The Unimaginable

To the beach is where I ran. On the warm summer's sand is where I lay looking upon the stars and staring into the night. Wondering what I could've done differently or better.

His arms around her. It's all I can see. Heartbreak and turmoil. It's all I feel.

I ran away from Dorian's party so quickly I didn't even tell the girls where I was going. He was so engrossed in her; he didn't even notice what I saw. I knew I shouldn't have gone to that party. I knew it.

I wonder how long it's been going on. How many people he's done this with. How many times I could've caught him. I spent a year of my life with him. I've experienced all my serious arguments with him. I thought it made us stronger. I thought he loved me. I thought that we were real. I guess all the times that I said our relationship would last was just an illusion. I was merely holding the inevitable at bay.

As tears streamed down my face, a heavy weight weighed down on my chest. It hurts so much I feel like I might die. I just need rest. I just need comfort. So there on the chilly late summer beach, I close my eyes and fall asleep, enclosed in my lofty hoodie