Depression is my friend

I am staring at my journal

asking myself

what is next?

i am jobless

i live at home

i have to feed myself

and i have to work to live

i have my last pay with me

on my last day i received

i am so broken

i think it was my lowest moment

staring at the ceiling

not knowing if i can restart my life

i was cast in the abyss of nothingness and sorrow

maybe i was not meant to be successful

i was not meant to be working for other people

oh my gosh

maybe that's the reason why, maybe I was meant to start my own business

but what can i do i don't have anything right at this moment

i was looking outside when i should've been looking into my soul, my inner being

how am i going to do it with so little resources

i started to research my hobbies, interests and what am I good for?

what can i do to make a good investment?

am i even matured enough to handle it?

quit it doubts are not welcome here

so my first interest

i love dogs

i love taking care of them

so why not build a small shelter for them?

fostering helpless puppies

and maybe People like me who are in the same situation

can help out anyway we can

and finding them new homes

fantastic!!!

its the answer to my problems

dogs are like my best friend