Midnight Sun

I couldn't do that. It was insane and reckless. I would be hurting someone I cared about and wouldn't want to pit then thought that.

" Stop thinking about it!" I kept telling myself

"You would never do that, it's not something you should think about!" I couldn't stop thinking about it. It eventually started to give me a headache. I made me want to explode. It was overwhelming. I eventually started feeling faint. My head was spinning.

I woke up the next day trying to remember when I had fallen asleep but a little part of me was telling me to not think into it to much. I sadly was supposed to go to school. I didn't want to but if I missed another day of class CPS was gonna come and take me away. Which in a way didn't seem like the worse thing ever, but I didn't want to leave my mom alone. The poor woman can barely stay alone for the night. I had no other choice but to go back to school. I wasn't the worst at it specially science. It was my favorite subject. Not only because I was really interested in what we where learning but because Cole was also in that class. He was my lab partner. I would get hard sometimes to concentrate. I could help but to stair at his soft pale skin and green eyes that looked like emeralds. Everytime I would look at him. Those eyes it made me feel like nothing else mattered. Just me and him. All alone. With nothing to stop us both.

I was just looking forward to 4th period. That's when I would get to see him. Sometimes when I was lucky I could see him leading the Track team, since he was captain. I could see him run around like the wind. Just seeing how free he looked made me happy.

He would be happy...

I couldn't stop thinking about it. Was I going insane? I can't hurt the people I love. I shouldn't hurt the people he loves, but what if he could love someone new?

I couldn't keep it to myself anymore or maybe I should've because the words that would come out of my mouth would impact how everything else around me would go. Was I making a mistake?

Was I insane for thinking that I could actually do something like that?

Maybe I was but, was that a bad thing?

Maybe it wasn't, it would just go to show how much I really cared about him.

If I did everything correctly, if I got Andrew to join in to, we could get away with it.

We could both be happy with the people we love.

I could be happy with Cole...