03. In body of the second miss

''Qingqing, do you feel now a bit better?'' A beautiful girl held her hands tightly and when her eyes dropped on their hands Li Xiaoqing realized. She is now in the child's body. Does she still have a chance not to make the same mistakes?

''Zhenzhen, I must tell you something...'' Lee Xiaoqing realized that her name was just the same so she happily smiled at Zhenzhen. ''I was unreasonable. I don't know what is going on with me lately. Please forgive me. Can you help me up I need to ask the whole family for forgiveness. Will you help me? This time I really need your help, or I might get beatings...''

Her big eyes looked fearfully at Zhenzhen that just chuckled and shook her head. ''Luckily nothing happened to you. Trying to learn to ride on a big horse was too early for you. Next time I will help your fist with a small pony and then when you learn well enough you can ride out with me. I think Elders were more afraid that you hurt yourself than angry for not listening to them.''

Actually, Xiaoqing suddenly realized where everything started. When she was about eight years Zhenzehn could already ride the horse, but Elders stopped Xiaoqing to the same as she was two years younger and much smaller. Hating the feeling that someone could do something better than herself, the little girl started having strands of envy in her heart. But so strong that it destroyed her life...

She sneaked into the stall and went onto the horse that got scared and threw her off his back. She fell luckily on the full stack of straw so actually nothing happened. She just got scared completely.

A man in simple clothes came in with a bag and bowed politely. ''Miss Lee, please lay down. I need to see is everything fine with you.''

Lee Xiaoqing just nodded and with curiosity looked how he slowly took a cloth out and pressed his fingers on her wrist. After a while, a small smile appeared on his lips and he sighed in relief. ''Second miss just got scared. Luckily there are no internal injuries. Luckily...'' He bowed deeply and left in a rush with a big smile while Xiaoqing just sighed.

While Zhenzhen pinched her cheeks and swayed her head here and there to make her laugh through the window two small heads peeked fearfully towards her. She chuckled and waved her hand. ''Come in. I am fine.''

Her two small servants. From inside she sighed deeply. Even small children like them had to work hard at those times. The two girls were appointed to her just a couple of days before and in the past life, she made them kneel whole day in anger. When she thought about it, the past owner was quite a psycho, even as a child.

She saw two girls coming in and crying while they bowed deeply in front of her. ''Please forgive us, please forgive us...''

With a roll of eyes, she sighed. ''I am alive and it's not your fault that I chose to scare the big horse. It's not like you made me do it. What are you sorry about? Stop crying and go wash your faces. I like cute girls serving me, not dirty ones.''

The girls stopped crying and rushed out. Zhenzhen looked at her with big eyes and hugged her again. ''My sister is so smart. Good. To punish people randomly would make our Lee family lose their face. And they are just two kids in training as well.''

Zhenzhen words made Lee Xiaoqing look at the girl bit closer and saw something she didn't see before in her vision of this woman's memories. This child's thoughts were deeper than grown-ups.

She took Zhenzhen's hand and looked at her. ''Big sister, I am just child that throw temper sometimes, but that doesn't mean I am dumb and don't know anything. After all, I am Lee as well.''

Lee family was a famous scholarly family. Most of the male members work for the government and her grandfather was a famous teacher. Her grandmother was something she never expected. As well scholar. In this world, it seems all go to school, females and male as well.

Females can become scholars as well or even officials. But most of them chose not to as it was hard to do so with children in the back. Most female officials chose for that reason just to live alone and never marry in their lifetime. Having whole family hanging on your back and not supporting, multiple concubines and then children from the whole household, elders, uncles, aunts and the whole family and then to work on top of it. It was impossible.

But they had the right of choice. And Lee Xiaoqing liked that. Looking at those memories the two girls should get arranged marriage a few years later. She sighed. If she has to marry that man again she will accept it. After all, she was different. She actually likes big men with muscles.

Looking at him having only that woman in his life meant he loved only her. If they can talk about it, she might as well then become official. If he cares only about that other woman, she can freely become what she always wanted. Teacher.

She even inherited all the knowledge so she could just add bits of what she missed when she starts going to school. And it seems she will start soon.

The two girls came back and she sighed. ''Can I give you two new names?''

They happily looked at each other as it was actually great honour to get from master ( in this case mistress) a new name. ''Yes miss. We would be honoured.'' They kneeled in front of her and waited.

''I like flowers. Let's see. You have a white face and a big smile. Your name is Luli. And you have radiant expression. Hm. Lan?''

Luli and Lan. Simple clear names are given by mistress. The two girls deeply bowed and smiled brightly at the little girl that let her feet float over the corner of the bed carelessly.

Seeing her bare feet the two girls rushed to bring her socks and shoes while Zhenzhen just shook her head. ''You still hate socks. The coldness of the floor made you last year be in bed for the whole month. You had to drink three times a day the bitter medicine. Do you plan to do that again?''

Thinking about old-time medicine in the liquid form she paled. This is something she hated the most, but in this place, medicine is even worse than in her world. To get better she would have to drink the whole bowl of dark substance that was so bitter that the stomach would churn badly.

She pulled her feet quickly up and waited until the two girls didn't bring her socks and shoes.

With a sigh and determination, she took Lee Zhenzhen's hand and started walking towards the door. ''Big sister, today you must save my life, please.''

Zhenzhen smiled brightly and nodded and they walked out hand in hand.