HONESTY OF HEART
"Okay, I'll go home first ... bye Dham ... Bella." said Abay as he walked towards the door and went out.
After Abay disappeared behind the door, Bella's gaze turned to Ardham, who was still observing the letter from Arsen, which Abay had neatly arranged in one document.
"Dham ... apart from this problem, there is something I want to ask you" said Bella looking at Ardham's eyes seriously.
"What do want you ask." Ardham replied back to Bella's gaze as he closed the document holder again.
"Is it true that you are married to Anna?" Bella asked, could not escape his gaze.
Ardham was silent, it was difficult to explain everything to Bella, who did not know the story from the start.
"Are you still hesitant to answer the truth? Or should I answer my own question?" said Bella impatiently waiting for Ardham's answer.
"What do you know Bella?" Ardham asked, feeling unsettled by what Bella knew.
"That you are not married. And there is no marriage between you and Anna. Is what I know" Bella asked with an intimidating look.
Ardham let out a long sigh, not knowing what to answer.
"I ... what else to tell you Bella. All this for me is very complicated compared to the Arsen problem." Ardham replied with a complicated face.
"Why do you have to lie to Nadine and Marvin? Why do you tell them that if you and Anna are married, I don't understand at all" Bella said, wanting to know the reason why Ardham did this.
Ardham looked at Bella anxiously, whether he wanted to tell everything or not.
"Can I trust you Bella?" Ardham squinted at Bella's face.
"Is it because I am Marvin Mom, that you are afraid to be honest and open to me Dham? I can read everything from the look on your face, the look in your eyes, when you talk to Nadine and talk to Nadine. You love Nadine, don't you?"Bella asked looked at Ardham deeply.
Ardham's heart gasped, his face flushed with embarrassment. Bella's feelings have been read. Ardham was silent and didn't know what to say anymore, to explain everything to Bella. Bella is Marvin Mom, and from Bella and Ardham, it turns out that Arsen and Kayla have matched Nadine with Marvin since they were little. And that adds to his hurt more and to bury his feelings even more.
"Dham, come on ... be honest with me. I want to know exactly what happened between you and Nadine?" Bella asked in a low voice.
Ardham sighed again.
"I really love Nadine Bella, and that feeling hurts me a lot now. I can only love her without being able to have it. I'm just a lover who loves Nadine in silence, without anyone knowing but Anna. Even Nadine doesn't know how I feel." Ardham's voice croaked as he looked at the ceiling in his study.
Bella's heart touched hearing what Ardham said. In his gaze Ardham's face was fixed.
"If you really love her, why don't you just be honest with Nadine Dham?" Bella asked again, not understanding Ardham's way of thinking about love.
"I'm ashamed Bella, I feel old. I deserve more to be his parent. I feel like a pedophile man." Ardham's voice choked up even more, saying that he was a boy who liked young leaves.
Bella smiled, seeing Ardham's attitude that was too innocent in looking at love.
"Why should you be ashamed Dham? There is no old or young for a feeling. And who says you are old? You still look young. It is still appropriate to side with Nadine." said Bella with a smile.
Ardham stunned in his chair after hearing Bella's words.
"What did you say Bella?" Ardham asked incredulously.
"I'm telling the truth Dham. And if I can give an opinion, you are not a pedophile man because I can see your love is so sincere without wanting to hurt Nadine. Be honest with Nadine before it's too late Dham." said Bella advising Ardham.
"Honestly I'm afraid Nadine will not forgive me. I've told too many lies to Nadine with stories that are not true. I have hurt Nadine many times, even I had time to embarrass her and cry." said Ardham with his eyes closed, remembering all his treatment to Nadine in the previous time.
"You haven't tried yet and you're already afraid of Nadine's anger. Listen to me Dham, if someone loves sincerely he will easily forgive?" said Bella trying to calm Ardham's heart and encourage Ardham.
"Do you think so?" Ardham asked convincingly.
"That's not only in my opinion. On average, all women like that easily melt and forgive the man they love, even though they are often hurt sometimes." said Bella giving her opinion.
"Then what about the matchmaking Marvin and Nadine? I can not possibly violate the wishes of Arsen and Kayla Nadine parents." Ardham said with his face starting to fade again.
"Surely in nature Arsen and Kayla will not be willing if their daughter is married to an old man." Ardham said again with a sigh which began to feel tight again.
"All that Arsen and Kayla's plan when Nadine was a child, and now Nadine is an adult, let her decide who her heart falls on." said Bella trying to understand Ardham's position.
"Does that mean you didn't force Marvin to marry Nadine?" Ardham asked with a pounding heart.
"I didn't say it like that, I'm still trying to realize Arsen and Kayla's dream of marrying Marvin and Nadine. But I also don't close my eyes, if in Nadine's eyes there is love for you, not Marvin. Come on ... Dham, compete fairly. with Marvin to get Nadine's love. Let Nadine decide later. " Bella encourages Ardham to achieve what he wants.
Ardham was silent for a moment, all of Bella's words in his digestion until there was something that aroused his feelings of love for Nadine. The longing that rose in his heart even more.
"Dham, why are you silent? When are your plans to express your feelings to Nadine? Don't tell me if you still want to find the right time. You must know, Marvin started to love Nadine and I know how Marvin is, he will not easily let go of something that is in especially with the woman he loves. " Bella said reminding Ardham.
"As soon as I will talk to Nadine, I have to wait for Anna first." Ardham said with a slightly uneasy look. Thinking of how he would express his feelings for Nadine.
"Okay dham ... if you need my help, I'm ready to help you. Don't hesitate, I'm neutral here. I only support Nadine where her heart is anchored." Bella said as she stood patting Ardham's shoulder.
"Thank you Bell, I'm glad there are more friends who encourage me for my feelings." said Ardham sincerely
"You're welcome. Oh yeah, I'll stay over here dham. I can sleep in Marvin's room, you take it easy ... I'll accompany Marvin while here, so it doesn't bother you too much." said Bella with a smile full of meaning.
Ardham nodded and smiled.
"I'm going to Marvin's room now, you rest." Bella walked to the door and came out.
After Bella left, Ardham grabbed his cellphone and immediately called Anna. Without anything to hide anymore, Ardham shared about the Arsen and Kayla problems, as well as the problem of Bella's support regarding her feelings.
Anna listened there seriously.
"I've always given you the same advice, like Bella. But continue to stick with your ego, Dham."
"Hm ... yes, I'm sorry." said Ardham regretfully not listening to Anna's words.
"Then when are you going to tell Nadine everything?" asked Anna seriously.
"I don't know yet, Anna, tonight I'll think about it. When are you coming home? You rarely come home lately? I smell something here." Ardham said jokingly.
Anna chuckled there.
"Why am I going home? You don't have time for me yourself, other than Nadine and Nadine." said Anna smiling sadly.
"Hm ... I'm sorry." said Ardham acknowledging that it was true.
"Just relax Dham, I'm kidding. I always support you, you are a good man and you are also my best friend. If you need help, I'll be home soon."
"You haven't answered my question correctly? I smell something here, why do you rarely come home?"
"There is a co-star of mine in one film. Erm ... it seems like he was interested in me, and I ... was a little interested in him." Anna answered there laughing sheepishly.
"Hmm ... is that so? So my beautiful friend can open your heart. Good, I'm happy to hear that. Immediately send a photo of the man, I'll make sure he deserves you or not." Ardham said happily.
"Yes ... yes ... soon Mr. possessive." said Anna embarrassedly.
Ardham laughed softly.
"I want to see you happy Anna by making sure you are loved by a good boy, who is just like me." Ardham said earnestly.
Anna laughed there again.
"Thank you Dham, you are still the best."
"All right, late Anna." Ardham said ending the conversation.
"Night, you too Dham."
Ardham's heart felt light, his heart would be very relieved if Anna could open his heart to receive another love.
Honestly, from the start, he was a little nervous thinking about Anna's feelings who had accompanied him for years, without the slightest demands or complaints. Ardham is deeply indebted to Anna.
Ardham got up from his seat and walked to his desk. He opened the drawer of the table, and took out a photo of Nadine who looked beautiful there.
Ardham sat back, staring at Nadine's photo without blinking.
"I'll be honest with you Nadine, soon I'll tell you everything." muttered Ardham softly. Ardham's sleepy eyes began to close, still holding Nadine's photo in his hand.