What She Desire Most

She moved into the house when she was at fifteen years old. She chose to stay with her father instead of her mother when she was about to attend high school. Zheng Rong never attended the teacher-parents meeting for her and never appeared in the principal room when she was caught in a bullying scandal. It was always her first brother, Zheng Haoze who would come but he himself was never on her side and instead warned her to not cause trouble for him.

Feeling upset and disappointed with them, Chen Ziyi decided to act unconcerned about it and tried to distance herself from any trouble until present time. Chen Ziyi still could not forgive Zheng Haozu for snatching he room from her, but now she felt relieve for she would be able to have a good sleep without having moaning sounds as her sleep background music.

The next morning, after she had breakfast, when she went out of the house to go to work, she bumped into a man she was once friendly with. The man was Zheng Shuyu's fiance, Fan Qicheng. Fan Qicheng was in one of her class when she was studying at University N and sometimes he would work as a teaching assistant to a professor to gain experience in teaching. He was a good guy which they somehow later became good friends. But the friendship became awkward when he have a romantic relationship later engaged with Zheng Shuyu.

Fan Qicheng with his usual sweet and sincere smile, greeted Chen Ziyi's. Chen Ziyi greeted him back.

"So early to work?" Fan Qicheng asked while put his right hand to his white wool cardigan. It was freezing, and Chen Ziyi aware of him not liking much winter season, looked at him who wear triple clothes includes the cardigan making him bigger than his actual size. Yet, he still look good.

"Hm. It's the end of month. I am busiest most at these time." Chen Ziyi casually replied less friendly than Fan Qicheng's tone. To give him face, she asked the same question. "You too? So early this morning go to work." Recalling how rough the sex activities were going last night, how can he woke up so early? Meanwhile, how they can shamelessly moaned out so loudly? Are they not afraid if others heard? How can they were so confident that father and big brother not back at home yet? Chen Ziyi shuddered imagined what would happen if their father was a home.

"Hm. I too am busiest most at this time. It is the time to prepare questions for the student's exam. I just came back from spending all-nighter at the university. I am coming here to have breakfast together with Shuyu before return to my home for a shower." Fan Qicheng's answer gave a surprise to Chen Ziyi. She then frowned for a moment which he misunderstood that she did not like to hear Shuyu's name from him. He was aware of the little drama in the Zheng's include how Chen Ziyi act towards the issue.

Fan Qicheng then excused himself entered the house leaving Chen Ziyi who still stunned at her position. Her eyes then looked upwards to the window belonged to Shuyu's room. 'She cheated on him?' Feeling unbelievable, yet she should not interfere with them, she just snickered bitterly and left to work.

Since that night, for the next month, whenever Chen Ziyi return from work and walked to her bedroom, she could occasionally heard light moans from Zheng Shuyu's room. She did not know who was the one Zheng Shuyu having sex with. It was either Fan Qicheng or the man she cheated with.

She did not stop to listen more or to interfere. She just snickered and condemned at the Zheng's praise on how pure the little sister of theirs to have such immoral behavior. Apparently, apple never fall far from the tree. 'Go to hell with your lady of Zheng's title.'

At the same time, every night she finished her work, she would also occasionally met with the young girl at the same bench at the park regardless of how late Chen Ziyi spending the night at her office. She could not avoid from meeting the young girl as she can't predict on what day she would appear. It was like the young girl know her schedule much better than her and would wait for her at the park and asked her to have a chat. It was always the same topic and ended with the same request.

"Please properly think about when is the exactly period that you want to go back. Think carefully what you desire most in your heart. It could not only change your life, but it could also change others life". The girl said with her up-most concern.

The young girl never mentioned her name. She clearly did not have intention to do so and Chen Ziyi did not feel the need to force her. The young girl's persistence in talking about the same idea gradually made her to start to believe the possibility of the idea could actually happen. However, as an adult, as a part of working society, she sometimes too worn out to think much about any too heavy topic out of her routine, so she just stuck in the mid of the track, between to fully believe or to ignore the girl idea.

"There will be you, my friend and I go back to the past. But our time might be different. You might go to your desired date, I might go to mine, and my friend would go to his."

"I can't tell you my name and my identity. But, if you meet the younger me, do not talk to me. Do not have a direct contact with me. In this life, there are things that should not be interfere and I prefer for you to not touch mine. I read a little bit about your life, so I am sure we live in a different place and time. Just in case, if a result of your choice later change your life track and somehow causes you suddenly bump into me or saw me, treat me like a stranger."

"I can't decide for you to which matters you should concern with, which you should interfere, which you should ignore. Sometimes, even when you make a different choice, that person life which should be affected still not affected. Meanwhile, there are life would be affected by that and it's not like you will have your own way to find out about that. When we decide to to give this chance to you, the thing that we afraid the most was the butterfly effect. But that was also one of the reason we chose you."

"Please do not deliberately try to change others future, who do not have direct life interference with you. You should think about the cause and effect if you have any such slightly idea on your mind. You get what I mean right?"