The evil thoughts that comes with child birth sometimes

Jabi

I hear her. 

Crying for the third time since Darrien put her down and I am losing my mind. Fuck, I know it is my turn. I mean Darrien has gone to her the two times she woke up and I can't understand why she is crying. 

What is wrong with her?

Why don't you go to her and find out? 

My wolf tells me—or should I say scolds me. 

Darrien has noticed my receptive behavior towards our baby. That's why he took me away from the community for a week. He said it was just a vacation from all the crazy. He wanted to me to relax. He said I deserved it. 

I didn't even think about leaving her behind and I should feel like shit but I didn't. I was happy about the break. Happy that we would finally be alone. I know that makes me a terrible father. I have been feeling like a terrible father all throwing this journey. 

It is easy for Dar.