Chapter 86

"How are you, my old friend?" Nathan asked Light as they enterred his pure white room. He no longer remembers if he already told Light about what the building where he was confined is about because his nerves were taking over him.

"I'm okay." Light said with a frail smile but cold tone that he always knew. Nathan and Cammy took chairs from the side and sat down in front of him. "What's wrong with you?"

"Do you know what this place is Light?" Nathan started and Light was so uneasy he was hurting hinself with his nails.

"It's a hospital." Light replied coldly.

"It's a hospital, yes, but what kind?"

"Therapeutic?"

"Do you remember why you are brought here?" Nathan continued but he was too sweaty that Light was distracted because it wasn't very hot.

"I fell somewhere." He replied but blood came oozing out from his broken nail- Nathan didn't speak about it.

"I will tell you everything. Just promise me to deal with this your calmest as possible." Nathan said and held his hands. Light was nervous but he nodded. "December 27 last year. It was such a great day and all of us four, Mari, Hope, me, and you planned to go outing. We rode my van and I was the driver. We sang together as one while we were on a road trip. Does that ring a bell to you?"

"Quite. Please continue."

"We arrived safely at the beach and it was a happy day everall, but the problem rose when we all went back. As wed couples, you and Hope went to your own house. We weren't aware back then. I hate myself because I didn't notice." Nathan said and he tightened his fists s Light remembered everything he said. "I didn't know that Hope has a huge hole in her heart. I didn't notice that she wasn't so strong."

Lgight cried as images of those days came back to him like flood.

"Hope... Fought but she died weeks after our outing. I didn't know she was prohibited to feel intense feelings because it was fatal.... But Light..." Nathan said as he held his sobbing friend. "She was so happy with you. I saw it with my own eyes."

"YOU ARE LYING! MY HOPE IS VERY HEALTHY! SHE ALWAYS VISITS ME IN THIS HOSPITAL!" Light cried and pushed him towards the ground as Cammy tried to restrain him. "YOU ARE A LIAR! Dad. Tell him off! You saw her on that cafeteria and she was always in this room right?! Right?!"

But Cammy looked the other way around. "I'm sorry, Light, but you are alone all this time. Hope wasn't on the cafeteria or on the garden- or on the hospital because she's already dead."

Light fell on his knees and cried. He held his chest and tried to snap through landing fists on his face while the other two helped him regain his balance.

" Liars. You all are liars. "

"Light.... You have the condition called schizophrenia." Nathan said as he looked at his eyes directly. "it is a mental illness that is characterized by disturbances in thought (such as delusions), perception (such as hallucinations), and behavior. Sometimes, the person with the condition have hard times to distinguish what is reality from what is not and by what I heard from you, you travelled into the world and saved suicidal people. That might be it because you were suicidal yourself eversince she left. Light, that world isn't true. This world is the reality- the reality where Hope is no longer with us... I'm so sorry... I'm sorry. "

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After that, i no longer knew what happened except the sight where I knew I lost control and the doctors restrained me. Since that day, I never saw her again. I tried to refuse and take my meds but the doctors won't let me to even do that because they mix it with my food, trying to help me heal.

But my healing signifies my complete loss of the chance to even see her.

When Nathan told me everything there was to know, I was able to grasp that it was really the reality because I saw them in my memories. There were no chosens. There were no missions, necklaces, and even angels. I thought I was to go crazy but I didn't, thankfully because of the medicines.

Sooner or later, I was discharged from the mental hospital for being able to recover. My father, Cammy, and my Mama who has dementia, Ajan came and fetched me, and I apologized and thanked Nathan for everything. We promised to keep in touch, and Mari also came to send me off. She was also a doctor on the heart department...

I was thankful to finally have left but I have other plans. I went back to our old house where Hope and I stayed. It was so clean and no dust lingered around. My parent cleaned it for me and they left me in that appartment...

It was their huge mistake.

"Now I can join you, my love." I told the picture I have of her that I held close to my heart and opened the container with expired sleeping pills.

I was ready to leave.

I was ready to die.

All i could think of was joining her, to be with her, and to have her near me.

I looked at the tons of pills in my hands. I don't know how many it is but by the looks of it, it seemed like it was 30 or 40 tablets. He counted it and figured it was 35.

"To be with you.... To be with you... Let me be with you... Please please please.... If this is the only way I could join you.".

I opened my mouth to welcome the pills inside my body and I gulped them all in.

All i have to do was wait until my organs malfunction. I closed my eyes to rest -but after taking up the pills, a warm hand touched my cheek. I looked up and saw the most beautiful person in front of me.

"Hope... Hope...." i cried as she looked at me with sad eyes.

"Don't do this." she said and held my hands. "Please."

"But this is the only way I could think of so I could be with you." i told her but she shook her head while she smiled.

"I understand you, my love, but please stop this... Let me save you. You suffered enough... Let's end that suffering." Hope said and kissed his forehead. "If I am your Hope and Joy, you are my Light so don't you dare dim because our childrenneeds you."

"Ch... Childern?" I asked.

"Didn't they tell you? It was just 11 months since I died and I gave birth before the outing. Our children are on your parent's care. Their names are Bright and Twinkle. They are still infants so you'd need help raising them. They are probably just waiting for you to come at their doorsteps and take our babies. Do you remember them now? "

I noded. How could I forget them?

" I... I'll take them.. " I told her and she smiled at me.

" Well you should. I have a request... Can you please search for my brother? " She asked me but the sparkle on her eyes left as she mentioned her brother.

"Of course I will. Of course."

"What should you do to do those things?" she asked me. I looked down at the empty container of the pills and cried..

"I need to live." I said and looked at her- but the necklace she was wearing glowed so much that it hurt my eyes.

"Yeah you do." she said and kissed me as I settled on the usual calmness she gave me. "You don't need to rush to be with me because we could always do that... I am always with you through our children, through your memory... And in heaven when you get old enough to go to me and when our children already settles. So, Light Elkin. Do you want to be saved? "

She approached me and hugged me as I cried. I just nodded because I can't talk as I rested in her arms and cried..

"As the heavens appointed me,

I stand before you.

I am Hope, the chosen one." she said and cried.

"I saw how you suffered now I'm ending them one by one.

The pain in your heart, share it with me.

For you to see the beauty this world has to give.

So now be happy, hopeful and joyful.

Live life as you have resurrected from the dead."

It became so warm that I felt alive again. My wife gave everything to save me and I am so happy to have another chance to live.

I didn't know what happened after that but when I woke up, I threw up all the pills I gulped- exactly 35.

I didn't rush to take my children but I talked with my parents about the matter. I need to change myself and find Ray first.

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2 months later..

[doorbell rings]

"How are you son? Hey Ray!" Cammy said as he opened the door to welcome them.

"Dad... Where are they?" Light asked and Cammy immediately led the two of them to the twins.

"They look like you two." Cammy said and opened to curtain, and Light saw her 6-month old babies waiting for him. He went to then and hugged the two as he immediately saw the resemblance of the both of them.

The little guy named Bright looked like Joy but his hair was silver and his eyes were golden while the girl who was named Twinkle look like Light and his hair was black and hus eyes were silver. The children giggled at tge sight of their father.

"Ha! Ha! Thatso unfair when they both never shut up when I do that!" Cammy said and left with Ray to have a little discussion. Light managed the law firm he established with his late wife and he enrolled Ray to a specialized school for children eith special needs.

"P..papa.." Bright said as his hand accidentally smacked Light's eyes and the other twin laughed at him. He carried the both of them in his arms and he felt so much love from being near them. He no longer feels alone. He no longer feels hopeless because he found his new salvations and they were embodied in the tiny beings of his children.

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Healing isn't impossible. It's just hard :))))