Unexpected Turn

Marinette

"Luka, I just wanted to say I had a wonderful night, thank you" I couldn't help myself as I kissed him on his cheeks, "Goodnight" I said a little flustered.

As I walked up the stairs, heading to my room, I silently wished not to be disturbed by anyone.

I had sat at my desk thinking of a new design for a dress, all of a sudden a flash of what I experienced while Luka played his guitar creeped into my thoughts. No! You're overthinking, you're only committed to Adrien.

*Knock* *knock*

My head whipped to the sound and instantly regretted it, why didn't I go to bed?.

I studied his actions through the window, he seemed troubled and I instantly felt bad for ignoring him earlier.

As I let him in, I can't seem to wonder what had made him come back after my uncalled attitude few hours ago.

"Catnoir? I'm sorry I had shut you off like that" I began twiddling my fingers feeling nervous.

"It's alright, I was the one who intruded in your privacy" his expression unreadable.

"Not that I want you out, but why did you come back?" I was curious.

This time he was the one nervous as his eyes looked anywhere but mine. Did I say something wrong?, "Catnoir?, Please speak to me, I won't be able to know how to help if you can't open up to me" I instantly felt him withdrawing as I tried reaching for him to get a closer look at him.

"It was a mistake to drop by, I should leave" he muttered and gave a ruse smile "See you later princess" he said heading towards my window.

"Please don't leave like that" I held on to his arm stopping him momentarily, "forget I ever asked that quest-" what followed after was a shock to me.

Catnoir had swiftly released himself from my grasp and pulled me into a kiss shutting me up midsentence, I stood there frozen in shock. He pulled away and what I did after only worsened the situation.

*Slap*

I was as stunned as he was after my impulsive action. "Out!" I said as tears welled in my eyes as I tried to push him out, thankfully he didn't try to argue as he let me vent out my anger hitting, pushing him out, I turned my back towards the window, I could feel he was still outside burning holes at the back of head with his gaze.

As soon I was sure he had left, I release all pent up emotions falling to the ground, letting out muffled cries.

"Why did you do that?" Tikki said leaving where she hid, taking her place floating beside my face.

I looked up at Tikki but all I saw was a floating red blur, I tried cleaning stray tears before I could see her more clearly, "I..my.. I wanted Adrien to be my first kiss, a-and he took that away from me without giving me a choice, What about Ladybug? Doesn't he love her anymore? What would ladybug- me think of me if she found out?" Tikki looked at me a little puzzled, even I didn't know what I was saying anymore.

"And now I lost my partner in my alter ego form, I doubt he would want to see me again" I was internally battling with myself.

"Did you give him a chance to explain?" Tikki asked ignoring my ramblings.

"No" I hid my face in shame. "There's no explaining what he did" I tried consoling myself not wanting to face the fact.

"You sure about that?, There must be a very good reason he would suddenly do that, a person doesn't just change their love suddenly, there might have been something he felt that made him do it, try to speak to him" Tikki cajoled.

"Like you said, one doesn't change their love suddenly, so why did he? As ladybug he always flirted, trying his best to win her- my love, was his love never strong for her after all?, How am I supposed to speak to him if I wanted to anyways?" I asked.

Was I getting jealous of myself?

"His kwami could help!" She answered enthusiastically.

"You know who he is?" I couldn't believe what she just said.

"Um.. that's not what I meant, I have a means of calling his kwami, he is my other half you know" she smiled sheepishly avoiding eye contact.

Why is everyone avoiding and keeping secrets from me lately? Even Tikki?

"I'll let this one slide, I am not interested in his identity anyways" I said that to convince myself of the need of keeping our identities secret.

"So is that a yes, you'll go with the plan?" Tikki looked hopeful.

"It depends on my mood tomorrow Tikki, right now I want nothing more than going to bed, could we do that first? I have a long day of school ahead of me tomorrow" I didn't mean to be indifferent but it just happened. "and a lot of guilt to deal with too" I muttered the last part

"Oh.. ok maybe tomorrow then, I care about you alright?, I'm always here when you need someone to listen" she replied as I nodded in response.

How did everything manage to spin out of control?