Chapter Thirty-Two

I gasped, remembering. "Janco!" Grabbing Valek's arm, I dragged him

with me, explaining between huffs of breath. Still wearing Brazell's colors,

although torn and bloodstained, we roused the medic, who, with peevish

annoyance, fussed about protocol and proper authority until Valek drew his

knife.

My stomach heaved when we entered Reyad's wing. The hallway leading

to the captives' room was gruesome. Soldiers littered the floor, pieces of arms

and legs were scattered about as if someone had hacked their way through them.

The walls were splattered with blood and pools of scarlet dotted the floor.

The medic wanted to stop at the first man, but Valek yanked him to his feet.

Stepping carefully around the bodies, we reached the doorway. Just inside, I saw

Janco lying on his side with his head in Ari's lap. He was unconscious, which

was a good thing since a sword had skewered his stomach, the bloody tip poking

from his back. Ari's gore-splashed face held a grim expression. A crimson-

coated ax, the weapon responsible for the carnage in the hallway, rested next to

him. Irys sat cross-legged in the center of the circle of emaciated people. Her

brow glistened with sweat. Her expression was distant. The chained women and

men viewed the scene with dispassionate eyes.

The trip to the infirmary was a chaotic nightmare. Everything blurred

together like a whirlwind until I found myself lying in a bed next to Janco,

holding his hand. The medic did his best, but if the sword had pierced any vital

organs or if there was internal bleeding, Janco wouldn't survive. Twice during

the night Ari and I despaired that we would lose him.

My own wound had been cleaned and sealed with Rand's glue, but I hardly

noticed or cared about the throbbing pain. I aimed all my energy and strength

toward Janco, willing him to live.

Late the next day, I woke from a light doze.

"Sleeping on the job?" Janco whispered with a weak smile on his ashen

face.

I breathed a sigh of relief. Surely if he was strong enough to insult me, then

he was on his way to recovery.

Unfortunately, Irys couldn't say the same about the Commander. Four days

after Mogkan's death, he still hadn't regained his spirit. His advisers had

rebounded from their brief ensorcellment, and they had commandeered Brazell's

manor while waiting for the Commander to return. They assumed temporary control of the Military District. Messengers were sent north to General Tesso of

MD–4 and west to General Hazal of MD–6, requesting their immediate

presence. The Generals would have the authority to determine what the next step

would be in case the Commander failed to revive.

Just as confusing was the fact that none of Brazell, Mogkan and Reyad's

victims woke to Irys's probing. She had tried to enter their minds, to break

through to where their self-awareness was hiding. Irys reported that their minds

were like abandoned houses, fully furnished, with embers still smoking in the

fireplace, but no one home.

Irys and I resigned ourselves to the knowledge that the victims would live

out their days unaware of their new comfortable surroundings in Brazell's guest

wing. I mourned over the loss of my friend Carra. Irys had sought out the rooms

used by the orphans, and reported that May was still there, alive and well. I

planned to visit with May as soon as Janco regained some of his strength.

"It's obvious that the children in Brazell's orphanage were kidnapped from

Sitia," Irys explained, visiting me in the infirmary at Janco's bedside.

"Mogkan's ring of child thieves spaced their abductions far enough apart to

avoid detection. Magic is usually stronger in women, and that explains why there

are more girls. The kidnappers targeted bloodlines where magic was present,

although they took a gamble with children that young. There's no way to be sure

the power will develop. Mogkan and Brazell must have planned this for a long

time." Irys raked her fingers through her long brown hair. "Finding your family

shouldn't be too difficult."

I blinked at her in shock. "You're joking. Right?"

"Why would I joke?" She was unaware of the emotional tailspin she'd

caused me.

She was right, joking wasn't her style, so I thought for a moment. "Before

he died, Mogkan said something about the Zaltana bloodline."

"Zaltana!" Wiping away her usual serious expression, Irys laughed. It was

like the sun coming out after weeks of rain. "I think they did lose a girl. My

goodness, you're in for a real surprise if you're part of the Zaltana clan. That

would explain why you alone didn't cave in under Mogkan's spell."

Questions hovered on my lips. I wanted to know more about this family,

but I didn't want to get my hopes up. There was the possibility that I wasn't a

Zaltana. I guess I would find out when I reached Sitia. Irys wanted to start my

magical training right away.

Uneasiness hovered in my chest whenever I thought of leaving Ixia. I

changed the subject. "How's the Commander?"

Irys confessed her frustration. "He's different from the children. There's nothing in their minds, but he's retreated to a white place. If I can only find

where he is, then I might be able to bring him back."

I considered this for a while, and thought back to a time in the war room

when I had fallen asleep. "May I try?"

"Why not?"

I made sure Janco was comfortable and had everything he desired. Irys

accompanied me to the Commander's room. The bodies had been removed and

someone had attempted to clean up. I perched on the edge of the Commander's

bed and took his cold hand in mine. Following Irys's instructions, I closed my

eyes, sending my mental awareness toward him.

My feet crunched on ice. A cold wind stabbed my face and filled my lungs

with tiny daggers. Dazzling white surrounded me. Diamond dust or snowflakes,

it was hard to tell. I walked for a while and was immediately confused by the

sparkling blizzard. Stumbling through the storm, I fought to remain calm and to

remind myself that I was not lost. Whenever I took a step forward, the icy wind

drove me back.

I was about to admit defeat, when I remembered why I had thought I could

find the Commander. Focusing on the scene of a young woman exalting over a

slain snow cat caused the wind to stop and the blizzard to clear. I stood next to

Ambrose.

She was dressed in heavy white hunting furs that resembled the skin of the

cat.

"Come back," I said.

"I can't," she said, pointing into the distance.

Thin black bars surrounded us on all sides. A birdcage was my first

impression, but upon closer scrutiny I could see that the bars were soldiers

armed with swords.

"Every time I tried to leave, they pushed me back." Fury flamed in her face

before dying into weary.

"But you're the Commander."

"Not here. Here I am just Ambrosia trapped inside my mistake of a body.

The soldiers know about my curse."

I searched my mind for a reply. The guards didn't belong to Mogkan, they

belonged to her. My eyes were drawn to the snow cat's carcass. "How did you

kill the cat?"

Her face came alive as she recounted how she had bathed in snow-cat scent

and spent weeks cloaked in snow-cat furs, pretending to be one of the animals

until they allowed her to be part of their pack. In the end it was only a matter of

time and the perfect opportunity to make the kill.

"Proof that I was really a man. That I had won the right to be a man."

"Then perhaps you need to wear your prize," I suggested. "Skins will not

help you against that lot." I jerked my head at the ring of guards.

Comprehension widened the woman's golden eyes. She gazed at the slain

cat, then morphed into the Commander. Her shoulder-length hair shortened into

his buzz cut, fine lines of age growing on her face as he emerged. The white furs

dropped to the ground as his wrinkle-free uniform materialized. He stepped

away from the skins, kicking them dismissively.

"You shouldn't do that," I said. "She's a part of you. You might need her

again."

"And do I need you, Yelena? Can I trust you to keep my mutation a

secret?" the Commander asked with a fierce intensity.

"I came here to bring you back. Isn't that answer enough?"

"Valek swore me a blood oath of loyalty when I carved my initial on his

chest. Would you do the same?"

"Does Valek know about Ambrosia?" I asked.

"No. You haven't answered my question."

I showed the Commander Valek's butterfly. "I wear this against my chest.

I've pledged my loyalty to Valek, who is faithful to you."

The Commander reached for the butterfly. I stood still as he removed it

from my necklace. He took a knife from the skins and sliced it across his right

palm. Holding the pendant in his bloody hand, he extended the knife toward me.

I held out my right hand, wincing as the knife bit into it. Our blood mixed as I

shook his hand with the butterfly wedged between our palms. When he released

his grip, Valek's gift was in my hand. I returned it to its proper place over my

heart.

"How do we get back?" he asked.

"You're the Commander."

His eyes rested on the dead cat. Looking around at the ring of soldiers, he

drew his sword. "We fight," he said.

I pulled the spear from the cat's side, and wiped the blood on the snow.

Feeling the weight of the weapon in my grip, I swung it around in a few practice

moves. It was lighter than a bow, and a bit off balance by the metal tip. But it

would work.

We charged the men. The circle of guards tightened immediately around us.

Back to back, the Commander and I fought.

The men were skilled, but the Commander was a master swordsman. He

had bested Valek and killed a snow cat. It was like fighting with five more

defenders by my side.

When I sunk the spear's tip into one guard's heart, he exploded into a

shower of snow crystals that floated away with the wind.

Time slowed as I hacked at one man after another, until finally time

snapped to the present. I whirled around searching for an opponent only to

discover that we had dispatched all the men. Snow swirled around us.

"Nice work," the Commander said. "You helped me rediscover my true

self, killing off my demons." He took my hand and pressed it to his lips.

The wintry scene melted, and I found myself back on the bed, looking into

the Commander's powerful eyes.

That night, Valek and I briefed the Commander on all that had happened

since the Generals' brandy meeting. Valek had Brazell interrogated, and

discovered that Brazell and Mogkan had been planning a coup for the past ten

years.

"Brazell told me that Mogkan showed up at his manor with a group of

children," Valek said. "He was looking for a place to hide and he struck a deal

with Brazell to help Brazell become the next Commander. Once Mogkan

achieved enough power to reach your mind from MD–5, they started feeding

you Criollo, Sir."

"What about the factory?" the Commander asked.

"We have halted production," Valek said.

"Good. Salvage what equipment you can, then burn the factory and any

Criollo to the ground."

"Yes, Sir."

"Anything else?"

"One more interesting item. Brazell said that once he and Mogkan had

control of Ixia, they planned to take over Sitia."

The next day the Commander held court with Valek standing at his right

side. Brazell was brought before him to face charges. As expected, Brazell was

stripped of his rank and sentenced to spend the rest of his life in the

Commander's dungeon.

Permitted a few last words, Brazell shouted, "You fools. Your

Commander's a deceiver. You've been lied to for years! The Commander's

really a woman dressed as a man!"

Silence blanketed the room, but the Commander's neutral expression never

faltered. Soon laughter echoed off the stone walls. Brazell was hauled away

amid cheers and jeers. Who would believe the ravings of a madman? Obviously,

no one.

I thought about their jeers. They laughed not because the idea of a woman

in power was so ridiculous, but because Commander Ambrose had a powerful presence. His frank and abrupt dealings were so honest and forthright that the

thought of him deceiving anyone was laughable. And due to his beliefs and

convictions about himself, even though I knew the truth, I could not think of him

in any other way.

Later in the day, I went to visit the orphanage. I found May in the

dormitory. This time, happy memories followed me as I walked through the

rooms used by the orphans. When she saw me, May bounced off the bed and

wrapped herself around me.

"Yelena, I thought I would never see you again," she gushed.

I squeezed her tight. When she pulled back, I smiled to see her crooked

skirt and messy ponytail. As I braided her hair, May chattered about what had

happened since I had left. Her excitement faded when she talked about Carra.

And it was then that I could see how much she had grown.

When I finished her hair, she said, "We're going with you to Sitia!" May

spun in a circle, unable to remain still. She waved toward a suitcase on the floor.

"What?"

"That lady from the south told us that she would take us home. To find our

families!"

A brief pang clenched my heart. Family had a different meaning to me.

Valek, Ari and Janco felt like my family, and even Maren seemed like a grumpy

older sister.

"That's wonderful," I said to May, trying to match her enthusiasm.

May stopped her dance for a moment. "There are so few of us left," she

said in a sedate voice.

"Valek will make sure Carra and the others are taken good care of."

"Valek! He'ssohandsome." May laughed, and was so delightful I couldn't

resist hugging her again.

Janco, on the other hand, greeted me with a gloomy face when I stopped to

say goodbye. Irys, anxious to head south, wanted to be on the road in the

morning.

Ari had taken over my role of nurse, and was sitting next to Janco.

"Whatever happened to 'Sieges weathered, fight together, friends

forever'?" I asked him, quoting his message on my switchblade.

Janco's eyes lit up. "You little fox. Figured it out already, have you?"

I smirked.

"As soon as Janco's better, we're coming south," Ari said.

"And what would you do there?" I asked.

"Work on our tans," Janco said, smiling. "I could use a vacation."

"Protect you," Ari said.

"I don't need protection in the south," I said. "And I seem to remember that

not long ago, I bested two of my instructors."

"She's cocky already." Janco sighed. "We can't go with her now, she'll be

swaggering and boasting and generally obnoxious. It's bad enough I have to deal

with that from Ari, I could never handle two."

"Besides," I said, "you'll be bored."

Ari grumped and crossed his massive arms, looking sour. "First sign of

trouble, you send us a message and we'll be there. You got that?" Ari asked.

"Yes, sir," I said. "Don't worry about me, Ari. I'll be fine. And, I'll be

back."

"You'd better," Janco said. "I want a rematch."

But I had spoken too soon about returning. Valek, Irys and I had discussed

my future, but the Commander seemed to have other plans. Commander

Ambrose called for a formal meeting that evening. With just Valek, Ari and Irys

in attendance in Brazell's old office, the Commander agreed to honor the trade

treaty, even though it had been enacted under Mogkan's influence. Then he told

me my fate.

"Yelena," he began in a formal tone, "you have saved my life and, for that,

I thank you. But you have magical abilities that are not tolerated in Ixia. I have

no choice but to sign an order for your execution."

Valek placed a warning hand on Ari's shoulder to prevent him from

charging the Commander. Ari stayed still, but his outrage was evident in his

face. When the Commander held a paper out to Valek, coldness crept along my

skin, leaving behind a numb feeling of dread.

Valek didn't move. "Sir, I've always believed that having a magician work

for us would be beneficial and could have prevented this particular situation,"

Valek said. "We can trust her."

"A valid point." The Commander drew back his arm, resting it on the desk.

"Even though we trust her, even though she saved my life, I must follow the

Code of Behavior. To do otherwise would be a sign of weakness, something I

can't afford right now, especially after this business with Mogkan. Plus, the

Generals and my advisers will not trust her."

Once again the Commander extended the execution order to Valek. In my

frantic mind I heard Irys telling me to flee. She would attempt to slow Valek

down. No, I told her. I would see this to the end. I would not run away.

"I won't take it," Valek said in a flat voice. He betrayed no emotion.

"You would disobey a direct order?" the Commander asked.

"No. If I don't take the order, then I won't have to disobey it."

"And if I make it a verbal order?"

"I will obey. But it will be my very last task for you." Valek pulled a knife

off his belt.

The ring of steel sounded as Ari unsheathed his sword. "You'll have to get

through me first," he said, stepping in front of me. Ari had a better than average

chance of beating Valek, but I knew he wouldn't win. And I didn't want him to

try.

"No, Ari," I said. I pushed his sword arm down, and stood next to Valek.

Our eyes met. I understood that Valek's loyalty to the Commander was without

question. His blue eyes held a fierce determination and I knew in my soul that

Valek would take his own life after he had taken mine.

The Commander gazed at us with a quiet consideration. I felt time freeze

under his scrutiny.

"I've signed the order, per the Code," the Commander finally said. "I will

assign someone else to carry it out. It may take a few days for me to find a

suitable person." He looked at me and Irys. A hint that we needed to get on the

road as soon as possible. "This order is valid in Ixia only. You're all dismissed."

The office emptied in a hurry. I was giddy with relief as Ari swept me into

one of his bear hugs and whooped with joy. But then my heart seized with pain

as I realized that I would be parted from Valek so soon after we had joined.

After Irys and Ari left to organize the "escape," Valek pulled me aside. We

kissed with passion and a desperate urgency.

After we drew apart to catch our breaths, I said, "Come with me." It wasn't

a plea or a question. It was an invitation.

Valek's blue eyes closed with pain. "I can't."

I turned away, feeling like one of Valek's black statues, but he drew me

back.

"Yelena, you need to learn, you need to find your family, you need to

spread your wings and see how far you can fly. You don't need me right now,

but the Commander needs me."

I clung to Valek. He was right, I didn't need him, but I wanted him to be

with me forever.

We left that night. Irys led our ragtag group. Eight girls and two boys from

Brazell's orphanage followed Irys through the forest toward the southern border.

I took the rearguard position to make sure everyone stayed together, and to make

sure no one tailed our group.

We hiked for a few hours until we found a suitable clearing to camp for the

night. More than adequate provisions for our journey had been provided by Ari.

I smiled, remembering his lecture to me about staying out of trouble. Just like an

over-protective brother, he wasn't content until I promised to send him a message if I needed help. I would miss him and Janco dearly.

We set up six small tents in a circle. Irys amazed the children as she set fire

to the kindling with a magical flourish. After everyone had gone to sleep, I sat

by the fire, stirring the dying embers. Unwilling to join May in our tent, I gazed

at the single flame that erupted when I poked at the fire. It danced by itself for an

audience of one. I wondered for the hundredth time why Valek hadn't come to

say goodbye, fingering my pendant.

I sensed movement. Jumping up, I drew my bow. A shadow detached from

a tree. Irys had created a magical barrier around our tents. According to her, the

barrier would deflect a person's vision, so all he would see was an empty

clearing. The shadow stopped at the edge, unaffected by the magic, and smiled at

me. Valek.

He held out a hand. I grasped his cold fingers with both hands as he led me

away from the tents and deeper into the forest.

"Why didn't you come before we left?" I asked him when we stopped at the

base of a tree. The roots of the massive oak had broken through the ground,

creating small protective hollows.

"I was busy making sure the Commander would have a hard time locating

someone to carry out his orders." Valek grinned with vicious delight. "It's

amazing how much work there is cleaning up after Brazell."

I thought about what that cleanup would entail. "Who is tasting the

Commander's food?" I asked.

"For now, I am. But I believe Captain Star would make an excellent

candidate. Since she knows who all the assassins are, I think her help will be

invaluable."

It was my turn to smile. Star would do well if she passed the training. If.

"Enough talk," Valek said, guiding me down between the roots. "I need to

give you a proper send-off."

My last night in Ixia was spent with Valek beneath the tree. The hours till

dawn flew by. The rising sun intruded, waking me from a contented doze in

Valek's arms, forcing me to face the day that I had to leave him.

Sensing my mood, Valek said, "An execution order hasn't kept us apart

before. There are ways to get around it. We will be together."

"Is that an order?"

"No, a promise."