(4) why I feel this way

I couldn't wrap my mind around what she had just said almost like it was out of a movie. It was exactly what I had dreamed of her saying and it finally real. I pinched myself and to my surprise she tried stopping me as I seemed to be hurting myself. Maybe she did genuinely care and maybe even have feelings for me.

Out parents talked for hours and so did we, it was 8pm when they came and they left at 11pm I didn't take us more then 20 minutes to eat.

Our conversations were putting me in love with her further. I didn't think it was possible to love someone so much yet barely know them. We talked about our figures mine being well built and hers being skinny with a big butt and small boobs. Those things didn't matter to me although I did dream of them they didn't matter.

She was right that day I wanted her I really did but wasn't about to tell her. I kept my feelings to myself. I walked upstairs and stole a bottle of vodka and two glasses. My parents didn't care what I did as long as it didn't interfere with my school and I never let it. Me and Maggie drank just enough for me to get the littlest bit drunk and her to get drunk.

Id been drunk before so I was used to the feeling, she wasn't. I could remember things and work properly even this drunk she could not.

She went to hold my hand, my hand was huge compared to hers. She was telling me the things she wanted me to do to her.

"If only you would take your big strong arms and pin me against the wall, your big hands on my tiny waist whispering sweet nothings into my ear. You could fuck me all night long and I'd wake up sore the next morning"

I wanted to do all those things so bad but I knew she might not really mean it. I respectfully told her that I knew she was drunk and didn't want her to do something she wouldn't do if she was sober. She was upset but understood somehow. She fell asleep on the pull out couch. I walked upstairs to tell her parents she would be sleeping over because she got very tired for some reason and now to worry. Making sure not to tell them she was drunk.I pulled out my phone and texted her something for her to read when she woke up