A.N.:// Skipable Chapter- Trigger Warnings

Hey wazzup guys you are probably tired of my skipable chapters because I've been putting too much personal stuffs on it. I'm sorry I had to.

I'm sorry for not being able to update last day. I had many things going on with myself. Writing this novel really is very triggering for me but it helps a lot too because through this novel, I now have a medium to vent my frustration on myself [LOL just kidding] [but it's half truth].

I have a lot of chores in the house because I am the eldest and my mama works overseas and I have no one to share the works with. I really wanted to update at least two chapters a day but the household chores had been too tedious [not that I'm complaining- it's just hard].

As I have said before, this story had been published on wattpad before but I hate how I wrote back there and yeah, just - ah I don't want to talk about it lol.

An acquaintance asked me why I killed Cameroon [Cammy] - well, to be honest, I really meant to give him a more tragic death--one that will torture him- [evil laugh] because Cammy is me.

I won't go into details but Ajan is based on another human as well [of course I calibrated other traits] but mainly Ajan's personality was based on someone who is not with me anymore. The letter of Cammy was my letter to the one who left me [LOL] - and I do hope that it reaches him but there's a part of me that knows that he will be terribly mad once he reads it LOL.

Oh, I'm a girl. And Ajan was a boy in real life..

And the chapters of Ajan and Cammy is the last time that I will write about how he broke me. How he broke my trust in humanity--and how I detached from this world. Now I don't even know if I trust anyone because I don't even trust myself.

I think I'm going crazy. There are lots of things going on inside my head and it tortures me everyday. Sometimes, I think everyone hates me. Including the people I love and adore.

I can't blame them and because of that, I have decided to put some of the parts of the letter I wrote when I attempted to kill myself before in Stellar's letter.

I don't want to trigger anyone anymore and if I trigger you, please stop reading.... But remember that I will still finish this :>

I should vent my frustration on Erika's story, because you know, lol

Thanks for my 10th collection!