The Beloved One

On this trip to the hospital, I felt pain in my heart and my hunches It was not very good, up to the pit of my heart, I held Antoni's hand tight, the harder I felt in my heart. My mind began to freak out, and my breath felt very tight ...

"Anjani! What's wrong? Your face suddenly pale, are you sick?"

Antoni grabbed my hand and asked me, he looked at my face in exasperation, grabbed my forehead warmly and wiped the sweat from my forehead.

I felt a cold sweat this time pouring down my body, I also asked myself what's wrong with me, why like this? my legs felt very heavy, step by step I went to my mom's room, this step was very heavy like being chained by a heavy stone so I had to drag it, I was scared .... and very very scared, accompanied by my feelings and hunches that were not delicious, my difficulty is becoming increasingly difficult, only this time I am walking increasingly difficult, my legs hurt and seem to be frozen.

I saw Antoni who was still staring at my face with great concern.

"It's okay, it's just that I don't feel well."

Antoni replied with a smile that I forced from my lips.

Our steps stopped, we looked in front of the ICU mama's room door. I saw so many nurses and doctors there, wanted me to run over to them but this leg was really stiff, the more I approached Mama's room, the more I didn't want to see, I closed my eyes, and kept praying in my heart, fighting my hunch This is increasingly becoming so, I can not express what is happening in my soul at this time.

"What's wrong with my Mama Doc?"

Antoni asked one of the doctors who was talking in front of Mama's room. I could only continue to hold Antoni's hand with hope, these lips felt stiff, and the trembling in my body became more and more.

"Oh ... Andini's sister, please enter the room, visit the mama first .."

I saw the face of the doctor when he told Antoni as if his face would imply something about mama. I wanted to shout at the doctor, asking about what happened to mama, but my mouth and tongue felt stiff and dead.

Before entering mama's room, she told us to wear sterile clothes before meeting with mama. from our feet to our heads, we were wrapped in sterile coverings, socks and clothing that had been provided by the hospital.

Antoni guides me to mama's bed, the door to the room opened I let go of my hand from the hand of Antoni, I began to see my mom, on this bed, I saw my mother who lay silent silently, appearing as if she was sleeping very calmly, unable to hold back my tears began to drip and I began to reach for my hand Mama, I kissed Mama's hand repeatedly, then I moved to Mama's feet, I kissed Mama's feet and I said in my sobs,

"Maa ... wake up maa ...! Maa ... forgive Anjani maaa ... Anjani won't leave mom anymore ... Maaa ... wake up ...!"

I grabbed mama's leg and then I kissed, It felt broken my heart to see mama like this, Antoni stroked back, trying to reach me. I approached her face in her cheek and I saw tears began to drip,

"Antoni ...! Look at mama crying! Mama hears we're here!"

I took Antoni's hand to look at Mama too, Antoni also tried to talk to Mama ...

"Auntie, I'm Antoni, auntie just calm down, I will always try to secure and protect Anjani. Auntie must recover quickly."

Antoni also kissed Mama's hand, and immediately made her hand move, Mama heard all the words uttered by Antoni. My heart touched and cried seeing all this incident.

"Ma, recover quickly ... Anjani will always take care of mama, and won't leave mama again."

I kissed Mama's cheek and whispered words in her ear, I rubbed her head, and I wiped tears from my cheeks.

there is a glimmer of hope and confidence in my mother, in my heart I believe, mama will recover.

We were only given 10 minutes to see mama, I used that time, I held my mom while my hand was holding mama's hand, told me about beautiful memories when with mom. Antoni patiently listens and waits for me

The time given by the doctor to see my mother was up, I did not want to leave, I still held my hand, and I felt that she was holding my hand, even though I was weak I knew that she also did not want to part with me.

but all of this is for healing mom, finally I whispered words in your ears ..

"Ma, Anjani keeps taking care of Mama, Anjani is in the next room, I'll see Anjani later, ma ..."

then I felt my mother began to weaken, I have not had time to get rid of the feeling of these fingers from mama's hand, suddenly I heard the sound of a pacemaker machine mom ...

"Nuuuuuuuuuuutt ..... long and flat ..."

my eyes suddenly glared and my mouth was screaming ..

"Doctor .... please mamaaa !! I shouted loudly." Sister ... Sister ... please .... help my mom !!!

The doctors and nurses were very alert and they immediately helped Mama, there were many tools that were given to Mama, I could only see them while crying and lamenting in Antoni's arms.

"Do the best for my mom Doc ..!"

Antoni said to all the doctors who helped Mama. for about 40 minutes the doctors race to help mama. But ... all in vain .... I saw the doctor started to pull out one by one hose and all the tools in your body ...

I began to feel my eyes black and my body went limp. I fell and didn't remember anymore.

"Anjani ... you are awake!"

I heard a voice and I opened my eyes, I saw Oman sitting next to me. Turns out I was lying unconscious and Oman was guarding me.

"Oman ... what about Mama !!!"

I quickly woke up and sat down and asked Oman. hearing my question Oman could only look at my face and could not speak a single word out of his mouth. suddenly I was reminded of Antoni then I got up and ran away from Oman.

"Antoni ... should I look for Antoni?" I said to myself.

I ran to my mom's room, there I didn't see my mom or Antoni, I ran into the nurse's room to ask where my mom was ...

"Nurse where am I? Where are you taking my mother ...?!?"

with hoarseness and running water in my cheeks I asked, I asked everyone I saw and met. I feel my soul has gone crazy and keep looking for information about mama ..

"Anjani .... don't be like this, be patient dear .. patient!" Antoni chased after me and embraced my body, embracing my body without leaving any motion for me to be released and keep moving to look for mama.

"Antoni ... where is your mom ... ???" I hit Antoni again and I cried in his arms.

"Anjani, all of this is a plan from God and maybe this is the best." Oman's voice makes me even weaker and only sobs can reveal my heart's content right now.

I was really really fragile and empty, my meeting was only 10 minutes with mama, because there was only that long time available ...

I cried calling for mama, until finally I began to feel my eyes become weak and dark again finally I fell into the arms of Antoni.

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