Chapter 13 - Grief

Khar's POV

Margo called with a high-pitched voice letting me know she made it back home. I could tell she was nervous with her rambling. She's so damn adorable. The sound of her pitchy voice made me want to see her.

After all the crazy shit that has happened this past month. Amberus disappearing days at a time. Alena's attempt to end our friendship. I didn't believe a word she said until she claimed Zain as her boyfriend. It's like she was trying to hurt me to make me stay away from her. I guess she doesn't know me that well, little does she know there is nothing she could ever do to make me not want her in my life.

"Yo what are you doing here!" Margo's pitchy voice yells out as she throws her arms around me. I never thought I would be excited to surprise her. I can't pretend im not feeling anything for her.

I look behind Margo only to lock eyes with Alena. I dropped my hold on Margo and rushed to Alena's side. I don't know what's going on with her but she's different. It's like something dark possessed her

"Want a drink?"

I know something's wrong. I snatch the bottle from her hand and toss it to Zain. Why the fuck is he just standing there.

"Alena what happened? Talk to me"

Silence.

Why is she ignoring me. She backs away as I move towards her. Something happened to her, she never was afraid of me before.

I look to Margo and Zain to fill me in what's going on with Alena but they just keep looking at each other. I don't know what's going on here but everyone in this damn apartment is keeping something from me. I'm not having it, especially when it comes to her

Each step I take towards her she continues backing up until she ends up against the wall. I take the advantage and do what I do best.

It doesn't matter what was said between us last time. Whatever it is she's going through I will help her. 

I grab her face hoping she would make eye contact with me like she always do

"Alena talk to me please" I beg. I never beg.

"Im good Khar damn!" She's pissed off. I don't recognize this person in front of me.

"Look at me Alena" I pull her chin to look at me but she yanks away. I just need her to look at me. She needs to find her way back to me

"I said im fine!"

She tries to escape but there is nowhere to go. She pushes against my chest as I grip her shoulders. Whatever she's going through she needs to let it out.

I know the feeling of avoiding a deep pain and replacing it with darkness to avoid the emotions of grief. I won't let her do that to herself.

I notice her eyes starting to water. She's coming back to me. She's trying to fight so hard to restrain it.

"Alena I need you to look at me"

Her beautiful green eyes meet mine as she finally lets down her walls. There she is. My Alena.

Her eyes are full of pain. She falls into my arms as we slide down onto the floor. She is fully breaking down. All I could do is hold her and comfort her. I wanted her to know I'm here and I always will be.

"I got you. I'm here Alena" I reassure her as she continues to sob into my neck. I rub her hair as she lets all her emotions out. It took everything in me to fight my own tears from seeing her in this much pain. I'm use to her dramatic outbursts but this time it was different.

I lift Alena in my arms as she continues to cry in my chest. Seeing her like this is breaking me. I head towards her room as im met with a furious Zain. I don't give a fuck if he's pissed. All he did was stand there acting like everything was all good with her.

Margo turns her head away as I look in her direction. She touches her brother's shoulder as she moves to open Alena's door

"You can put her in the bed" Margo smiles but I can tell she's upset

I walk past her and place my sobbing best friend in her bed. I stand up to go to her closet as she grabs my arm

"Don't leave"

I take her hand and kiss it as I make her lay back down. "I'm just getting you an extra blanket, I'm not going anywhere"

She nods as she clings to her pillow. I walk to her closet and grab her blanket, only to find a picture of the two of us hugged up on the beach. She must of stuffed it in here because of him. It's not the time to get jealous.

I walk back over to her bed and place the blanket over her.

"Stay with me tonight please" She begs

I sit on the edge of the bed and rub the wet hair from her face. "Your boyfriend is in the other room. Much as I want to, things can't go back to how they use to be Alena"

She sits up wiping the tears from her eyes. "He's not..." she pauses.

She rolls her eyes and turns over away from me clinging back to her pillow "Your right, just go"

"Hey, we are not going to do that again, I'll stay here for a few minutes but you have to explain to me what happened to you tonight. You scared the hell out of me"

She turns around and looks at me sniffling from the constant crying. "I did something that I would regret for the rest of my life. I left as your best friend but I came back someone totally different Khar. I'm not the same person"

The pain in her eyes says it all. She looks broken. I would do anything to take every ounce of pain she's feeling

"We all do things we regret in life Alena. Things we can't take back no matter how much we wish we could go back to change the past. The only thing you can do is deal with the emotions that come with it. It's nothing you can do now.You can only make up for it by choosing to make better decisions in future by learning from it. I don't know what happened and I know you won't tell me but I will be by your side. And you will always be the same Alena to me "

She shakes her head as her tears start to resurface "What did I do to deserve you in my life. How can you still be here after what I said to you"

I rub her cheek while looking into her eyes. I love the way she keeps her eyes focused on mine

"Your dumb to even think something stupid as that would ever cause me to walk away from you. You need me and I need you"

She places her hand against mine as she holds it against her cheek. All I could do is look at her. Her smile warming my heart as she leans her forehead against mine.

Her eyes stuck on mine as I try to stop myself from claiming her lips. She's so beautiful. I shake my head as I break apart from her reminding myself of the woman I can't have.

"What's wrong" she asks concerned

I kiss her head as I place the blanket back on her "Nothing, get some rest okay"

"You have feelings for Margo"

I would never lie to her. I wish I could avoid this conversation, especially when she's vulnerable "I like her, we are only friends Alena. Get some rest we don't need to discuss that right now"

She get up and walks over to me pulling me into a hug. "You must be stupid if you think I don't know you Khar Evans. I see the way you look at her. I promise you im fine. I'm not fully there yet but I will be okay. I want you to be happy, Go tell her"

She smiles giving me her blessing. I won't deny that I feel something for Margo but that isn't my concern right now. Alena comes first in my life aside from my daughter I hope she know that.

"Goodnight, promise me you won't lose yourself again" I say kissing her cheek. Her beautiful smile emerges as she places her hand on my chest

"Promise, now go make my bestie one of the luckiest woman in the world"

She smiles through her words but the facial expression was the look of pain. She's probably still effected from her breakdown. I walk out her room and close her door. I lean against it, still worried about her

Margo walks down the hallway with her arms crossed "Is she okay?" Zain walks in behind her still pissed that Alena opened up to me.

"Man if you got a problem with me say it" I couldn't hold it in any longer. His smug face is pissing me off

"Oh sorry if I interrupted your moment with my girl. How rude of me. My sister's boyfriend to the rescue again"

"For someone who's known her longer you didn't know what the fuck to do or how to console her. My bad that I know her better"

Margo steps in front of us as she smiles sarcastically and pats my shoulder "Awesome! You guys just keep being annoying assholes. As for you eye candy, glad you came all this way to see me even though it was for 5 seconds cause my bestie is dramatic. But it's okay!"

She's rambling again. She's so adorable. I shut her up as I grab her chin and kiss her passionately. Zain looks away mortified. Good

She runs her tongue across my bottom lip and whispers "So are we like going out now for real?

Before I can respond, I notice Alena standing beside her door. She still looks broken.

My phone starts ringing. I pull it from my pocket "Hello"

"Good evening Mr Evans, this is Dr. Mackey from Saden Memorial Hospital we have a patient here with your information listed as an emergency contact. I'm sorry to say I have bad news"

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