The Routine

I hear the sound of lights turn on from the kitchen. It was Morning again "another sleepless night.." I hear my mom walk to the cupboard like every morning reaching for the instant coffee right behind the the sugar. She takes 4 mins to make and only sips half way thru it. Seems as if she is waiting for someone. Could it be me? No it can't be. I open my my door but she is gone out the door and in her car. I never get up before she leaves to work. I guess it's our schedule "Right mom?".. I take a deep breath and read her note of how she loves us and how she will see us after 6. I smile and close my eyes shes still there. I get ready for school and I could see my sister is still getting ready. I could smell the burnt smell of hair being burned to a straight slick ponytail. I could almost hear " Are you excited for your first day of highschool?" I close the door and let my knees hit my chest. I could... I almost could. I'm hunched over i bury my face in my knees. I hear the bus honk. I run to the door and look at our picture on the way out. "I love you too Kara." The overcrowded bus ride to my first day was already having me dreading to be back home. I place my headphones on and let my music relax me. I close my eyes and I drift away far in my sleep. I hear my sister's voice again " Valerie braid my hair please" as we sit with mom outside drinking lemonade. I could hear them crack jokes and laugh their lungs out. I open my mouth and I I dont say anything I get up and try talking and dont hear myself they see me and they walk away I couldn't move or talk. i try yelling but nothing came out. "Hey!! wakeup kid" I woke up to the bus driver scolding me. " I'm sorry Ma'm I dozed off for a bit" She sighs "You wouldn't want to be stuck in here now?" I run up to the front of the school. I look up and see the school name J.W high school. I see everyone walking to get inside and start their day. I look up and whisper "How long would I be here till we runaway again?"