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7:10 AM
Elena's POV:
Nothing was getting better in fact it was getting worse last night was awful... I can't believe that it was him all the time .. that asshole Asher I don't even know why he's acting like I stole something precious from him .. I didn't do anything . Is it because I told the principal about him ? Well I'm so sorry ok ! isn't that enough? It's not just he sent me awful things it's just the fact that he knows everything about me . I felt ... worthless... I felt Stupid in fact I felt really scared I should tell the police about this but I don't want to cause any trouble to myself he will definitely have another reason to bully me and I certainly don't want this to happen, tears started to form .. I don't wanna cry right Now yesterday was enough for me .
Add to my pain I have quadrupled amount of homework .
I stared at the mirror in front of me I took a moment to look at myself .
Slut
Worthless
Piece of shit
Nobody wants you here
If I keep listening to those voices I think I'm gonna kill myself .
Tears tarted to prick up my swollen eyes yesterday I cut myself it was worse than I expected it was wider and deeper I winced in pain as I touch it I have to get it clean now I ran my hand at the warm water and carefully wiped away the dry blood because yesterday I slept without cleaning it .
Stupid Elena
I looked at the mirror again "I know " I looked at my mom's picture that was resting on it ...
looking at the photo I suddenly felt the need to see her to call her to check if she's doing ok or not I missed her so much i looked at the photo one last time and said" I'm trying mom "
I grabbed my bag and my phone and left the dorm .
I went to the first period but before I could reach the classroom I tripped over a leg making me drop my books and paper sending it everywhere.
It was one of Asher's friend good at least it wasn't him . " Watch where you're going bitch " He growled.
Thanks to him and Asher everyone here knows who I am I wanted to scream cry and even cut myself again to ease the pain maybe I'll do it when I get back I don't want to do it here they'll think I'm some kind of lunatic which it was true somehow.
Without saying anything I picked up my stuff and went to my class.
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10:30
I literally called jade 30 times she wasn't picking up her phone I stared to get worried is she sick or something she didn't attend the art class and the rest.
Is she ignoring me ?
Yes
No
Yes
No
I bet she doesn't want to be your friend anymore .
But why I didn't do anything .
It's because your not good enough Elena.
"Is it true ? ."
Great I'm talking to myself now .
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11:00 AM
As I was about to close my locker jade came to my side .
"Hey Elena how's your morning going? "
Thank god she wasn't ignoring me .
But she will .
Shut up .
"Oh my god jade where have you been ? I called you like more than 20 Tim-"
"Yeah yeah whatever " She cut me off .
Weird .
Hahaha poor Elena.
Will you please stop ?
Your so pathetic .
"Umm do you want to go and get lunch? "
My stomach was growling now because I didn't eat breakfast this morning .
Good because you are fat .
Fuck you .
"Sure " she smiled .
Once we reached the lunch room and it was like a bee nest I swear everyone was talking some were whispering and some were Laughing way too loud jade and I made our way to the table after we bought food .
We were both walking before I made eye contact with Asher he was smirking at me I didn't want to make a big deal about it so I just ignored it but I knew that he was up to no good as I made my way to the table I accidentally brushed my arms against his . Suddenly his eyes darkened and he stuck his foot out causing me to trip and I lost my balance and my food was flying in the air.
I looked at the crowd in front of me . Everyone had mixed facial expression some were whispering some were filled with fear some were looking at me with sorrow and some were trying to keep in their laughter I looked at jade and I swear she was one of them.
Told ya ,you are so pathetic .
Asher's eyes met mine and I couldn't look away from his eyes no matter how much I try I wanted to look away but my body didn't want to budge.
"Stupid bitch are you blind or what ? " if looks could kill I would be dead by now.
The entire room was silent as if they watching a movie .
"I-I-I-I Didn't I-" I stuttered out like a lost poppy trying not to make eye contact and not to mention how tall was he he was like over six feet tall I immediately took a step back as he came towards me .
Which one of us should be angry ?
I mean He's the one who started it .
Right?
So .
Pathetic .
He came towards me and shoved me roughly in both shoulders . I cut there Last Sunday causing me to wince in pain .
Tears started to form .
"Please go on I'd like to see you crying " he chuckled darkly. He bend Down to my level and whisper in my ear as if he doesn't want anyone to hear the painful words he's about to say and I was right my eyes widened at his words " I guess yesterday wasn't good for you Elena ? Your acting was pretty good I gotta say please tell me this some kind of a plan to catch my attention ? He paused " because I bet you are good in bed " he then kissed my ear ? .
My god .. he didn't do that !
"P-please S-stop " I stuttered tears were threatening to spill out .
His eyes met mine once again and I swear his gaze softened but he quickly composed his face .
He pushed me onto the cold floor I bit my lip tears started to roll down my cheeks I couldn't hold them anymore.
Jade came towards me after he went to his table and smiled at his friends as if nothing happened .
"Are you ok " I nodded my head and she helped me to stand up .
What happened ?! wasn't she enjoying my torture minutes ago? Why is she helping me ?
"Umm .. please ...I want to stay alone " another tear rolled down.
She smirked...!!!
I swear she smirked.
"Umm ok I'll see you English class if you need anything just call me ok ? " She then left .
No I'm just imagining .
I told you you wasn't good enough .
I quickly made my way to the bathroom . And splashed my face to calm myself down . I stared into the mirror " Why " " Why me ?"
"What did I do to deserve this "
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12:12 PM
Once again jade met up with me at my locker and I told her that I wasn't going to attend the English class I didn't want Asher and his stupid friends to see me at this state . Because I was ...
Worthless..
Attention seeker .
Piece of shit .
Again with the stupid voices .
I found a seat in between too books and started to read my favorite novel the London train.
"Elena ? " A voice came up to me I looked up to see that it was Axel . I smiled immediately I was really trying not to scan him he was so cute.. No not cute .
Attractive .
Hot .
Gorgeous .
His mouth curved upwards into a smirk.
Great he knew that I was checking him out .
Why are you doing this ? Asher isn't enough?
"Can I sit ? "
I was lost in his dark beautiful eyes .
"Umm Y-yes .. Sure sure " I stuttered like a Fool .
"I hope Asher isn't giving you a hard time ?" He said .
"No no he's not " I lied the reason is I don't him to worry about me I mean he has his own problem and I don't want to be a burden.
A friend.
Yes that's what I want ..
Stupid Elena he will get bored of you and leave you like jade did . Stop dreaming no one wants you .
We started to talk about random stuff.. like our favorite shows and books he was the sweetest person I've ever met . He was out of this planet I swear . The way he was laughing and looking at me . I don't care if I was checking him out on purpose because I can't help it ok he was really attractive.
12:50 PM
"Oh carp I have the worst lecture now I gotta go ..Umm I guess I'll see you around Elena ? " He said as he glanced at the time.
I don't know if I should say this but.. his eyes were literally beating Down at me like he was in love ?"
Hahhahahah dream on .
Stupid Elena focus.
"Yeah yeah sure see you around.. Axel"
With that he left the library .
And soon he will leave you forever .
Like the rest .
"Stop it "
I finished some homework and I grabbed my stuff and left the library.
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10:30 PM
I laid on the bed covering my whole body with a warm blanket after I took a shower I grasped the blanket tightly shutting my eyes close . Before I even know it I drifted into a deep deep sleep.
A hand abruptly pulled my hair forcefully "stupid bitch why are you even alive? I'm literally gonna make your life a hell you thought you could get away with it stupid? god I wish you die " I struggled kicking and moving my body from the hands of the person who's holding me . " Shhh stop struggling bitch"
"Please please stop let me go " I looked up and tried to trace the face of whoever did this to me but it was dark as if I was fighting with a shadow " DIE BITCH "
I can feel the knife plunge across my neck slitting my throat deep open . "NO "
I fluttered my eyes open sweat was dripping from my head hurt as fuck . My hand immediately trailed to my neck there was no blood I thank god that it was just a dream I wiped my sweat with my hand .
Pain .Tiredness .Fear kept me awake
sleep didn't seem to be a huge turn on for me from now on .
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