Chapter 4 -Bipoler Heart

1 Year Later

So apparently, I can deal with this shit. 

Margo is still screwing that waiter from the party. Since taking down Nadia Burrows, I feel like I got my vengeance, but it didn't bring my family back.

I spent time dealing with countless torturous headaches and I spending my time with Khar. But not romantically. We did eventually go out to dinner. The best moment of my life was getting to know Khar Evans. We talked so naturally, and I felt like I known him forever which is weird to me.

I feel stupid for not letting him kiss me that night but I couldn't risk him developing more feeling for me. Maybe I'm the one who didn't want to risk my feelings for him. Either way I don't deserve him. I'm not stable enough for him.

"Alena sing Part of Your World with me pleaseeeee!" Cassie pleads as she cuddles into my side as we lay on the couch.

I told Khar I would babysit while he enjoys a hockey game with his dad. I love how close he is with his father.

Cassie and I sing along with Ariel as if our lives depend on it.

"What would I give to live where you are? What would I pay to stay here beside you" Cassie shouts out while standing on the couch.

I stand on the couch next to her like a big kid belting out my favorite part

"Up where they stay all day in the sun!!!"

My arms are in the air. Eyes closed, im taking this so seriously

"Wandering free! Wish I could be. Part of your worlddddddd!" I let that note drag forever. I'm out of breath. Damn.

Cassie claps and looks towards the door

"Daddy!!!"

I look towards the door and notice Khar staring at me like im a damn ghost. Well I'm embarrassed as fuck.

Cassie jumps in his arms as he walks over to me grinning knowing he wants to burst out laughing.

"Don't you dare laugh at me, Little mermaid is legendary" I say, covering my face.

He removes my hands from my face and kisses my cheek

"You sounded better than Ariel lol. Thanks for watching Cassie" He says, pulling me down on the couch with Cassie.

"Your full of it Evans. Why were you staring at me like that when you came through the door" I ask as he looks down at me.

"Someone I knew use to sing that song just as passionately" I notice the pain in his eyes.

"Alexanda?" I ask. Even though I know the answer.

He nods and rubs his hand over his face apologizing for constantly bringing her up. He has no reason to apologize. It's hard to let go of the pain of loosing people we love. It never goes away.

"Khar never apologize. If anyone understands grief, it's me. You can always tell me anything. Im here for you"

He reaches down and pulls my hand into his, interlacing our fingers together. I wish I could ignore these sparks shooting through me.

"I never thought I would get lucky to be gifted a best friend" he says, bringing his face down close to mine. Our eyes boring into each other as I nod

"Me too"

"Daddy are you going to kiss Alena" Cassie asked looking between us chuckling. Both of us embarrassed, we move away from each other.

"Young lady, how about we go to bed"

She reaches for my hand "Only if Alena can come say good night too"

He looks back at me and smiles. I grab her hand and walk with them to her bedroom. She jumps into bed and gets under her blanket. I tuck her into her blanket and sit on the edge of the bed.

"Alena promise you won't leave"

I brush the hair away from her face and kiss her cheek "I'll be back tomorrow I promise."

She leans up and hugs me. Khar is standing against the other side of the bed smiling down at both of us. I don't know what's got him happy all of a sudden.

He leans down and kisses her forehead while turning the lamp off

"Good night sweetheart"

I make sure she's tucked in good again before getting up. Khar is waiting for me by the doorway. I walk pass him and grab my jacket from his closet. He takes my jacket from my hand and puts it back in the closet.

"You know im not letting you go home at this time of night. Take my room. I'll sleep on the couch"

I begin to protest with him "I'm not kicking you out your room Khar. I can take care of myself, it's only a 10 minute walk down the beach"

He walks up to me putting his hands on my shoulder. "Bed" he says yawning.

I shake my head and fold my arms. He surprises me and lifts me up over his shoulder while walking me to his bedroom

"Evans!! If you don't put me down!"

He laughs and puts me down on the bed causing both of us to fall.

"Am I that fat!" I ask laughing.

He chuckles and kissed my forehead. I push him off me and climb onto his lap "You're an asshole Evans"

He places his hands on my waist and puts his head in my neck

I feel a poking sensation between my legs. I know he knows I feel it. Is my best friend really hard for me.

"Umm you might want to get off my lap"

I laugh and pull him on top of me, resting his head in my neck.

"Better?" I ask

He nods and looks at me. "Alena Fields you have been a light in my life since you came here. It feels like I known you forever. You already know things about me that no one knows. I use to feel like my vision was nothing but darkness. I grieve Alexandra every day, but it's been getting easier to cope having a good friend I can trust. I don't feel alone anymore. Thank You"

I feel wetness against my neck. He's crying. Damn. My own tears stream down as I rub his hair. He pulls his face from my neck not ashamed of his fallen tears.

I cup his face with both my hands wiping away each tear. "Khar Evans, your my safe place. I didn't know men like you existed until you forced tequila in my glass"

We both start laughing. He places his hand against my cheek and rubs my tears away with his thumb

"I have no one Khar. No family. I had no stability until you. You, Cassie and Margo are the only ones in my life right now. I can't lose you"

He kisses my forehead and hugs me tightly. "You will never loose me. I can't loose you either"

Damn the pain is coming back in my head. It feels like a vein is on the verge of bursting, im going to have a panic attack. I can't deal with this shit again. Khar notices immediately. He's been with me each time to know how bad they trigger.

He leaves multiple kisses on my head. I lean into his neck as he massages my scalp "Breathe Alena. Im here"

I instantly relax as his voice calms me. The pain starting to reside.

We hold each other for awhile until we hear someone clear their throat. We turn around to see Amberus staring at us awkwardly. I immediately remove myself from his lap causing Khar to groan in annoyance

"What the hell did I say about calling first!" He scowls irritated.

"I just needed a place to crash for the night. I was going to sleep in my daughter's room if you don't mind" She rolls her eyes and starts walking to Cassie's room.

I walk to the kitchen and grab my purse from the counter "Khar I'll see you tomorrow, I will be fine I promise"

He sighs in annoyance and throws his jacket on. "No im walking you home"

He grabs his keys and opens the door for me. I see Amberus looking from the doorway. I walk up to her shaking my head

"Don't give me that look Amb"

She smiles and hugs me tightly "Friends huh? I thought you took my advice"

"We are friends, minds your business  woman" I whisper in her ear.

I walk back towards the kitchen and wave at her

"Have a good night Alena" She says smiling as she waves back.

I would say it's weird being friends with my bestfriend's babymother but it's not. She's the sweetest soul and we clicked instantly. Thankfully she wasn't a cold hearted bitch who would try to stop me from being in Khar's life

I walk out the door and begin walking down the stairs as Khar follows behind me

"You mean the world to me Evans but you annoy the hell out of me sometimes. I could have walked by myself" I say, rolling my eyes. He steps from around me and opens the door for me.

"There she is, my favorite daughter"

Don walks up bringing me into a comforting hug. He has been like a father to me this past year. He is always checking in on me and making sure im okay, I never had that since my parent died

"It's good to see you Don" I smile as he pats my back

"Make sure she gets home safe son"

Khar grabs my hand and nods "I'll see you soon Don, take care"

..............................

We start walking along the beach as he bumps against my shoulder

"Yeah your right. A sexy woman walking on the beach alone at 11:30 at night. Absolutely safe" He says sarcastically.

I hit my shoulder against his "Sexy?" I ask curiously.

I heard what he said but I want him to repeat it. That one word leaving his mouth sent chills through my body.

"You know how I feel about you Alena"

He looks down at me. I avoid eye contact and keep staring ahead.

"Khar I...I" I studder.

Why do I have a hard time saying how I feel when it comes to a relationship. He shakes his head in disappointment already knowing the answer.

He grabs my hand and kisses the back of it "It's okay. I'm just happy to be in your life" He mumbles as his lips press more kisses on my hand.

I lean my head against his shoulder as we continue walking to my place. This man means the world to me.

We arrive to my penthouse, Khar walks me to my lobby and kisses my cheek as he waves goodbye. Those shivers never leaving my body.

Soon as I walk into the apartment, I hear Justin Bieber blasting from Margo's room. God, I hope she's done fucking that waiter guy. I place my bag onto the counter and walk to the fridge to grab a water.

"Don't Move" a male voice whispering behind me.

I put my hands up. I turn my head slightly to try to catch a glimpse of him. He pushes me forward causing me to brush against the counter

"I said don't move!"

I can see a blurry silhouette from the fridge. He's my height, not to muscular. His hand is shaking. Perfect

I slam my head back against his nose causing him to lean over in pain. I kick the gun from his hand. He looks up at me with his fear in his eyes. I pull him up against the wall, bringing my arm hard against his neck

"Who the fuck are you!" I yell.

He puts his hand up "Please don't kill me" he begs. He's just a kid. He can't be no more than 16

I loosen my grip and pat him down for more weapons

"Answer my question"

We get distracted as Margo's door flings open.

"Girl! That sex was EPIC" She yells.

She covers her mouth with her hand as she notices the bloodied nose teen in my grasp.

"Margo not now!"

I reach in the drawer and grab a towel. I dab lightly at his nose. He flinches, afraid I'm still going to hurt him.

"What's your name" I ask concerned. He holds the towel to his nose

"Im Hayden. Look im really sorry about everything but you need to trust me right now. You have to leave now!" He pleads.

He tried to pull me towards the door. I snatch my hand back

"Look kid im not going anywhere until you start talking"

Margo is standing curiously against the counter in her bra and panties. I notice Hayden cheeks redden. I turn to Margo and shake my head

"Um go put some damn clothes on" I say annoyed.

She winks at Hayden as his mouth falls open

"What were you going to say sweetie?" she says playfully.

I really cant with her. Before he could let out a word, a loud crash comes through the balcony door