Chapter 4: The 40 yr old Rebirthy Going on a Retreat

After the embarrassment, I spent 2 days to learn to drive the motor ski from scratch.

"It wasn't that hard." I smugly patted the seat as I threw a biscuit in the air

Damn! i was suppose to catch it with my mouth! Not my freakin nose!

It's suppose to be cool, bot comical!

Why does nothing go the way it should?!

How the hell do the television people make it seem everything is easy? I remembered watching an actor always doing it. I suddenly felt a newfound respect to those people.

These 2 days showed me that I wouldn't survive if I just use what I learned before.

For example, why did I even learned horseback riding? Even my professional equestrian skills coundn't  help me a bit in driving this god forsaken motor ski! They should've taught me car racing instead

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Tsk tsk! Too old fashioned. The things I knew are 20 years outdated.

Well, what would I expect to learn from business documents anyway?

Now, I'm suddenly quite nervous if I could even talk to people. I have a vast experience of talking and interacting to only 2 people for 20 years, no?

It's like reality just slapped me straight to the face!

I do have a fool-proof plan for revenge. For the real 20 year old me, anyway. But how the hell could I implement it in my current state? What a miscalculation. I, myself is the biggest variable.

I actually only needed a bit of time to learn the ski. Most of my time was used to practice talking. Yeah, TALKING.

It's good that I could live off of the snacks from the house. Or else, I'd die starving after fussing about being reborn.

But, no worries, I guess I'm already ready(hopefully).

Isn't it 'no guts, no glory?'

And to be honest, even if I'm 10% scared, 10% anxious, and 10% nervous, I'm 60% excited.

The remaining fraction is actually 'puke-provoked'.

It's because I feel like I just woke up from a twenty year slumber. like it is only now that my clock started turning again.

It's indeed shameless for a 40 years old man like me to act like this, but, what of it?

Isn't it part of my rebirth package?

Before I feel the urge to chicken out again, I immediately took the bag full of snacks for 'rations' and other necessary stuff and board the ski. I feels like a kid getting ready for a retreat.

"Okay, this is it." I took a couple of deep breaths and checked the oil for the nth time.

"So, when i see people, i greet 'hi'. Then, 'excuse me', then, 'do you know how to go to the capital?', after they answer, i have to say, 'thank you!'. Whew... It wasn't that hard." I chanted. Again, for the nth time

I smiled crookedly and started the engine.

"i wish myself luck! Really." I squinted to keep the splashing water from my eyes. "I really need it."