He licked his lips as he paused as if he were reliving it. "I mean you moaned like you did prove me wrong." I looked to the one next to it just to once again see myself looking back at me "You lied to him with your moans you told him you loved his touch but in truth, you didn't why? Why didn't you push him off, why couldn't you use your strength you're weak you always have been you're nothing, Nothing, NOTHING, NOTHINNNNGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!" This image of me screamed like a banshee I'm nothing, I'm nothing. It wouldn't leave me alone. The yells echoed through the room I had to look away and so I saw the last mirror. It looked normal and so I slowly made my way out of bed still clenching the sheets to my chest and I made my way to it and then I saw the scariest thing of all. "Hello Zul, what do you see when you look at my face? Do you see Bea or a monster? You smiled at him and you kissed his lips. It's ok to love the touch of a man but you had to ruin it, your brokenness had to go and ruin his fun. Why do you ruin everything Zul, why can't you just live a little?!"