I lose my shit

Lisa

"Remind me again why did you accept their invitation?" I asked, looking at Sydney through the mirror reflection while buttoning my elbow length black sleeve.

"Because you need to unwind." She answered. "Mr.Marco is also there, why are you so scared Lis?"

"Bitch, I'm not scared, I'm more ashamed."

"Because of what? Dude, your dick will stay inside that pants. No one will know that you had that, not unless you decided to get laid." She said coyly while snickering.

First, I'm not ashamed that I have DSD, which is a very rare case of having a dick on a woman's body, second, the reason that I am ashamed is that, those three girls except Sana, invited me personally when in fact, we barely know each other, all we had was hard staring contest especially that brunette with cat-like eyes.

I throw the first thing I've seen from the table beside full length mirror, but to my surprised, she catches it without even looking. "Not on my peripheral watch." She huffed and threw back the powder bottle on me and for the second time, I got surprised because I didn't had the chance to catch it and it hit me right on my forehead.

"Fuck Syd!" I hissed as I rubbed my forehead.

"No sweetie, I ain't gonna give you the fuck that you want." She teased and stands on her feet after she finishes wearing her white vans. "Ready?"

"You seriously not acting like you didn't hurt me!" I said, shooting her a dagger look.

"It's not my fault that you have slow hands to catch things." She shrugs and patted my shoulder. "Let's go." She added as she make her way out from my room but she halts and look back at me. "Oh, I was totally kidding about you getting laid 'coz I'm not gonna let you have sex with any of those girls."

"I don't have plans either, so reminding me was really unnecessary." I tells her as I followed her and shut the door behind me. "Let me bid my goodbye to my mom."

After we bid our goodbyes to my mom and several reminders about her meds and everything else that she needs to take while I'm away. We head straight to the Mizaki's which is the place was just five blocks away from our house.

If we didn't know that there's a birthday celebration inside, we would think that everybody inside the house were already sleeping for how silent it was.

"Are you sure that there's a party inside?" I asked the woman beside me.

"Of course, actually, they are already started the party." Sydney replied, as if she was already inside earlier and she just went out to fetch me up and guide me to enter the house. The two guards in the guardhouse smiled at us when they saw our faces, of course they'd know us. We are Sana's childhood friend.

When we both entered inside the huge house of Mizaki's, that's when I heard the faint beats of the music coming from the backyard, lot of maids keep coming in and out from the kitchen carrying each food of trays.

"I didn't know that this was a huge party." I whispered softly while making my way in the kitchen.

"Lisa, where the hell are you going?" Sydney asked when she noticed that I'm not standing behind her anymore.

"I need to greet my Dad." I said as I entered inside the kitchen and saw my old man behind the stove with his chef uniform. "Hi Dad."

He looked over his shoulder but still not letting go the kitchen turner and kept stirring. But he still managed to flashed his wide smile when he saw me walking towards him. "Hey baby." He greets back and called one of his assistant chef to continue what he was doing. He wiped his hands with the dry towel sprawled above the countertop before he pulls me into a tight hug. "You looked handsome tonight."

"Dad, that's not nice to say those words to your daughter." I pout and scrunched my nose up.

"Yeah yeah, but still. I've said what I said." He dismissed. "Sana told me that there will be a visitor tonight and asked me to cook a lot of food, especially this one." He said and point at the bowl of Gamjatang, my favorite, that is now carried by one of the maids and brings it out. "But she never told me that it was you and Sydney."

"Nah, today is Jisoo's birthday and we aren't the only ones who will come." I said.

He frowns and tilt his head confusedly. "Ma'am Jisoo's birthday? How will it happen when her birthday —."

"Lisa you came!" Dad was interrupted when Sana shouted behind me and pulled my hand. "I thought you weren't coming."

"My boss let me off early, which is really getting suspicious."

"Why tho?"

"I guess she and Sydney have their dirty little secret." I whispered softly while laughing, not wanting Sydney to hear me.

"Ooh." She coos and looked behind me. "I gotta need to borrow your daughter, uncle." Sana told my Dad and the latter smiled at him, nodding off her head. "Let's go, we already started the party." She said and dragged me towards the backyard.

I don't know if we were early because when we got to the backyard, there were only the six of us. Sydney sitting on the round table already devouring her food mercilessly, Jisoo beside her and Chaeyoung on the other side of her, Sana dragged me again and pushed my shoulder down to take the seat beside Jennie fucking Zee, who's wearing an untied silky pink robe, peeking her red two piece inside with a wine glass in her hand.

She looks so hot and I swear to God that I hitched my breath when I smelled the alluring scent of hers, her hair tied in a messy bun and her cheeks flushed, maybe because she's been drinking a lot before we arrived. And I keep controlling myself not to steal a glance at her thick crossed hips under the table, she looks so elegant and I look like a muddy rock who's sitting next to a precious gem.

"You didn't told me that it was a pool party." Sydney said with her mouth full of food. Sana frowns and hit her.

"Stop talking with your mouth full of food!" She yelled before taking the seat beside me. "And it's not a pool party, Jen just want to swim."

"Isn't it too cold for a swim?" I asked chuckling, but I stopped when a gaze pierce on my side profile and from then, I knew Jennie was staring at me with her deathly stare. "K-kidding."

Without a word, Jennie elegantly rose from the chair and turned her back on me, she seductively removed the silk robe from her body, well at least on my perception, before tossing it on the ground. She sexily walked towards the pool and I couldn't help but to stare at her behind, feeling something inside my pants rioting on my crotch. I blink my eyes rapidly and cleared my throat before looking back to the table.

Seeing the three women looking back at me with their teasing smile except Sydney, who's now furrowing her brows.

"So uhm, happy birthday Jisoo." I started to ease the awkwardness.

Her forehead wrinkled and look at me as if what she heard from me was the most confusing things she had ever heard. "My birthday?"

"Isn't it the reason why you invites us?"

Chaeyoung used her elbow to nudge Jisoo secretly but I didn't missed that. It's my turn to be confused and looked at them quizzically.

"Oh uhm, yeah! It's my birthday!" Jisoo suddenly exclaims and clapped her hands with an awkward smile. "Sorry I forgot, I don't usually celebrate birthdays, it's just that my girlfriend insist to make one for me." She said and wrapped her arm on Chaeyoung's shoulder and gave her girlfriend a kiss.

"That's sweet." I said, looking at them in awe.

"Yeah, how about you Lis? Do you celebrate birthdays?" She asked.

"Actually, since my mom got sick, I stopped minding those kind of events and just focus on my mom."

"Your mom must be very important to you." Chaeyoung said, her voice is weak and full of sympathy.

"Of course, isn't everyone loves their parents?"

"Yeah, I love my parents too, even if they are not my real parents." Jisoo said and smiled at me, her heart-shaped lips stretching in most warmly way.

"Me too, my Dad wasn't my real Dad."

"How about your mom?" Chaeyoung asked curiously, leaning half of her body in the table.

"She's my real mom." I replied.

"Oh really? So how did your mom and your step dad meet each othe-."

Sydney suddenly stood up from her seat which cause us to get startled and she looked at me with her serious face. "Lis, let's go home."

"What? Why? We just got here." I said and stands up, I am confused on why Sydney became serious when in fact, she was just bickering with Sana earlier.

"I said let's go." She said more firmly and grabbed my hand and strats dragging me.

"Why are you so eager to go home? Ms.Kang."

My eyes widened when I saw Jennie standing in front of us, not because she looks so hot and sexy with her red two piece, wet hair and that smirk curving on the corner of her lousy lips, but because all I thought, she was in the pool, but how come that she's suddenly standing in front of us. How did it happen? Or maybe I just didn't notice her that she came out from the pool.

"We're going home Jen." Sydney said, she's now more furious and I don't have any fucking idea why she begun acting like this.

"Syd, c'mon. What the hell is going on with you?" I asked irritatedly and took back my hand from her grip and look back to Sana. "What happen?"

"Nothing, we were just bickering and bantering." Sana answered and shrugged her shoulders.

I shifted my gaze back at Sydney quizzically. "What's wrong Syd? Aren't you being rude to the birthday celebrant?"

"I don't like the way how they asked about your private life, Lisa."

"Why ms.Kang? Are you hiding something? Is there any secret you don't want us to know?" Jennie asked again and took one step closer to Sydney.

I quickly pulled Sydney and stand in the middle of them before turning to Jennie. "Uhm J-jennie." I started and swallowed the imaginary lump on my throat as it suddenly became dry when I saw her cleavage screaming in front of me. "I'm sorry f-for how s-she act and I think it's better for us to g-go." I said stuttering and refrain my eyes to look down because God! She has a huge and lovely future in front of her, covered by a little piece of cloth.

She looked at me but she quickly advert her gaze somewhere, making me to frown. Am I really that ugly? Before, she had always been staring at me but now she almost didn't want to look at me! What's wrong with this girl?

"All right, go, but don't expect us to invite you again and as you say, you're being rude to the birthday celebrant." Jennie said without even looking at me and she immediately turn her heels.

I immediately felt embarrassed by what she said so I quickly stopped her before she could take one step and grabbed her arm but I felt like my palm got burned when I touch her which cause me to quickly let go and looked at my palm in astonishment.

"What the—!"

"Ok! That's it! We invited the two of you because of one thing we want to admit!"

"Chaeyoung no, last minute change of plan. We're not gonna admit anything." Jennie rebukes and throw a dagger look to Sydney. "You still want to play this game Sydney? Fine, I will play with you." She said and took a step towards me but she still didn't look at me. The irritation starts pricking on my skin as she kept her eyes pierced behind me. Why can't she look at me? What's wrong with her?! And what game? What the hell is she talking about?

I snapped my head to Sydney, her face became more furious and I think she's beyond pissed off right now. "What do you want?" She asked directly to Jennie.

"Do you really want me to say it out loud Sydney Kang?" Jennie asked back challengingly. "I can tell you what I want but—."

"Jen, I think we need to calm down first, you too Sydney." Sana chimes in and pushed them away to each other slowly.

Seriously, I can feel the thick tension lingering around us while looking back and forth to Sydney and Jennie, and I'm like a fool standing there and doesn't have any idea what's going on.

"What the hell is going on?" I asked, confused and annoyed. No one dared to answer me but Sydney retreated with a sigh of annoyance and pad back to her chair, leaving me dumbfounded.

"Lis, can you help me with the food—."

"No." I uttered sternly to cut Sana off. "I demand to know what the fuck is going on? Did your friends know Sydney? What game are they talking about? What secret was this damn gorgeous is talking about? I need to know because honestly? I am near to lose my shit right now! And if anyone doesn't want to tell me, then fine! I'm leaving— no Sydney you're not coming with me!" I immediately stopped her when she stood up. I wait for an answer but they still kept their mouth shut and just exchanging glances. "Fuck!" I groaned and was about to turn my heel but I stopped when I bumped into a tiny figure behind me and to my fucking luck! I stumbled on the ground and the girl that I bump into? She didn't even flinched or moved from her spot.

"You're a short tempered nerdy girl, aren't you?" Jennie utter mockingly with a chuckle.

"And you're one of a hell strong tiny human." I retaliate as I pushed myself up from the ground and after shrugging off the dirt on my pants, I stood broadly in front of her. "I don't know what the fuck is happening right now, but one thing is for sure. You couldn't look straight in my eyes as if you are afraid of me wherein the first time you saw me, you couldn't tear those cat-like eyes away from me and oh, before I forgot, that two pieces of clothes made you really look so hot and sexy." I whispered at her and left her shocked as she heard those last words from me.

I can't believe I've said those words, I really feels embarrassed with what I said! What the fuck Lisa?! I chastised myself while walking away from them.

When I noticed that I was 10 feet away from her and saw that she's still in shock, I ran quickly inside the house until I finally saw my Dad exiting the kitchen while removing his apron from his body. "Dad, are you going to leave?" I asked.

"Uh yeah, my duty for today was already done." He said as he pad near me. "Why?"

"Uhm actually, I'm already done for tonight can we—." My words cut off when I feel something heavy oppressive aura that made my body shivered and all my fleece stood up. I whipped my head towards the door where I came from and that heavy aura was coming from there.

"Lisa, you ok? Why are you leaving so early?" Dad asked me and hold my shoulder, but I couldn't feel anything, as the dark aura succumbing my whole being. As if that aura is preventing me to move, it's so heavy that I can feel my body freezing and my heart is beating frantically.

I saw Sydney running in haste and violently shut the sliding door behind her and ran closer to me. "The fuck did you do Lisa!" She said with a grin and suddenly pulled me out of the house, and I did nothing but to let her dragged me because I didn't have the ability to move my own feet.

We stopped from running when she made sure that we are already 3 blocks away from Mizaki's and we are near at our house. I rest my palms on my knees while catching my own breath, huffing and sighing.

"Damn Syd! That was the fastest run I've ever made!" I exclaimed while panting.

"And damn you for almost making us dead!" She scowled and hit my shoulder lightly. I know that Sydney can ran fast but how come that she didn't even had a single drop of sweat, meanwhile me, almost soaking my clothes with my own sweats. "What the fuck are you thinking to say those things to Jennie?!"

My eyes widened at her question. "You heard it?!"

"What?! N-no, but based on Jennie's reaction, I know that you told her nasty words!" She said and punched me again.

"I didn't say anything nasty, I even praised her!" I said defensively.

Sydney frowns at me and was about to hit me again but her hand stop mid air and snapped her head at the road where we came from. "Shit, we better go home Lisa." She said and dragged me again but this time, I didn't let her. "Now what?!" She yelled.

"Why are we even running? And we left Dad, what if he ask me why we left him just like that?"

"Don't worry about your Dad, he will be fine!" She said and tried to pulled me again.

"Sydney fucking Kang!"

"Lisa fucking Mcklein! Can we talk about this tomorrow?! We need to get inside your house!" She yelled back and forcefully dragged me for the nth time. I was about to protest but I stopped when I felt that someone is following us, I don't know if it was the same person before because I can only feel pair of eyes this time.

When I open our main door, I was in surprised when I saw Dad sitting at the couch with a cup of coffee on his hand. He was also got surprised when he saw us entered the house hastily.

"Whoa, what happen? Why are you in a rush young ladies?" He asked.

"How did you got home fast?" I asked back.

"What are you talking about? I came home early this afternoon after I cooked everything for their little party. I thought you were there?"

"What afternoon? We were just talking at the Mizaki's house awhile ago before Sydney dragged me out of the house for no reason." I said confusedly.

He looked at me ludicrously, as if I was gone crazy and hallucinating. "Are you drunk?"

"W-what?! No! I am certainly sure that—."

"Sorry Marco, your daughter is kind of drunk and I think she needs to take a rest." Sydney butted in and pulled me upstairs. I didn't even had the chance to react when she used her strength to dragged me.

"We better talked about this tomorrow young lady!" Dad said before Sydney finally closed the bedroom door after pushing me inside.

"What was that?!" I snapped at Seulgi.

"I don't know, maybe he was just tired from all the cooking?"

I stared at Sydney incredulously, as if in between the three of us, she was way more acting like a drunk person. I heaved a deep breath and exhales exasperatedly before throwing down my body onto my bed. "Tonight really made me lose my shit!"

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