Chapter 5

Jennie's POV

The sun was still up when i found myself crossing over the pedestrian. I walk towards the sidewalk when i saw a familiar faces.

I was about to feel that I was in a dream when I realized who am i seeing.... it was Irene, and she was talking to no one other than Irene. They were talking and laughing, and they seemed to be having fun, like they really knew each other well.

Okay now this was confusing.

Irene pointed out somewhere behind me and she suddenly wave her hand when she saw me approaching "Jennie!" She called me signaling for me to come to them. "What are you doing standing there?" she asked when i reached them.

"Jennie." Lisa smiled at me.

"What are you doing here?" I asked Irene.

Irene gave me a weird look, "Um, i saw Lisa, she's my classmate way back in middle school. I didn't know you two knew each other as well."

Lisa looked over at me and asked, "What's wrong?"

"uhm nothing. . . ." I probed. Just when I finally realized I was dreaming, that's when things started to mess up.

Now I wasn't sure if I was dreaming or not.

"I found out she knew you too from work. Small world, huh?" Irene said.

I swallowed hard. "Um... yeah small world indeed."

"Hey come on here. I missed you," Lisa smiled taking my hand and pulling me closer to her. WAIT IM CONFUSED!!

I shot Irene and awkward glance. She knew I was with Jongin, so I expected her to be weirded out with the current situation.

But she wasn't weirded out at all. She just gave me a nod and shifted her focus on her phone.

"I'll just call Seulgi, she's probably on her way." Irene excused with her phone. So Seulgi? Are they together in here too?!!

WAIT WHAT?? I DON'T KNOW IF THIS IS DREAM OR NOT!!

"Lisa can I talk to you for a second?" I said when Irene was ten steps far from us.

"Sure," she nodded, getting up and following me to the opposite side of her car. "What's up?"

I took a deep breath and finally let the words out. "Okay, you might find this question really weird, but... where did I come from?"

"Excuse me?"

"I mean, you just said you missed me. Where did I go?"

She looked at me with a dumbfounded face. "Really Jennie? did you hit your head somewhere and got amnesia or something?"

"No time for jokes please," I begged. "Just answer me."

"Uh..."Lisa muttered sounding like she was trying to remember. "Well, you left right before we had some snacks by the resti. You said you had work to do. That was it. You don't remember?"

"I... I don't remember that part," I said. "But I remember you asking me if I wanted to make some sandwiches or eat in a resto instead."

She nodded quickly, "Yeah yeah, I did ask you that. And then we weren't able to do it cause you left."

"But how come I don't remember any of that?" I asked. I was starting to get a bit frustrated already and I was sure that she could tell.

"Hold on, Jennie. You're acting really weird right now," she said, holding both of my hands. "What are you talking about? I'm really confused."

"I'm quite confused as well," I mumbled leaning on the car beside her.

Lisa ooked right into my eyes and held me close, "Okay, talk to me. What's going on?"

I was a bit distracted by her perfume and her piercing dark brown eyes. It's only been a day since I last saw her but I felt like I really missed her already.

"Please don't laugh at me right now but I think you're just a figment of my imagination," I blurted out, avoiding her eyes. Im sure it was a dream.

Im lucid dreaming.

"What?" she said, looking lost.

"I think I'm dreaming right now,and it was just a dream," I finally said. "And you're just in my dream. You're not real."

Lisa paused for a while before bursting into a ball of laughter.

Her face was starting to turn red as she held her stomach, trying to gasp for air.

"Yah Jennie! What on earth are you talking about?" she managed to say in between her loud and hysterical laughter.

"I'm not kidding!" I wailed. I could already feel the tears well up in my eyes. How the fuck do you explain to someone in your dream that she was just a dream? How do these things work anyway?!! Ughhh!

"Well, is Irene just part of your dream too or does she actually exist?" she asked, giving me a ridiculous stare.

"I do know her in real life," I shrugged. "She just happened to pop in my dream right now. But you... you're not real. I don't know you in real life."

"What the fuck? This is real life, Jennie!" she said, almost yelling but sounding like she was going to laugh again any minute.

"No, it's not!" I yelled back. This time I could really feel the tears roll down my cheeks. Its so frustrating.

"You're not real, ok? I'm just dreaming and any moment now, you're going to disappear again, just like what happens every night! I see you and then you disappear and leave me hanging and wondering!"

Lisa threw her brown bucket hat on the roof of the car in frustration and just started to grab strands of her hair. "Oh god, you are insane."

"I'm not insane," I insisted. "I'm just a girl who's dreaming of someone right now, and that someone is you. It's called lucid dreaming. I can control my dreams right now and I am telling you, you are not real -"

Lisa flung her hands in the air and walked towards me, pulling me by my waist.

"Tell me Jennie. Is this fake?" she said, right before catching me off guard and roughly pressing her soft lips against mine.

Lisa's lips were soft and sweet and every cell in my body told me to keep kissing her, but my mind begged to differ. After lingering in the kiss for a few seconds, I found finally found the strength to detach my lips from her.

"I can't do this, Lisa!" I said as I let go of her. I part of me wanted to kiss her again, but my mind was telling me no. It didn't matter if she was just a girl in my dreams. I shouldn't want to kiss other person especially a girl. I should only have desires for my boyfriend, whom I loved.

"I-I'm sorry," she stammered, still looking into my eyes. "I know that was too sudden and I've only known you for a while but -"

"No, stop it," I firmly said, pushing her away from me. "I have a boyfriend. It doesn't matter if you're real or not. What matters is that I'm in a relationship and everything about this is wrong."

She stared at me, looking defeated. "You have a boyfriend?"

"Yes, I do."

"How come you didn't tell me right away?" she asked, i could see the disappointment in her.

"How was I supposed to know you were going to kiss me?" I said, nearly shrieking. "I don't even know you, to be honest."

She shook her head in frustration. "Does the amount of time that you get to know a person really matter? Or the impact it makes in your life when you meet the person?"

"That still doesn't change the fact that I have a boyfriend and that I shouldn't be kissing other guys, especially ones I just met," I snapped, giving her a ridiculous stare.

"I don't want to sound crazy or anything, but you have to admit that we had a spark yesterday," she said, putting her hands on her waist. "You felt it. I know you did."

"I don't even know you," I repeated in a softer tone.

"Then get to know me," she practically pleaded.

"Woa woah am i hearing it right?You have a boyfriend Jennie?!!" Irene pops up from behind adding confusion in me. So, she know me, Seulgi exist, but Jongin isn't??

I sat down on the floor of the side wak and buried my face in my hands. "It doesn't matter, this is not even real."

"Oh fuck, here we go again," Lisa groaned. "Can you please stop saying that? I'm starting to think that you are not of this world."

I looked up to her and rolled my eyes, "Look who's talking. You're the one who's just lingering in my dreams right now. You don't exist!"

"I honestly have no idea what you're talking about," she sighed. "Are you sure you're okay? Do you want to get yourself checked?"

My jaw dropped. How dare she imply that I was insane? She was the one invading people's dreams here, not me!

Why was I even engaging in an argument with her? I was right. She was just a figment of my imagination. She had no control over me whatsoever and she shouldn't have any - ever.

"Jennie. . . ." Irene called my attention but i chose to ignore her, she wasn't real in here too.

"You know what, it doesn't matter," I said, forcing myself to laugh. "I'm just going to try to wake up from this dream now and try to forget about you."

"The keyword is try," she smirked. "If you're going to have to try to forget about me, then you definitely think of me more often that you should."

Damn. Why did she have to be so charming? Every single thing about her was just so different and captivating.

It's almost like as if she was a drug. But I can get the same kind of spark with Jongin too, right? It shouldn't be hard. I mean the guy actually exists and he loves me and I love him back.

"Babe!" Someone suddenly screamed from my behind. I look back and saw Seulgi calling. She smiled at me. Right, Seulgi is really here too, and she's smiling at me.

I look back to see Irene's reaction but they weren't there anymore. WHAT??!!

Seulgi is gone too. And its getting blurry.

What the actual fuck is happening?!!! I squinted hard and tried my best not to get lost to it.

I was suddenly starting to smell the vanilla scent of our bedroom. Wait. . . . .

I slowly opened my eyes only to find the space beside me in bed was empty. I immediately got up and ran to Jongin's little place next to our room.

"Kai?" I called frantically.

I saw him get up from behind his huge easel, looking at me with concern. "Hey, are you okay?"

I ran to him and wrapped my arms around his body, before firmly pressing my lips against his. Obliging, he opened his mouth and allowed me to kiss him deeper.

"I love you." I murmured while kissing his lips passionately. "I love you so much."

Jongin slowly let go of me and looked down on my face, giving me a weird smile, "Are you okay babe? What's going on?"

"I just.." I sputtered, "I just love you."

My heart felt so heavy because of guilt. I wanted to say sorry to him for kissing someone another in my dreams but then that would sound absolutely insane and stupid.

"I love you too, Jen," he chuckled. "You're acting like you haven't seen me for years. You've only been asleep for half an hour, you know that?"

"Half an hour?" I gasped. The time I spent with Lisa in my dream felt like forever.

"Yeah," he said, still giving me a weird look. "You're sure you're okay?"

I nodded, pulling him closer. "I'm okay, I just... I just had a bad dream. But I'll be okay now if you come to bed with me. Please?"

"Okay, sure," he agreed, taking my hand and leading me to the bedroom. "If only you didn't start sleeping so early, I'd be in bed with you the same time every night."

I jumped under the covers with him, still holding his hand tight. The smell of his perfume started to relax my nerves a bit, allowing me to cuddle him comfortably.

I let out a loud sigh and leaned in his chest, with my right arm wrapped around him. "I just want to stay like this for awhile."

"I'd like that," he smiled, kissing my forehead.

"We barely get to do this before bed anymore," I whispered. "You're always so busy"

I felt his chest move as he let out a deep exhale. "I'm sorry, baby. You know I've been extra busy lately, right? But yeah, we should do this more often."

He stayed there a bit longer and I started to feel my heart pound fast.

I released my arm from him and crawled up his chest until I was nearly on top of him. Strands of my hair fell on his cheeks, but he didn't mind. He just stared at me with his beautiful brown eyes.

I've always loved looking at them. His long eyelashes were perfectly curved and it was definitely one of the reasons why he was so attractive. I felt him lean forward a bit as he kissed my lips.

I brought my hands to this neck, kissing him with every ounce of desire that I had. I felt his warm tongue slowly go in my mouth.

"Kai. . . .," I mumbled, letting out a soft moan. I left trails of kisses on his lower lip all the way to his neck, until I finally found his sweet spot and started to suck on it.

I wanted to feel the spark that Lisa claimed she had felt with me. That spark only belonged to me and Jongin. It had to.

I honestly haven't felt it in quite awhile, but tonight I was desperate to feel it again. He was my everything. He's supposed to be. Why should I trade him for someone who wasn't real?

It didn't matter how captivating the person was. The point is she didn't exist, and that alone wasn't worth risking a genuine relationship for.

"I love you so much, Jen," he murmured into my mouth. I felt his hands trail down to the end of my lose shirt, slowly going inside, feeling every goose bump in my skin before pulling it away, undressing me.

"I love you so much too," I whispered, letting him touch me in any way that he pleased. I was his, and he was mine. That was all there is to it.

He slowly pushed me off him and pinned me down the bed with him on top of me, taking charge of the situation. "It's been awhile, Jennie. I needed this."

I need it too. You have no idea how much I need it right now.

I need to feel that you are the only person that I will ever want.

He pulled his shirt off and threw it on the floor, before pushing his body back against mine, kissing my neck all the way down.

I looked at him with intense anticipation as he takes over me.

"I assume you're already wet down there?" he smirked as his fingers went inside my skirt, pulling my underwear down. I didn't expect to be so soon, but surprisingly I was.

I nodded and guided his hands to his crotch, watching him as he pulled out his length. When he had finally settled, I grabbed him and pulled him back down, allowing him to kiss me again.

I felt him let out a loud moan as he pushed himself in me, thrusting back and forth. It did feel so good. I almost forgot how amazing it felt like to make love to the man I loved the most.

He's always been good in bed, especially when we were really lusting for each other like now. It was something I had actually forgotten this past few weeks since both of us had been so preoccupied with other things.

I kept panting hard as he moved deeper in me, feeling every bit of him. His warm breath felt so good against my skin as he opened his mouth to kiss me again while he's getting harder. He bit my lower lip and started to suck on it.

"Don't stop," I managed to say in between deep breaths, while running my fingers through his messy, black hair.

"Okay but I-I'm almost there," he panted, thrusting in really hard, shooting a strong sense of pleasure all the way up to my spine.

"Just a little bit more," I mumbled, closing my eyes. I need this. Please..please...

All of a sudden, I saw images of Lisa face flash in my mind. I felt chills all around my body.

This wasn't supposed to be happening!!

I tried to push away the thoughts and focused on the fact that Jongin was giving me everything I wanted right now.

I was about to reach my climax, I could feel it. I need to come to confirm it.

No no no!! I tried my best to get rid of Lisa's image in my mind.

"The keyword is try."

Her words replayed in my mind.

"If you're going to have to try to forget about me, then you definitely think of me more often that you should."

No. I don't have to forget about you because you are no one! You are getting out of my thoughts right now!

This was all about Kai. This was my special moment with him and I wasn't going to let any crazy thought ruin it for us.

At least I tried not to.

I tried.