Chapter Two

Valek snapped the folder closed. He walked to the door; his stride as

graceful and light as a snow cat traversing thin ice. The guards waiting in the

hall snapped to attention when the door opened. Valek spoke to them, and they

nodded. One guard came toward me. I stared at him, going back to the dungeon

had not been part of Valek's offer. Could I escape? I scanned the room. The

guard spun me around and removed the manacles and chains that had been

draped around me since I'd been arrested.

Raw bands of flesh circled my bloody wrists. I touched my neck, feeling

skin where there used to be metal. My fingers came away sticky with blood. I

groped for the chair. Being freed of the weight of the chains caused a strange

sensation to sweep over me; I felt as if I were either going to float away or pass

out. I inhaled until the faintness passed.

When I regained my composure, I noticed Valek now stood beside his desk

pouring two drinks. An opened wooden cabinet revealed rows of odd-shaped

bottles and multicolored jars stacked inside. Valek placed the bottle he was

holding into the cabinet and locked the door.

"While we're waiting for Margg, I thought maybe you could use a drink."

He handed me a tall pewter goblet filled with an amber liquid. Raising his own

goblet, he made a toast. "To Yelena, our newest food taster. May you last longer

than your predecessor."

My goblet stopped short of my lips.

"Relax," he said, "it's a standard toast."

I took a long swig. The smooth liquid burned slightly as it slid down my

throat. For a moment, I thought my stomach was going to rebel. This was the

first time I had taken something other than water. Then it settled.

Before I could question him as to what exactly had happened to the

previous food taster, Valek asked me to identify the ingredients of the drink.

Taking a smaller portion, I replied, "Peaches sweetened with honey."

"Good. Now take another sip. This time roll the liquid around your tongue

before swallowing."

I complied and was surprised to taste a faint citrus flavor. "Orange?"

"That's right. Now gargle it."

"Gargle?" I asked. He nodded. Feeling foolish, I gargled the rest of my

drink and almost spat it out. "Rotten oranges!"

The skin around Valek's eyes crinkled as he laughed. He had a strong, angular face, as if someone had stamped it from a sheet of metal, but it softened

when he smiled. Handing me his drink, he asked me to repeat the experiment.

With some trepidation, I took a sip, again detecting the faint orange taste.

Bracing myself for the rancid flavor, I gargled Valek's drink and was relieved

that gargling only enhanced the orange essence.

"Better?" Valek asked as he took back the empty cup.

"Yes."

Valek sat down behind his desk, opening my folder once more. Picking up

his quill, he talked to me while writing. "You just had your first lesson in food

tasting. Your drink was laced with a poison called Butterfly's Dust. Mine

wasn't. The only way to detect Butterfly's Dust in a liquid is to gargle it. That

rotten-orange flavor you tasted was the poison."

I rose, my head spinning. "Is it lethal?"

"A big enough dose will kill you in two days. The symptoms don't arrive

until the second day, but by then it's too late."

"Did I have a lethal dose?" I held my breath.

"Of course. Anything less and you wouldn't have tasted the poison."

My stomach rebelled and I started to gag. I forced down the bile in my

throat, trying hard to avoid the indignity of vomiting all over Valek's desk.

Valek looked up from the stack of papers. He studied my face. "I warned

you the training would be dangerous. But I would hardly give you a poison your

body had to fight while you suffered from malnutrition. There is an antidote to

Butterfly's Dust." He showed me a small vial containing a white liquid.

Collapsing back into my chair, I sighed. Valek's metal face had returned; I

realized he hadn't offered the antidote to me.

"In answer to the question you didn't ask but should have, this—" Valek

raised the small vial and shook it "—is how we keep the Commander's food

taster from escaping."

I stared at him, trying to understand the implication.

"Yelena, you confessed to murder. We would be fools to let you serve the

Commander without some guarantees. Guards watch the Commander at all times

and it is doubtful you would be able to reach him with a weapon. For other

forms of retaliation, we use Butterfly's Dust." Valek picked up the vial of

antidote, and twirled it in the sunlight. "You need a daily dose of this to stay

alive. The antidote keeps the poison from killing you. As long as you show up

each morning in my office, I will give you the antidote. Miss one morning and

you'll be dead by the next. Commit a crime or an act of treason and you'll be

sent back to the dungeon until the poison takes you. I would avoid that fate, if I

were you. The poison causes severe stomach cramps and uncontrollable vomiting."

Before full comprehension of my situation could sink in, Valek's eyes slid

past my shoulder. I turned to see a stout woman in a housekeeper's uniform

opening the door. Valek introduced her as Margg, the person who would take

care of my basic needs. Expecting me to follow her, Margg strode out the door.

I glanced at the vial on Valek's desk.

"Come to my office tomorrow morning. Margg will direct you."

An obvious dismissal, but I paused at the door with all the questions I

should have asked poised on my lips. I swallowed them. They sank like stones to

my stomach, then I closed the door and hurried after Margg, who hadn't stopped

to wait.

Margg never slowed her pace. I found myself panting with the effort to

keep up. Trying to remember the various corridors and turns, I soon gave up as

my whole world shrank to the sight of Margg's broad back and efficient stride.

Her long black skirt seemed to float above the floor. The housekeeper uniform

included a black shirt and white apron that hung from the neck down to the ankle

and was cinched tight around the waist. The apron had two vertical rows of

small red diamond-shapes connected end to end. When Margg finally stopped at

the baths, I had to sit on the floor to clear my spinning head.

"You stink," Margg said, disgust creasing her wide face. She pointed to the

far side of the baths in a manner that indicated she was used to being obeyed.

"Wash twice, then soak. I'll bring you some uniforms." She left the room.

The overpowering desire to bathe flashed like fire on my skin. Energized, I

ripped the prison robe off and raced to the washing area. Hot water poured down

in a cascade when I opened the duct above my head. The Commander's castle

was equipped with heated water tanks located one floor above the baths, a luxury

even Brazell's extravagant manor house didn't have.

I stood for a long time, hoping the drumming on my head would erase all

thoughts of poisons. Obediently I washed my hair and body twice. My neck,

wrists and ankles burned from the soap, but I didn't care. I scrubbed two more

times, rubbing hard at the stubborn spots of dirt on my skin, stopping only when

I realized they were bruises.

I felt unconnected to the body under the waterfall. The pain and humiliation

of being arrested and locked away had been inflicted on this body, but my soul

had long since been driven out during the last two years I had lived in Brazell's

manor house.

An image of Brazell's son suddenly flashed before me. Reyad's handsome

face distorted with rage. I stepped back, reflexively jerking my hands up to block

him. The image disappeared, leaving me shaking.

It was an effort to dry off and wrap a towel around me. I tried to focus on

finding a comb instead of the ugly memories Reyad's image called forth.

Even clean, my snarled hair resisted the comb. As I searched for a pair of

scissors, I spotted another person in the baths from the corner of my eye. I stared

at the body. A corpse looked back at me. The green eyes were the only signs of

life in the gaunt, oval face. Thin stick legs looked incapable of holding the rest

of the body up.

Recognition shot through me like a cold splash of fear. It wasmybody. I

averted my eyes from the mirror, having no desire to assess the damage.

Coward, I thought, returning my gaze with a purpose. Had Reyad's death

released my soul from where it had fled? In my mind I tried to reconnect my

spirit to my body. Why did I think my soul would return if my body was still not

mine? It belonged to Commander Ambrose to be used as a tool for filtering and

testing poisons. I turned away.

Pulling clumps of knotted hair out with the comb, I arranged the rest into a

single long braid down my back.

Not long ago all I had hoped for was a clean prison robe before my

execution, and now here I was sinking into the Commander's famous hot baths.

"That's long enough," Margg barked, startling me out of a light doze. "Here

are your uniforms. Get dressed." Her stiff face radiated disapproval.

As I dried myself, I felt Margg's impatience.

Along with some undergarments, the food taster's uniform consisted of

black pants, a wide red satin belt and a red satin shirt with a line of small black

diamond-shapes connected end to end down each of the sleeves. The clothes

were obviously sized for a man. Malnourished and measuring only four inches

past five feet, I looked like a child playing pretend with her father's clothes. I

wrapped the belt three times around my waist and rolled up the sleeves and pant

legs.

Margg snorted. "Valek only told me to feed you and show you to your

room. But I think we'll stop by the seamstress's first." Pausing at the open door,

Margg pursed her lips and added, "You'll need boots too."

Obediently, I followed Margg like a lost puppy.

The seamstress, Dilana, laughed gaily at my appearance. Her heart-shaped

face had a halo of curly blond hair. Honey-colored eyes and long eyelashes

enhanced her beauty.

"The stable boys wear the same pants and the kitchen maids wear the red

shirts," Dilana said when she had stifled her giggles. She admonished Margg for

not spending the time to find me better-size uniforms. Margg pushed her lips

together tighter.

Fussing around me like a grandmother instead of a young woman, Dilana's

attentions warmed me, pulling me toward her. I envisioned us becoming friends.

She probably had many acquaintances and suitors who came to bask in her

attentions like cave dwellers drawn to a blazing hearth. I found myself aching to

reach out to her.

After writing my measurements down, Dilana searched through the piles of

red, black and white clothing stacked around the room.

Everyone who worked in Ixia wore a uniform. The Commander's castle

servants and guards wore a variation of black, white and red color clothes with

vertical diamond-shapes either down the sleeves of the shirts or down the sides

of the pants. Advisers and higher-ranking officers usually wore all black with

small red diamonds stitched on the collars to show rank. The uniform system

became mandatory when the Commander gained power so everyone knew at a

glance who they were dealing with.

Black and red were Commander Ambrose's colors. The Territory of Ixia

had been separated into eight Military Districts each ruled by a General. The

uniforms of the eight districts were identical to the Commander's except for the

color. A housekeeper wearing black with small purple diamond-shapes on her

apron therefore worked in Military District 3 or MD–3.

"I think these should fit better." She handed me some clothes, gesturing to

the privacy screen at the far end of the room.

While I was changing, I heard Dilana say, "She'll need boots." Feeling less

foolish in my new clothes, I picked up the old uniforms and gave them to Dilana.

"These must have belonged to Oscove, the old food taster," Dilana said. A

sad expression gripped her face for a moment before she shook her head as if to

rid herself of an unwanted thought.

All my fantasies of friendship fled me as I realized that being friends with

the Commander's food taster was a big emotional risk. My stomach hollowed

out while Dilana's warmth leaked from me, leaving a cold bitterness behind.

A sharp stab of loneliness struck me as an unwanted image of May and

Carra, who still lived at Brazell's manor, flashed before my eyes. My fingers

twitched to fix Carra's crooked braids and to straighten May's skirt.

Instead of Carra's silky ginger hair in my hands, I held a stack of clothes.

Dilana guided me to a chair. Kneeling on the floor, she put socks on my feet and

then a pair of boots. The boots were made of soft black leather. They came up

over my ankle to midcalf, where the leather folded down. Dilana tucked my pant

legs into the boots and helped me stand.

I hadn't worn shoes in seasons and I expected them to chafe. But the boots

cushioned my feet and fit well. I smiled at Dilana, thoughts of May and Carra temporarily banished. These were the finest pair of boots I'd ever worn.

She smiled back and said, "I can always pick the right-size boots without

having to measure."

Margg harrumphed. "You didn't get poor Rand's boots right. He's too

smitten with you to complain. Now he limps around the kitchen."

"Don't pay any attention to her," Dilana said to me. "Margg, don't you

have work to do? Get going or I'll sneak into your room and shorten all your

skirts." Dilana shooed us good-naturedly out the door.

Margg took me to the servants' dining room and served me small portions

of soup and bread. The soup tasted divine. After devouring the food, I asked for

more.

"No. Too much will make you sick," was all she said. With reluctance I left

my bowl on the table to follow Margg to my room.

"At sunrise be ready to work."

Once again I watched her retreating back.

My small room contained a narrow bed with a single stained mattress on a

stark metal frame, a plain wooden desk and chair, a chamber pot, an armoire, a

lantern, a tiny woodstove and one window shuttered tight. The gray stone walls

were unadorned. I tested the mattress; it barely yielded. A vast improvement

over my dungeon cell, yet I found myself somewhat dissatisfied.

Nothing in the room suggested softness. With my mind and eyes filled with

Valek's metal face and Margg's censure, and the harsh cut and colors of the

uniforms, I longed for a pillow or blanket. I felt like a lost child looking for

something to clutch, something supple that wouldn't end up hurting me.

After hanging my extra uniforms in the armoire, I crossed to the window.

There was a sill wide enough for me to sit on. The shutters were locked, but the

latches were on the inside. Hands shaking, I unlocked and pushed the shutters

wide, blinking in the sudden light. Shielding my eyes, I squinted beneath my

hand, and stared at the scene in front of my window in disbelief. I was on the

first floor of the castle! Five feet below was the ground.

Between my room and the stables were the Commander's kennels and the

exercise yard for the horses. The stable boys and dog trainers wouldn't care if I

escaped. I could drop down without any effort and be gone. Tempting, except for

the fact that I would be dead in two days. Maybe another time, when two days of

freedom might be worth the price.

I could hope.