Ca_Da

When b enters she learns about herself and the people she loves supporting the new future of their family. 
With her history and culture and stories of shapeshifters and animal messengers navigating there path to stay together and keep the balance in the bloodline it starts to create discord.

The steps she takes being apart of a family that spans multiple generations and a culture that is true as it was before the new americas and is still survived by the relatives who follow the treasured traditions that came from the southwestern nations.
She lives her life, where it takes her and what happens to her is normal on standards of the urban life. 

****Currently on pause and published chapters under severe editing****

She Is

Its the abyss, i don't like it, yet it 's ugly face is in front of mine every time i have any conscience. This face telling me about Lando and Sky, and i cant get my life right.


Names familiar yet i can't bring anything to my memory except emotions. No face no simple outline, nothing imaginable. 


Im alone, its dark and there is nothing around, i can see my hands and feet even my hair but everything else is black. 


Im floating in this nothingness. I can hear a fast heart beat and a loud bass beat as well, both speed up and slow down in unison with there very own pace and pitch. 


It sweet the fast beat. It thumps with care and a gives a light tune. Those are all i can hear, once i heard a loud howl.


I know i might have been something i just cannot actually recall it.


My voice also has no scream, its been lonely and i wish to stop feeling this lonesome. 


I want to tell someone to just be in the space with me, i wanna meet the music makers. I have been wishing but nothing ever comes of it. 


With all this i also feel a bit a peace, content in many ways.


Falling asleep in the empty surrounding was quiet nice, i had not thought of anything


I had been here alone and after sometime alone i finally get a response to my hello in the echo of this blackness...


"HHEELLLLOO..!" I radiate to my surroundings and in this simple moment I recollect this answer,


"Mom! Im here" its like a rain of sound falling onto me


"Hello, ur my baby? How so? How do u know me?"


"Mom save me! I want to stay here, i want u and dad!"


I think to mysef, dad. What is dad? Is it a person loke mom, 


 Im suprised by the words, i feel a simple sense of relief, at this time i can feel warmth and happy... im not sure what i should make of this.


"Mom im meeting dad, i have to; i want to save you!"


"What are u saying, im okay i can still hear you..."


As soon as those words made sense i felt unlimited pain for a a time that i had to squeeze my head and scream so loud with nothing coming out of my mouth. 


Again the lost of this happiness was gone again, and i realize my next relaxation was once again going to be in silence.


After the pain was gone once again as predicted, the sounds and communication was taken from me.


A sorrowful feeling in this hole of no gravity.


I dont know how how long I have to stay here, why cant anyone see me cry,


See me! just see me !i need someone! something!


"I can't do this, baby where are u. I miss u, i miss someone!"


When i feel like sleeping something keeps me up.


I want to rest, at least comfort me for some time. Its to painful to keep these eyes open all the time, i want to sleep...


36- sleeping voices---