Life 004

"Oyyy Ray."

Oh shit it's Rin. I forgot that she always eat breakfast here. Ah, what a bad timing really. What should i do? Should i lie to her? Should i tell her the truth? I don't know what to do now.

"Hey Ray, why you didn't go to school yesterday? Are you sick?"

"No, i'm just" Damn really? Should i tell her now?

"Just?"

Bad, really bad. I don't want her to know but it just impossible.

"I dropped out from school. That's all."

"Eh?" She was shocked and tears came out of her eyes. "For real? What? Don't joke please. What happened Ray? Why don't you tell me? We are friends don't we?"

Her face, i don't want to see her face like that.

"Yes we are. But it just, I can't tell you. I'm sorry Rin. It's really difficult for me to tell you what just happened. But you can say that I'm doing a really bad thing so that I need to be dropped out of school."

"Why don't you want to tell me?"

"It just, you will not believe me, that's why."

"I will believe you. Didn't i tell you before? I always believe you. Why don't you believe me then?"

I don't want to see her face like that.

"Then, do you believe me that i just kidnap a girl?"

No, that's not what i want to say to her.

"Hah? Of course not, why would you kidnap a girl?"

"Look? You didn't even believe me."

I lied in the end. I can't tell her what i want to say. I need her help but i can't ask her with this kind of situation. It's really bad for her and for me. If she knows that i have a problem with mafia, she will definitely help me. I don't want her to interfere in the problems i made.

"Lier, you lier. You didn't tell me the truth."

"I tell you the truth but you didn't believe me."

She slapped me and cried in front of me.

"Why? Why did you still lie to me? We are friend right? Best friend right? I know all things about you. I know that you lie to me, Ray." she cry infront of me.

I can't do anything. I'm speechless, i can't tell her anything. I do really want her to help me but i just can't tell her. I don't know why but it really bothers me alot. I do want to i do. I need your help Rin, but i'm sorry.

"Sorry." i left her in the restaurant and run away from there.

She still crying at the restaurant. She really wants to help Ray alot. But Ray don't want to tell her anything. He only tells her a lie.

"Why Ray? I'm your best friend right? Why can't you trust me to help you? You always help me but i don't have the chance to help you. It's unfair right?"

I'm the worst, leaving a girl like that, even make her cry like that. I just don't know what to do. My lips are sealed, everytime i want to tell her i can't speak anything to her.

Maybe i can't tell her but the truth is i don't want to tell her, that's what i always think. But i don't know what I will do now. After leaving my home, my friends, and everyone i knew, i had nowhere to go. I'm really the worst man in the world right now.

I usually calm down and try to find out what is the right solution for my own problem, but this time i tried to run away from my problem.

After i'm leaving the restaurant, i'm going to my old house. My old house is far away from my school and from everyone. I think my parents didn't sell the house yet and the house is kinda broken right now, because they left it like 10 years ago. I know where is the backup key is. I still remember my parents left it at the welcome mat.

"Well, there's no more option. I hope i still can do my daily activity there."

Yes, that's my only hope, my old house.

I run to my old house, it's near my old elementary school too. But there's no way my parents going back to old house right? Well i hope they didn't.

It's 11.45 A.M and still walking to my old house. There are no bus destination to go there and there are no taxis that pass this way. I'm so tired, i didn't have a drink or food. Maybe i should go to minimarket if there's one.

I'm walking, walking and walking. Still no taxi and minimarket yet, only an old building only. I forgot how bad the environment was when i was a child. I don't remember if it this bad.

"Well, at least there is no drug dealer or criminals in here camping right? For real if there is, i don't know anymore."

Left, right, front, back, everything is just an old building without anyone living there. It's like an abandoned city.

It also have a scary atmosphere. No wonder why there's no bus or taxi is going this way.

I keep walking and walking with this scary atmosphere. I always think that someone is following me or something bad will happen to me. But i'm not scared of that. Because i know that i can defend myself.

After a few more minutes of walking, i finally arrived at my old house. It's still in a good condition even though it's very dirty. I search for the house key under the welcome mat. Then i unlock the front door and went in.

"I'm home!" i shouted.