"Unwind the stars"

There are days I start to panic because I am not loving you.

I start to unravel

wondering, worrying, "will he ever be mine?"

My mind is a mess, he is all I can make space for.

I beg, "Why can't we unwind the stars and let me do it all different.

There is a pain in my heart without him, I'd die to do it over again."

Then there are days I am stronger than this.

I remember the stars and that I am that same bliss

and so they told me carefully:

"There is no unwinding.

We have found a perfect way here,

for you found pieces of yourself everywhere he wasn't.

n.f