Chapter 1.7.: The day We get to know ourselves

It was dark so dark that it seems like light had never existed here. I was standing there or maybe laying there. I just couldn't feel anything from outside, neither heat nor cold, it felt that my body has lost all of it's senses. But inside there was a storm of sad emotions. The sadness, hollowness of losing something, the pain of being neglected and betrayed were tormenting me from inside.

This was the first time I was feeling so neglected, I was so happy that time, I was finally able to call someone dad, I was going to get a father.

Father…. Dad…. I was thinking what to call him. I was thinking if he'll accept me as his son if I asked for this wish on my birthday in few days. I was going to be the best son in the world, I wanted to make him proud of me, I wanted to... have a father. When he hugged me, I felt so warm, I felt so comfortable in that hug. I was so happy that time, I didn't even notice that a knife entered in my throat from back and coming out from the front. I even tried to call him "Father"....

After a eternity of time, I finally started thing.

What have I done wrong?

Why can't I have a father?

Why Uncle Sebas did that?

Am I that of a bad child?

There was loneliness in my heart. That loneliness kept telling me that there is nothing in this world for me.

Where is my father?

Wait… in those dreams I kept having, those people….

Why they always kept saying me as son?

Are those people really my parents?

But I don't remember a thing about them?

I think those dreams are just dream s not real.

No wait… that strange person in those dreams. Haven't I seen him that day.

No…. Maybe I was so scared cause of that dream that I started hallucinating. Yes it must be that be, how can such a person exist in world?

So at last I'm just a orphan. What am I doing in this world? Why am I living? Shouldn't I die afterall I have no one in this world.

No wait… I have Sammy. Yes I have Sammy.

Wait… didn't Sarah said to kill us both? Don't tell me even…..

No no no�� Sebas loved Sammy. Even he was the one he wanted to adopt first. I was just a baggage.

Yes he wouldn't have killed Sammy. He must have begged Sarah after me to spare Sammy.

Sammy is just a little kid so younger than me, he wouldn't have thought of killing him.

"Hahahahahaha"

I suddenly heard a strange laughter in that eternity of darkness. I got scared, there was darkness everywhere and hearing a disgusting laughter in the middle of a eternal silence gave me a chilling sensation, maybe even hairs on my body stood up from goosebumps, I couldn't feel my body so I was unsure.

"That kid is dead already."

Again I heard that voice. I was suddenly struck by lightning, I had heard that voice before. So when I remembered when I had heard this voice and the being who said it, I couldn't see him in that darkness, but my thoughts become disarray, now the only thing in my mind was a terrifying face.

I asked in a unsure voice.

"Wh…who a…are you?" I realized my voice was trembling.

"Kid I'm here to bring you back, where you belong."

Hmmmm… where I belong? What is he saying?

No he just something else just now…

"What did you just said about Sammy?" This time there was no trembling in voice but replaced by anxiousness.

"That kid is dead already."

My mind went blank.

Dead….. Sammy is dead…. No it can't be…. How can he be dead? Sebas would never kill Sammy, he loved Sammy the most, he even treated him like a son….

Like a son.... like….a son…..

"Who killed Sammy?" I know who killed him but I still don't wanted to believe what I was thinking.

"It was that man, who killed you."

"I'll kill that bastard." I erupted, there was a fury in my voice. How could that bastard could kill Sammy? Doesn't he treated him as his own son.

That bastard used both of us. He used us to get fame, reputation, promotions. That bastard...

"Hahahaha…. You'll kill that man?"

I heard a laughter again. But this time it was filled with some kind of mocking.

"Seems like you don't know, you're already in a state where you can be called dead by humans"

"What? Noooo…."

"You'll be buried soon."

"What buried? What are you saying? Don't you see I'm still alive and talking to you. How can I be dead?"

This time I was terrified on hearing I'm dead. I wanted to die but now I'm feeling I couldn't die, I have something to do for Sammy. How could I let Sammy die for nothing. I'll ruin that bastard who killed him.

Suddenly I remembered something and instantly blurted it out.

"Hey you can save me can't you? I remembered those people asking you to save that kid."

"Please save me please. I'll do anything for you but please save me." I started begging to that voice.

"Anything you say?"

"Yes anything but please save me."

There was a strange thing going on in my mind that time. I remember correctly I could have asked him to save both me and Sammy or if he couldn't save both of us then just save Sammy, after all he was not of different look and could easily blend in the world around here, exact opposite of mine. But for some reason I couldn't speak that or that didn't even came up in my mind. Maybe the darkness I was in was effecting my thoughts now. That time I even thought of killing Uncle Sebas. Darkness was really taking over me that time. I still regret it of not asking him to save Sammy. I'm still filled with that regret even when I found out what the reason was but I still felt like that.

Back to that time when I was begging to that man, I didn't know I was being played right by him. Now I regret I wouldn't have asked that wish that time from him. That was a trap built by him and I couldn't understand that and walked right into that trap that time. That trap made me walk with a life I never wanted cause the next sentence he said not only scared me but somewhere inside I felt excitement and bloodlust.

" Can you kill other humans for saving yourself?" he asked.