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"Why did you do that? Why the hell did you do that? Didn't I tell you to stop bothering me? I don't like you and how many times do I have to shout it in front of you just to make you understand that I don't like you? I don't love you and that's the last thing I will ever do!"

They say words cut deeper and harder than knives. A knife can be pulled out but words are embedded into our soul. It leaves unseen and long-lasting scars. But guess what? She knew it, yet she wanted to take a sip of her sorrows and drink from her trapped bleeding heart.

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It all started 8 years ago when she met him and fell in love with him. The problem was that he already has a girlfriend and he doesn't like her. But a stubborn and spoiled brat Samantha Soriano couldn't accept it. So she made a decision and planned everything to make Luke Marcuz Williams her man.

But fate didn't seem to cooperate with her stupid plan as it failed her, in which she ended up trapped with him in an arranged marriage. A marriage wherein everyone's eyes were perfect, full of love and respect, but in reality, it seemed like hell. He made her life a living hell.

They didn't know that behind those smiles painted on her lips, tears flowed silently... and behind those laughs she was sharing, pain and sorrow were hidden carefully.

Until she learned to let go and learned the truth that he will never start loving her, no matter what she does.

But... 

What if everything suddenly changed after four years? What if he started showing the care and love he should have done 4 years ago, will she be willing to forget everything that happened and leave them behind? 

And if she realizes she has never really forgotten him, will she be willing to give him a chance this time or will she be ready to be with the man who once caused her pain?

Love Me One More Time

It has been two weeks since Luke came to talk to me and it has also been two weeks since I started to wonder where he is now. I wonder how he resolves the mess and what he plans to do to resolve it.

I missed him, but it was so hard to give your trust again after how many times it has been broken and you felt disappointed. Many people will tell you if you love someone, you should accept them for who they are and should love all their flaws... weaknesses... imperfections.

Yes, I love him but the question is not how much I love him or how much love I can give him, but how many times should I have to be broken just to be with him?

My mind and heart were simultaneously yelling at me to stop and go on at the same time. While my mind kept screaming at me to stop as the same thing always happen over and over again... I'll forgive him now, but he will do it again on the next day, my heart kept knawing me to hold on and give him another chance.

Chapter One hundred seventy-three: Life and its surprises