33. I Know my own Option

After stay for 1 night, Raya and Duncan back to their own apartment. Even Raya reluctant from the beginning, but she knows there is nothing good if she keep to avoid him. Inside the care for the whole journey, no one speak or even make a sound. Each of time, Duncan turn his gaze to her try to said something but he hold back.

Arrive in parking at their apartment, Raya suddenly stunned seeing Duncan open door for her. She feels like time froze around them while their eyes meet. Hiding her red face, Raya turn her eyes away and step out the car right away. She little run get away from Duncan, leave him alone there. Duncan who seeing her like this just show small smile while staring her back passionately.

Raya go straight to bathroom due to she can't took shower while she stay in Jason's house. Under the shower the memories everything that happen in Jason house and dream she got before back again. In silent she cry again while water keep showering her whole body. Her pain so deep even she hardly to breath try to erase her past memories. Raya could be collapse anytime if Duncan not suddenly force his way to open the door.

He seeing her so weak holding her two knees sit on the ground while keep crying desperately. "Raya look at me....please look at me?!" Duncan said half yield while keep hold her face to seeing through his eyes. But, she keeps crying slowly turn her head up staring straight to Duncan eyes.

"I can't forget it. My heart hurt....it is too much pain." Duncan hug her tightly while turn off the shower and slowly held her up go out from bathroom. He find a dry towel to clean her body then put her on their bed covering her body with warm and thick bed cover.

"What the hell happen exactly? What that woman told you on the phone yesterday?" Duncan feel resent to woman who Raya call mother the whole life without know the truth.

"She didn't say anything, she just said that why I'm not pick my sister and ask me to visit her." Raya speak slowly with her trembling lips. "I know what she wants told me and I really hate how I remember she showering Dora with love while feel annoying every time seeing me. I hate to seeing that when she turn her blind eyes about how the way Dora treat me. Because of her! I lose my baby! I really hate her! Am I bad?" Raya timidly staring Duncan afraid that he will think she is shrew or crazy.

"You deserve to hate her and whoever try to hurt you. I will keep beside you and avenge them one by one with you." Duncan smile gently while kiss her head. How shock she is seeing how the way Duncan behave and treat her.

Raya smile bitterly while mumbling to herself. "How good it is while you could treat me like this before." But unfortunately Duncan could hear her word even not too clear. His hand that pat her head gently for the second and right away back to his sense. Duncan smile gently while move slowly to lay down beside her, hug her, "I'm sorry for the stupid and blind me in the past." Raya stunned while keep staring him try to find the truth in his eyes.

" I know what I'm doing and I know my own option. You don't need to find it anymore." He smile while kiss her eyes and tight her hug more. Raya feels secure and comfort in his embrace. She is scare but she really want to trust him once more.