The confession

"W-what?" I pause and stumble. "Could you repeat that? What did you say?"

"W-well," her face is flushed, "would you like this to be a date? I-it's fine if you say no. Pretend you didn't hear anything!"

"Laureen," I set the popcorn and other snacks down, "I-I would love for this to be a date."

"W-what?!" she seems as shocked as I do, "Y-you really mean it?"

There's not a lot of people around, so I confess to her. "Laureen, I know I've only known you for three days. But when I first talked to you, you were so nice to me. You even asked me to hang out with you guys for the day. You were simply nice to me, and most people aren't. And for some reason, I fell for that. I fell for an amazing person. When I first saw you, I thought you were hot. But I decided to help you out because it was the right thing to do. Little did I know that I would end up getting to know the best person I would ever meet."

"Grace," now she's talking to me, "when I first saw you, you helped me. Yeah, you were awkward, but you were there for me. I couldn't get the fact that someone offered to help me right away, even though I never met them before. Even just spending this little time with you, getting to know you, have been the best moments of my life. I know some bad things have happened, but we got through some of them, and we'll get through even more. At first, I thought it was just a crush. That's what science would say. But I realized love, at first sight, is real. I've never believed in love at first sight...until now..."

"Laureen, I feel the same way." I smile. I don't feel happiness, I feel something stronger. Love. Joy. "But the movie's about to start."

"Woooowwww, what a way to ruin the moment. But yeah, let's go."

We walk into the theatre and take our seats. We watch the movie, and it was great. However, we finished all of our snacks about halfway through the movie. Man, what a waste of money. But I can't get any of this off my mind. There's no way she likes me back, this has to be a dream! I just can't believe someone so amazing loves me back! I love Laureen, I do with all of my heart. I just can't believe someone loves me back, it's so unreal.

We walk out of the building and go back to her car. The day's over now, and I have to go home. But I don't want to, I want to stay with Laureen. I never want to leave her side. But that's just reality. At the end of the day, we all go to our separate homes and sleep alone. It's almost like it's a vicious cycle, seeing them, returning home, repeat. The only way I would end the day with Laureen is if we made it official. Even then, I'd have to wait until high school is over and maybe even college.

But I don't want to wait. Yet, I don't even know if I want to go to college or not. Hell, I don't even know what I want to be when I'm an adult. I'm almost done with my junior year, and time goes by fast. I barely got here, but I feel like I got to leave soon. But still, the thought of college haunts me. I don't know if I want to live or not, let alone think of the future. So that makes me wonder...what do I want?