NOT STRONG YOURSELF

"You love me and I love you. I don't care whether I'm happy or not, I care only one thing. I want you to promise to always be with me." said Karin with a serious face.

Aska studied Karin's face, which looked serious. I do not know if he is able to fulfill his promise to Karin.

No one knows human life, and it becomes a tremendous fear for Aska.

"Karin, if I promise this time and if I can't keep it. Will you be mad at me?" asked Aska to return seriously Karin's serious eyes on him.

"I will be very angry with you!" Karin replied, could not be separated from her gaze. Aska pulled Karin's head in his arms.

"I can promise you now Karin, but I can't determine my destiny to be with you or not. I don't want to make you cry waiting for a promise from me." said Aska while kissing the top of Karin's hair.

"Does that mean you can't promise me? to live forever with me?" Karin said in a choked voice.

"As long as my life ... even when I die, forever will be with you Karin." replied Aska releasing the tightness in his chest.

Karin pressed her body in Aska's warm embrace.

Karin buried her head in Aska's chest which only heard Aska's weak heartbeat.

"I can't cry anymore, I have to be strong for Aska. I have to look happy, so that Aska's heart is always happy." Karin said to herself.

After a few minutes, Karin turned her face straight to Aska's face with a smile on her lips.

"Aska, I know you will always be with me here ... in my heart ... in my soul." said Karin with smiling lips as she grabbed Aska's hand and placed it on her chest.

"And you should also know, I will always be with you here too ... in your heart ... in your soul." Karin continued, turning her hand on Aska's chest. Aska smiled in relief.

"I am grateful, have a lover who is smart and always understands what I mean." said Aska kissing the back of Karin's hand.

"I don't think I'm as smart as you Mr. Aska Aliando." Karin said, squinting at Aska who smiled proudly.

"If I was smart I would know how you could give me that necklace! when did you buy it?" asked Karin curiously.

"Should I tell such a small thing? You still remember Karin, right? I am Aska Aliando a CEO who can do anything without you knowing?" Aska's smile lifted. Spontaneously, Karin's tiny fingers pinched Aska's waist with an exasperation.

"Ouch...sick Karin." screamed Aska spoiled.

"You like this, not looking like a sick person, start to look arrogant." Said Karin looking relieved at Aska's face.

"Come on tell me, how did you get it?" asked Karin again, staring at Aska without blinking.

"When you met Edo, I didn't actually sleep. I slept on purpose so that you can fulfill your promise to Edo, I don't want you to owe someone a promise. And that's when I wanted to give you something meaningful to you.

Remembering I have chemotherapy and I know how painful it is. I'm afraid that I can't hold on. So I looked at something on my cellphone, I bought the necklace online, then I told Mr. Damar to take it. And now the necklace is on your neck." explained Aska at length.

"You are really smart and naughty, huh? have dared to deceive me. If I found out you weren't sleeping, I definitely wouldn't have left you." said Karin regretfully leaving Aska.

"Because I know you will be like that, that's why I pretended to sleep. Is my acting good?" asked Aska with a smile.

"Not good at all." Karin's tentacle was annoyed.

"Come on, Karin, isn't there Mr. Damar who accompanied me yesterday? Do not be angry?" Said Aska sulking feeling guilty.

Karin looked down silently.

"Karin...Sorry." said Aska quietly as his hands pinched his ears pinched.

Seeing Aska acting like that Karin wanted to laugh, but as much as possible Karin held back her laughter.

Still in his position Aska put on a pitiful face. Finally, Karin's heart could not hold back her heart that had melted from the start.

"Don't be like that Aska. I have forgiven you, because today you look better." said Karin happily.

"Is it true? does that mean we can go home tomorrow morning?" asked Aska enthusiastically.

"Tomorrow I will ask Doctor Irwan first?" said Karin. Aska immediately hugged and kissed Karin's cheeks over and over again.

"Thank you dear, you are the best!" said Aska with a happy heart.

"You are sleeping now." said Karin helping Aska to lie down.

Without arguing, Aska obeyed Karin's orders. Aska's eyes closed.

"I'm sorry Karin, I have to do this so you don't get sad. I have to look strong and healthy, so I can go home. So that I can spend the remaining time with you alone, without the hassle of cables and drugs bothering me." Aska said to himself, enduring the pain in his body that was getting worse.

***

Early in the morning Karin went to the Administration to take care of Aska's return. The night after Aska slept, Amirah returned with a box of rice for Karin.

Together with Amirah, Karin met Doctor Irwan, who happened to be visiting the hospital for the night watch.

From Doctor Irwan's observation, Aska's condition was still experiencing a setback. And must be as soon as possible to get a bone marrow donor.

Karin had told Doctor Irwan, if Aska had a setback, why did Aska look healthy and fine last night. Could it be, Aska lied again? cover up the pain so you can go home quickly?

Doctor Irwan said to obey what Aska wanted while it did not interfere with his health or it would make Aska worse.

Karin sighed, studying Aska's sleeping face.

"I hope that with this wish of you coming home, it can make you happy and have a positive impact on your health, dear." Karin said, rubbing Aska's cheek.

Aska's face moved when she felt a warm touch on his cheek. Aska smiled as he saw Karin who already looked beautiful beside him.

"Morning Rin, you are getting more beautiful day by day." praised Aska looking at Karin with a wink.

"Morning too dear, thank you for the compliment. But early in the morning the patient is prohibited from seducing in the hospital." Karin said, holding back her embarrassment at Aska's praise.

Aska chuckled at Karin's flushed face.

"Rin, we're going home this morning right?" asked Aska looking at Karin seriously.

Karin just nodded slightly, without looking at Aska. Karin took a basin filled with warm water and a small towel that had been provided by the nurse.

Aska's heart was relieved, finally he could return home. But the relief in her heart vanished when he saw Karin's face turn sad.

"It seems you are not happy when I come home Rin? What is wrong?" asked Aska curiously.

"It's okay, it's not like you are already healthy, that's why you want to go home quickly." said Karin, hiding her feelings that were worried about Aska's situation.

"Shouldn't you be happy? because I look healthy and can go home Rin?" Aska asked carefully, Aska knew if Karin's face was serious there must be something wrong with him.

"Yes, I'm glad ... you're healthy and can go home. So you no longer need someone to take care of you, You can run your activities from later." Karin replied with a bowed face holding back her tears that were almost dripping.

Karin feels annoyed and angry with herself for not accepting Aska's condition, which is not getting better.

"Karin, look at me." Aska grabbed Karin's chin to want to look at her.

"Am I wrong?" asked Aska sadly.

"If you don't want me to come home, I'm not coming home. I will remain here, as long as you are always with me to take care of me and take care of me." said Aska in a low voice.

Karin's heart was very sad, why was her heart so very fragile, when Aska was so strong to cover up all him pain. Instead, Karin fell into fear, afraid of losing Aska, the person she loved so much.

"We'll be home soon Ka, Forgive me." said Karin without being able to give reasons about what she said earlier.

"I will not go home, until you explain what you said earlier Rin." said Aska starting stubbornly. Karin looked into Aska's eyes, the look in Aska's eyes begging for an explanation.

In her tight embrace of Aska's body, Aska returned the hug of Karin, no less tight.

In his arms Karin in his arms.

"Say it Rin, I will hear it and I promise I will do everything you want, as long as you don't leave me." Said Aska quietly in Karin's ear.

"I am weak, I am very fragile Ka. I'm not as strong as you, who can save your sadness and pain. I can't stand to see you who look strong and always smile even though you are...." Karin did not continue her words, apart from the sobs that began to be heard.

Aska was crying silently. Aska knew what Karin was going to say.

"I really have to be strong Karin, because I don't want to see you sad, let alone crushed by seeing myself getting worse." said Aska in his heart that was so painful.