Same old Boring

Morning

Breakfast at 8am

Shower by 9am

Rearrange book shelf by 10am

Nap at 10.30am

Make lunch 11am

Lunch 12pm

Afternoon

Read newspaper 1.30

Watch TV 2.30

write on Journal 3pm

Nap 3.30

Tea and Snacks 4pm

Make Dinner 5pm

Dinner 6.30pm

Evening

Watch Movie 7pm

Shower 9pm

Go to bed 10.30

Weekends

Play with dog

Window Shop

Grocery run (Sold some of my pre-loved clothing and shoes so I could buy mostly personal hygiene stuff)

Clean house, wash dishes and do Laundry( fuck I hate everything else, but I love a good smelling under wear)

Get the dog bathed and blow dried in cold days and air dried in summertime

Write resumes and send out applications to companys i know won't hire me, some of them called, most of the time they don't and says bullshit like

"Thank you for applying and we will keep your information in our database for any future reference"

and fucking promise to call me for opportunities blah blah blah

Until in Sunday nights when the house is finally quiet I do my journaling and writing

Writing about how shitty my life has been, my year of self loathing, over eating, feeling like shit all the time.

Until one day I told myself fuck this, I'm going to make things right, I'll go back to school

and learn a new skill.

Good thing my Mom loaned me a few bucks, to enroll. In a technical school, for losers like me who does the same old boring stuff day in and day out.

Kill me now, as i wrote in my journal.