chapter 42

With my brain starting to think of a way to face Adam after what happened between us yesterday, the leg that had been shivering, slowly touching the floor before the body was lifted to move towards the door but before I could take the first step after successfully getting off the bed without Daisy's knowledge, the room door suddenly opened without any knock from the person who dared to open the door in silence as if trying to smuggle into my chamber.

Creak...

"???! "

We both fell silent as our eyes met. caught in the scene while trying to do the same thing, I looked at him who was pushing the door of my chamber earlier in shock while he looked at me who was trying to run away from my own chamber in a stiff state. we froze as we looked at each other before he finally let out a small cough and slowly stepped into my room and closed the door silently without any sound. It seems that He is also afraid that he will be caught trespassing just like me who is trying to run away from my chamber at this time.

" Wh-what are you doing here, your grace..? " stuttering as I asked him about his presence here in my chamber right now, my hands quickly shifted to cover my body even though my body was fully dressed at this point. Maybe because yesterday's incident still left a deep impression that made me traumatize with his rough behavior that I did not know yesterday.

" Ehem. Well... I-I heard that you collapsed just now at the garden so-so I... I came to meet you.. " with his blushed cheeks, Adam cleared his throat again by clasping his hands close to his mouth in an awkward state with the situation they were both in now. I can see Adam hesitated to look at my face as I looked at him with a frown on my face.

" Please.. don-don't stare at me that much.. " shyly trying to avert his gaze from looking directly on me, his hand awkwardly covered his face meanwhile my mouth began to groan in goosebumps as I look at his cold stoic face gradually redden just like a tomato.

'What's with this adorable creature in front of me now?! insanely cute! damn it!' I think my nose might be bleeding right now because of him!

" Your-your grace shouldn't be here now, Lenny will get mad at you and.. "

" I want to see you.. is it wrong for me to do that..? " his face began to turn to guilty as his eyes began to shine in whimpers. He finally used his puppy eyes towards me as I'm trying to be strict with him.

" ug-ugh..! " what's with this guy??! are you drunk again or what?? stop trying to hit me on my heart!

" Your grace... If-if Lenny found out that you're here alone with me in my chamber again, she might faint in shock and it will bring no good to her health.. "

" Then she will not found out if you keep quiet about my presence here, right? "

" ye-yes? ah! "

" kyaa!? "

" Shuu! "

My eyes looked straight at Adam's red eyes in shock as he suddenly pushed my body against the bed while he restrained my body by pressing his body on me while his index finger placed his mouth as a sign to tell me to be silent.

" You-your grace??! Let-let go! " struggle to let me out from his embrace, Adam suddenly pressed his big palm against my mouth while turning his eyes to look at the door in silence as he can feel the presence of someone standing there. " Shut up. Someone is at the door. You don't want them to see our current situation, do you? " whispers to me in a low voice, my eyes slowly gaze on the door in reflexes.

" My lady, this is Eilidh. can I come in? I brought you medicine because Daisy asked me to. She said, she had some urgent matter and asked me to take care of you. " I heard Eilidh knocked on the door before my eyes look at Adam in front of me in stunned.

" Uhm-uhmm-um?? (What we gonna do now??!) "

" Dismisses him. "

" ... "

" ....uh-uh. (okay.) " nodded my head understand, Adam eventually raise his palm from my mouth and let me talk to Eilidh for a second.

" I'm-I'm sorry, Eilidh. can you come back later..? I wanted to change my clothes first before I eat my medicine and rest. I'll wait for Daisy then, alright? you can go now. "

" ..... "

"...as you wish, my lady. "

Clack. Clack.

" He's gone. " Adam smile at me before he pressed his body more against me back after he makes sure Eilidh's presence has gone from his radar.

" Your grace... are you truly in your right mind now? " doubt when my eyes look at his tender gaze and gentle face towards me, my eyebrows frown in disbelief as he acted the same as yesterday. perhaps he's drunk again because of Jade's pranks?

" Why? I am though. " Adam raises his eyebrow in dumbfounded while looking at me with his head tilt in wondered by my question towards himself.

"? you really really are.?? "

" Yes, Lady Claire. why did you ask me like that? "

"?..?? "

' He called me 'lady' and asked me 'why'. Then, does it means that he doesn't remember his behavior towards me yesterday? If he remembers, he wouldn't dare to meet me shamelessly like this, right? '

" Your grace, you can let me go now since Eilidh has left us. " flushed in embarrassment when I finally realize our position right now seemed a little bit erotic, my lips carve an awkward smile before my hand slightly push his body away from me.

" Oh. My apologies. " Adam rapidly gets his body away from me before he sits beside me on my bed in anxiety after he realized his impudent actions towards me just now.

" .... " I get up from my laying position in silence and sit a little far away from Adam and thus an awkward atmosphere between us began to growing intensely.

' How should I talk to him about breaking our engagement? that's means I need to break out contract relationship and leave this estate tomorrow. he wouldn't get mad since he had nothing to do with me anymore, right? ugh! damn it! I want to introduce him as my fiancé proudly in front of Noelle and her future crown princess at the ceremony tomorrow but what should I do since Ashlen has begun to threaten me with Adam's life. Tsk. That devil guy! '

" Lady Claire... I.. tomorrow can you be my partner.."

" Let's break up. " I turn my body to face him directly while my face begins to get serious in our silent mood.

" ...? " I can see Adam's face stiffen in shock before he frowns in agony with my sudden statement. " Are you joking right now, Lady Claire..? "

" No. I am not. " I'm sorry, Adam. But your life is in danger. I can't waste any time since that guy has targeted you as his enemy. " I seriously asking you to break up with me right now, young Duke of Allardis."

" What? why..? This is not a small matter, Lady Claire."

" That's why... " Slowly get up from my bed and stand before him with a straight face, I look at him directly while his face shows how disbelief he is right now towards my own words. " Adam Rochester Evans Allard. Let's break our engagement this instant. I'm done with you. "

Claire clenched her teeth before she began to bite her lips a little until it bleeding, after they both silent while facing each other, Claire finally turn her body and head towards the door when Adam didn't even respond to her sentence.

" uh... " Slowly groan in a slow voice because she scares that Adam will hear her weak self, Claire stand before the door in silence. She can feel how painful her chest is right now after saying things like that let alone Adam who was asked to break up. Claire slowly went her hand to her chest and clench her dress a little in shaking. My heart is aching but I should be enduring it this much. I should be more strict if I'm the one asking for a breakup, Adam, I'm sorry.. please forgive me.

Bang!

" ..!! "

Stunned when Adam suddenly pressed both of his palms to the door roughly to prevent me from leaving the room. I'm speechless in a state of loss of words while Adam suddenly stood close to the back of my body until I could feel his wide and tough chest pressing against my back to prevented me from moving from my current position. stuck between his arms that had been partially lifted my shoulders, I was only able to lower my head in a state of silence with his behavior slowly turned violent. Maybe he is angry but it is fast for him to get angry as I have challenged his patience now.

" You're lying, right..? "

" ...! " I can feel that his voice slightly shaking as he asked me those questions right beside my ears. Even so, I didn't dare to lift and turn my face to look at his current expressions right now. what face did you make right now, Adam? I'm sorry for hurting you...

" I am not. Please distance yourself from me now, your grace. I need to go...?! "

" ...I'm sorry.. please forgive me.. "

" ...?!! " Oh gosh! Turn to freeze when Adam suddenly place his head on my shoulder out of nowhere, I couldn't bring myself to look at his face since I'm scared that I'll melt because of him.

" I do not know what I did wrong but please forgive me.. I'll do better.. don't ask for breaking up.. please.." his shaking voice slowly began to beg on me. ask me for not leaving him and break with him. It makes my heart aches so much yet I couldn't do anything about it. Adam begins to clench his palm on my shoulder before he suddenly wrapped his arm around my body and buried his face on my back in silence. I can feel his body shivering like a person who is afraid of losing the things they love, stuck in his arms, my whole body can feel how desperate he is to let go of me at this moment. Please don't be like this, Adam. this is for your sake...

" Your grace... I.. "

" Please... " Adam tightening his arm more on my body until I couldn't even move a little from him anymore.

" I'm sorry but I wouldn't change my mind whatever you said your grace. Please let me go. " trying to maintain my composure, I clench the hem of my dress with my hand that started to tremble in sadness.

" ....kyaa!? " Shocked when Adam suddenly turned my body to face himself out of nowhere. My eyes were wide open in stunned while my mouth silent in freeze with his sudden behavior that suddenly pulled my body roughly to look at him directly.

" WHY?! "

Flinched when Adam began to raise his voice towards me all of the sudden, I can only stand in shudders when Adam begins to look at me with his fierce face while his red eyes began to look at me cynically, My body gradually shaking in fears when this is the first time he ever looked at me with that merciless eyes he ever used when he snapped over something. Just like Noelle had back then.. " ugh... " I want to puke...

Even my father's cold eyes couldn't even compare to this guy. Adam had a really menacing glare whenever he got mad over something. His red dark-colored eyes that redden like fresh blood, looking at me intensely make me turned pale while my whole body shuddering in frightening. I feel like he was trying to eat me all alive.

" you-your grace..? it's hurt.."

" ..ah! " Realize when he currently stepped over the boundaries between us, Adam immediately let go of his clench on my shoulder and quickly backward from me with a pale face. " I-I'm sorry... I'm hurting you... I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Lady Claire. I'm sorry. "

" Uh... I.. please.. could you.. get out from my chamber this instant, your grace..? ugh. " I cover my mouth with my palm which was trembling in fear of Adam. I want to puke right now. He reminded me so much about what Noelle had done to me in my past. I don't want to remember any of those memories let alone the feeling that I had at that time yet Adam just make my trauma came back to me because of his behavior.

" Lady Claire, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to.. " while his hand trying to reach my trembled body in hesitation, I can't even look at his guilty face and immediately my hand quickly went up and pushed aside Adam's hand without much thought.

" Leave. "

" Lady Claire.. "

" I said LEAVE! "

" ..... " stunned when Claire shout to him with a very pale face, with her shuddering body and bleeding lips. The air between them seems to freeze over with the only shout from Claire gentle lips, Adam stood silently, as though he was nailed to the ground. In the end, Adam who was speechless finally break the unbearable tension and speak up. " We will talk about this matter again tomorrow. Get some rest, Lady Romanoff. "

His bitter face slowly begins to be cold again as he slowly walks towards the door in silence, Adam take a little glimpse of Claire before he left her chamber and walk towards his office in annoyed.

Meanwhile, Daisy who happened to stand near Claire's chamber accidentally heard Adam and Claire's argument as she was hiding when she saw Adam in the chamber earlier and quickly hide from being seen by them.

" I thought they were in a good term but why did my lady shout at his grace to leave? what happened between them? "