Truth Doesn't Make a Noise

I know that my mission is complete, but I am lost on what I should do now. There is the woman, Vezena, that is still unconscious from when I attacked her. While I do not feel guilty, from having attacked her, I know that I can not just leave her here, unconscious and undefended, while I go back home to make my report. There is also the question on why she attacked me, while I was in the fight with that vile rodent.

I do want to answer that question, just so that I have an answer. I do not believe that I care about what the answer is, but I am still curious. If there is some real justification on the matter, maybe I can possibly prevent myself from being in that situation in the future.

There is also that niggling question of how much damage my attack did to her. While there are some techniques that are taught, on using mental powers against someone attacking you, that is only in conjunction of helping out to end that person's life. Long term ramifications of that attack are unknown, at least to me.

I have no idea if my attack will cause never ending problems. Or I could be just plainly wrong on that assumption, and that she will bare no scars. I want to bare witness the effects from my actions.

Much as I wish I could leave her here, to be forgotten, I have finally convinced myself that I should bring her with me. As much as it might sound sadistic, if she ends up becoming an invalid, I can utilize her on learning to use my powers. I have had some, but limited, practice on healing. If she is essentially a living corpse, it might just be better for me to experiment on her with my powers.

With that decided, since my cart is carrying products that have not been completed, and I can fairly easily replace, I threw them away, and loaded Vezena in the cart. Maybe I have some reluctance on what my future actions may be, I have already healed her of any physical wounds. As for checking out her mental wounds, I should not do that now. Covering her up with a tarp, so as to prevent any question from whomever I might meet on the road, it is time to head back home.

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With being exhausted from the night before, and hauling the cart, with a heavier load that I left with, it took me well into night, before I got back to my house. There were a few group of people that passed me on the road, but my luggage was never even glanced at with any level of actual curiosity. If I was more open to feeling guilt, I am sure I would be feeling guilt from hauling Vezena to my house, the way I was doing.

One thing I realized, with pulling the cart, I need to somehow create a smoother path leading to my house. With the few trips that I have taken into town, with my limited wares, weighing down the cart, I had not yet noticed how uneven the path is. There are still numerous roots, and other vegetation that I will need to eventually get rid of, so as to make an actual path.

There are too many things that I need to do, and never enough time to do them all. And then, there are times where I have too much time, and not enough things to do. I have never been able to understand how you either have too much time, or not enough, all when dealing with the same general situation.

Random musings aside, I carried Vezena into the house, and further down into the basement. I have no fear of any damage she could do, but it is still a better choice to secure her, than leave her loose. There have been no clues, as of yet, to when she will wake up, nor what she could do if she woke up in a situation where she has no idea of where she is.

Tomorrow morning, I will head into town to report my success. When I am there, I am planning to talk to Muceni, and see if she has any knowledge on what will symptoms that Vezena might suffer. If not that, maybe she can give me some advice on what I should do with her.

I might seem that I am sure of myself, but I do realize, at times, that there are too many things that I do not know. With Muceni also being an Unleashed, I am hoping that she can give me some guidance, of any sorts. While Girts would probably be a better person to ask, I have a completely different connection with Muceni, compared to the one with Girts, and it feels less complicated to ask her, than him.

As I am cooking food for myself, and I guess I do have a "guest" to feed, also, I keep questioning myself on what I should do with her. The morality of what I have considered doing to her, are in complete contrast of everything I followed in my previous life, and this life up to the current time. Am I someone that is capable of treating another human being as an experiment, an unwitting participant at that?

No, it is better to leave those questions for now, until I have more knowledge on the situation. I just need to eat some food, and take care of… her.

In my own mind, I have already started to dehumanize Vezena. I have nary a clue of when I was starting to think in the mode. Realizing it, I know it should feel wrong, but, I think I need to have this train of thought. If I start treating her as a human, I will have to make myself treat her humanely. If I treat her as a human, and find out that she will never regain consciousness, I will have to, at least, take care of her for the rest of her time. If I dehumanize that thing, even if she never wakes up, and I do not do anything else to her, I can release myself from the burden of taking care of it.