Take a risk

LISA's POV

Tonight's incident deserves to be added on my confusion list, from the person who cured my mom that they doesn't want to tell me, to Jennie revealing that she knows who I am or what I am but she never told me about hers. After learning that they are the trio, I become more aware that they aren't normal human just like me, especially when Jennie tells me about my biological father. I don't know where she got that from or my foster parents told her about that.

But I also don't know if it's just me or she also feels the same way, but having a conversation with her about my identity that I haven't done with anyone before somehow, makes me feel safe. Or maybe the fact that we're both not normal human being? Or maybe because even if in between Jennie's appearance who can make everyone peed on their pants in just one look and both alluring at the same time, she still know how to hold a conversation with me. She knows the right words to soothe me, sometimes she's being harsh, as if she wants to devour me and rip my head's off. But other than that, she still knows how to please me, in between my agony and cowering, she was there to remind me; to gave me courage; to make me feel that in this cruel world, there's someone like her, a gorgeous and stunningly beautiful woman— if I may add, who wants to know me.

She's not bad after all.

But the thing is, I surely knows that healing my mom's illness has something to do with Jisoo's condition. Though she denies that it wasn't her, I still need to know who cured my mom. I need to thank her, but who among them? I need to know who's the culprit and maybe, consider Jisoo's offer? If it's still necessary, well, I guess I need to talk to Jisoo tomorrow about that.

After I put my mom into sleep, I went back to my room and sat in front of my computer immediately. Opened the web and started searching 'what kind of supernatural being can cure a mortal illness.'. I was biting my nail anxiously while waiting for the results to come out and I've never experienced my internet to be this slow. Why am I searching about this?

Because I need to know what's Jennie's identity, I want to know about her, just like what she knows about me.

I sigh frustratedly when the loading icon seems to stay longer than it has been before, I checked the router and everything, but they all running smoothly, I sat straight and my eyes lit up when my computer showed the answer from my question but then I stopped when I was about to click in one site. I felt someone's presence on my back and saw the girl who turned my life in most confusing way than before.

Though she's hiding in a dark space of my room, I still know that it's her, her sweet cherry scent was enough for me to distinguish that it's Jennie.

"You're searching for an answer." She stated the obvious, her voice isn't mad nor happy, it's monotonous like she usually use every time she will talk to me but I can still feel that I made a mistake.

"Is it wrong? You wouldn't tell me who cured my mom and who you are." I shrugs my shoulders, not because I was trying to give her a nonchalant expression, but because I can feel my body is trembling, knowing that Jennie was standing inside my room, in the middle of the night and I still don't have idea if what kind of supernatural is she.

"Does it matter?"

"Of course is it."

"Then why don't you just ask me?" When Jennie steps from the shadows I understand why she spoke to me from darkness. She was covered with blood, from her lips to her chest, as if she was gone to a bloody war. Her pointed fangs showing out and her veiny face is somewhat creepy to stare at. My lips quivers and couldn't will to utter any words as I stared at her in stunned surprised. "Now, can you identify what kind of supernatural I am?" The corner of her lips curved up to form a smirk as she took one step forward.

"Y-you're a v-vampire?" I asked in bewilderment. I forced my knees to stand up from my chair but she was quick to stopped me as she grab my shoulder and throw me on my bed in one swift move. "F-fuck!" I winced when I felt the hard wood of the headboard on my back.

"You're not that dumb after all." She said without emotion. When my widened eyes darts up to her, I shivered. Her eyes become dark red, piercing on me like I was her prey and ready to devour me. Her cute cat-like eyes turned into a devilish ones, I blink away the fear out of my body that succumbing me but I failed when Jennie started to crawl from the end of my bed, I shriek when she struck the bed causing me to wobble. "You already know what I am, so I have no choice but to–."

"W-wait, I wouldn't say you're a v-vampire to anyone just pl-please! D-don't kill m-me." I begged while scooting up, hoping for more space to get away from her even though I can already feel the wall behind me.

She stopped from crawling and her smirk grew wider. "Sorry Lisa, but there's no other way. I have to–."

"Please Jennie! I'm begging you!" I yelled, hoping that someone might hear me and barge inside my room to save me. I want to scream for help but in my situation right now, I know Jennie can kill me just before someone can make it here.

Jennie moves so fast, so fast that I didn't noticed that she was already in front of me. I clenched my eyes hardly as I felt her index finger under my chin. This scene makes me feel that nostalgic feeling twelve years ago, when a vampire was about to suck my blood but it turns out that he's not interested. But tonight is different, Jennie seems to be so damn serious about killing me.

I was loss for words when she tilt my head and her face slowly leaning on my neck, I hitched my breath when I felt her breath trickle in my skin, it's so warm that I suddenly felt my fear dissipated, the urge of grabbing her nape to crash our lips together instead of letting her to suck my blood. I flinched when I felt her lips touches my skin, giving goosebumps all over my body. I don't know what's gotten to me, but the fear in my chest was replaced by strange heat coming from my abdomen, especially when Jennie's hot tongue lick the soft spot on my neck.

"You smell good, Lisa." She whispered on my ear and nibble my lobe.

"J-jen.." I moaned her name while holding her waist and pulling her closer to me, I don't know if why are we in this situation when all she was about to do is kill me, but here she is, licking and nipping my neck that made me feel my body to ask for more, the length inside my pants is twitching and it hurts, it badly needed an attention from Jennie. "P-please Jennie, m-my dic– ouch!"

My eyes shot open when I felt a loud smack on my nape, I quickly turn my head to see Jennie looking at me weirdly.

"Are you having a dream about me?!"

"W-wait— what? That was just a dream?" I asked and wander my eyes inside my room, I am still in front of my computer and my gaze shifts back at her, there was no blood on her shirt, there are no fangs on her teeth, her eyes are brown hazel nut and not dark red, she was still pale but there's no vein on her face. I rubbed my knuckles on my eyes and blink three times before darting up my eyes at her. "That was only a dream and you're not a vampire." I murmured under my breath with a sigh of relief.

"You are moaning my name."

"Am I?" I asked innocently, but I can feel the heat rushing up on my face as I remember the last scene from that dream, I don't know if I should take that as a nightmare or a wet dream.

"Yes!" She said angrily with her gritted teeth. "I didn't know that you're a pervert as well."

"W-what— no I'm not!" I tried to defend myself but she squint her eyes at me accusingly, which cause me to advert my eyes everywhere but her. "I.. t-that was...uhm."

"You're pervert! Just admit it!" She hissed at me and was about to hit me again but I quickly dodge it and ran away from her.

"Wait wait, listen to me, it's n-not what y-you think—." I stopped from talking when Jennie's eyes slowly widening while looking at the bulge under my pants, I immediately covered it with my hand and grabbed the pillow on my side to replaced my hand from covering it.

"What the f-fuck was t-that?" Her widened eyes darts up to me. "Is that— is that, a f-fucking st-trap–on?"

My forehead narrowed and tilt my head sideways, I know it's not the right moment to feel this way, but I couldn't help but to adore how cute Jennie's face with that cute little creased on her forehead while looking at me. She has this innocent face but a little rage on her eyes for accusing me that I am wearing a fucking strap-o– wait? What the fuck?!

"Hey! What the fuck?! Why would I wear one when I have real one!" I shouted at her and I swear to God. The way her jaw literally dropped on the floor while her mouth hung open, eyes dilated and the blood ran out from her body, making her more paled as ever, makes me feel nervous and anxious. I immediately felt embarrassed and ashamed of myself. "I..I'm s-sorry—." I didn't got the chance to finish my words when Jennie vanished in front of me in just a blink of an eye. My shoulders slumped down and facepalmed myself. "Oh for fuck sake! Is it really shocking to know that I have this dick?!"

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JENNIE's POV

"What happen to you?" I snapped my head at Jisoo when she tapped my shoulder and sat beside me. "You've been spacing out since you came back from Lisa's house, does that mean, what Chaeyoung had said, happened?"

"N-no."

"No? Then why are you acting like you lost your virginity to someone unworthy?" She said while holding back her laughter and I barely holding back myself not to scream because of what I had witnessed.

I look at Jisoo but didn't utter any word and remained idle. I can't believe that Lisa has that thing bulging inside her pants. I know it's not possible for a woman to have a male organ, but being an intersex is very rare, I mean, it was really rare that I couldn't believe that Lisa is one of them and who would've thought that Jisoo was right. The next thing will know is she have a dick and now, she literally have one!

And what made me feel more so enrage is, when I was standing inside Lisa's room while watching her sleep. I started hearing her moaning my name as if we were having intimate moment in her dream. I wasn't really expecting neither of that to witnessed and making me feel so embarrassed as fuck.

"Yah Jennie Zee!" Chaeyoung's voice echoed all throughout the house, making Jisoo and me to jumped on the couch from how loud it was and snapping me out from my daze. "What the hell just happened?!" She asked, my gaze shifted at her and blink my eyes rapidly to shake away my idleness.

"Do you r-remember when Jisoo said that Lisa might have a...a.. d-di–."

"A dick, yes. Why? Does Lisa have one?" Jisoo finishes my word followed by a question while snickering.

"Y-yes." I whispered softly under my breath and look down.

A loud and exaggerated gasped can be heard inside the living room, the glass that Chaeyoung was holding fell and shattered on the floor, a loud thud because Jisoo fell on her seat and Sana's loud and obnoxious laugh.

"Oh my fucking God!" Jisoo blurted out with her eyes bawling out from its sockets.

"I knew, this would've been this funny when you find out!" Sana said between her laugh.

"Y-you know about that all this time?" I asked.

"Duh? Of course, we were childhood friends remember?" She answered with an eye roll. If I wasn't on this state of shock, I probably hit her for throwing an attitude at me.

"Oh my God Jennie, h-how does it felt? Are you hurt? Is it big? How did it happen—."

"Whoa whoa whoa, hold up Chaeng, where the fuck does your questions coming from?" I asked sardonically, knitting my brows into one line. "You sounds like accusing me that I had sex with Lisa."

"Isn't it?"

"What?! No! Hell no! What the fuck?! We didn't have sex, Chaeyoung fucking Pristine!" I exclaimed while furiously shaking my head. I was near to explode in rage because of their accusations, I can't believe they really think that way.

"Then how'd you know about that?!" Jisoo asked almost a yell but she turn it low when I shoot her a dagger look.

"Because she told me and I saw it!" I answered.

"Ok wait, let me get this straight. The two of you was about to kiss but then suddenly, she told you that she have dick and you asked her to show you?"

"What kind of conclusion was that Chaeyoung?!" I asked cynically and look at her in disbelief.

"So you accidentally ran into her inside the bathroom while she's taking a bath?"

"What?! No! What the hell Chu?! You know what? Fine, I'll tell you." I said defeatedly and massage my temple to ease the throbbing headache. Lisa already given me an headache but it gets worse when these three subordinates of mine, making stupid conclusions on their head.

"We need details." Sana said as she sat down on the floor looking up on me, eyes glittering and a teasing smile dancing on her lips.

"First, there's no kiss and no sex, that's just absurd!" I started.

"Well, not too absurd when the two of you get married and honeymoon will be next." Jisoo said while wiggling her eyebrows teasingly, earning a loud slap from her girlfriend to shut her up. "Jeez, you got big hands babe, tone it down."

"You loved these hands, now shut up." Chaeyoung hissed at her and rolled her eyes.

"Not gonna argue with that."

"Can you please shut up, Chu?!" I asked irritatedly and she shrugs her shoulder, telling me to proceed. I released a lungful sigh before continuing. "So yeah, no kiss—."

"You already said that—."

"That's for continuity, and I swear to God, if you didn't shut your damn mouth, I will." Jisoo zip her mouth and gestured her hand for me to proceed. I heaved a deep breath and exhales to compose myself. "So after hypnotizing and made a lie to Marco, I went upstairs to check on Lisa but she was sleeping and moaning my name– don't say a word." I cut off them when they were about to open their mouth. "And then I woke her up because heck! She was moaning my name while she's asleep and when she ran away from me because I was about to hit her again, I n-noticed the b-bulge on her p-pants." I am stuttering while saying that part because of their gaze, as if they were ready to josh me about it. "At first, I thought that she was wearing strap-on but she told me that she doesn't have to because she has a r-real one."

"Jesus Christ! Jennie Zee is blushing!" Jisoo blurted out while looking at me in amusement.

"Who wouldn't tho? She accused Lisa for wearing strap-on when she literally has one, alive and beating."

"Yah Chaeyoung Pristine!" We all yelled in unison.

"How'd you know that?! Have you seen one?!" Jisoo stood up from her seat and ready to charge at her girlfriend.

"What? Bitch no, I haven't seen one and don't change the topic, it's about Jennie and Lisa's dick."

"Ok? I guess, it's time for us to force ourselves to sleep, especially you, Chaeyoung." Sana chimes in as she pushed herself from the floor. "It's weird for us to talk about Lisa's meat, I mean, it's kind of odd that we have to talk about that thing?"

Chaeyoung caught off guard, realizing what she just said earlier and what Sana had said. She hadn't meant to say it, I could tell by the look of mild shock on her face and by her cheeks that flushed pink and turned into deep shade of red. She hide her face with her white chalk fingers while shaking her head furiously.

"I can't believe I just blurted it out like that."

"You know babe? It's fine at all and that would been have no problem, not until Sana pointed out the oddness on it." Jisoo said laughing her ass off while clutching her stomach.

"Shut up, I'm already embarrassed!" Chaeyoung shushed her but Jisoo just laugh louder.

"It's ok Chaeng, I understand." I said, even though I really have no idea if what must've need to understand. I patted her shoulder as I stood up and turn my heels. "I'm going to my room."

"Wait, Jen." I halted my step when Jisoo called me. I looked at her over my shoulder quizzically. "Are you still against to get married to Lisa, now that you know she has that?"

I chuckled dryly and turn my body to face her, I looked at her without emotion. "Do you really think that is the only thing that can change my mind to marry Lisa?"

"But isn't it the reason you hate about Lisa? That she's a woman?" Chaeyoung asked.

"I hate her, not because she's a woman, but I hate her for making me feel every emotion that I haven't felt before, I hate her because she's turning my life upside down, I hate her because I think I'm starting to like her!"

"Please tell me, you realized that you like her because you felt it and not because she have a dick—."

"Can I kill her? Please Chaeng? Please, I'm begging you. I want to kill that small bean! Fucking please." I pleaded frustratingly while gripping the edge of the couch to stop myself from charging into Jisoo.

"You can kill her later, but now. May I know what makes you realized that you like Lisa and when it started?" Chaeyoung asked as she pad over me and hold my hands, squeezing them softly to encourage me to tell her the truth.

I stared at her eyes for a moment, battling myself if I should tell her when did I start liking that nerd or not, but at the end, the look on her eyes begging me to tell her the truth and I sigh in defeat.

"I don't know, maybe when we are on the rooftop, I just suddenly felt that I want to do Sydney's job, I want to protect her as much as possible. I wanted to make sure that she sleeps well at night that's why I'm sneaking inside her room every night, I want her to trust me about her secrets and I want to tell her all of this but I'm...scared."

There is it, I've said it. I know it's hypocrisy to admit all of this when I kept denying that I don't like Lisa and I hate the idea of getting married at her, but sometimes, familiarity can be confusing and inside that one month of being with Lisa, I started to feel something unusual, strange emotion that I'm not familiar with, especially when Lisa is smiling. Her radiant smile that can make everyone around her happy, she maybe a nerd but she's a bubbly nerd, she can make me smile without even noticing it on my own and she has this side of her that she will only show at me and same goes with me.

I used to be firm and stern, but Lisa can bring the best out of me and at the same time, she can bring out the worst in me.

Chaeyoung's eyes soften while looking at me and flashing her warm smile that can soothe everyone. "It's ok Jen, you don't have to be afraid, it's ok to feel that way, because you're in love."

"I-i'm in l-love? With w-who?" I asked stuttering.

"With Lisa's dick! Bitch of course with Lisa!" Jisoo assert, as if that was already obvious but I still chose to act dumb. "Look Jen, it's not a bad thing that you fall into your own trap that supposedly for Lisa, so why not try it?"

"Try what?" I asked confusedly.

Jisoo smirks and patted down my shoulder. "Try the risk of being in love even if it's new to you, because this is not only about saving the kingdom, it's about you and the chance of being happy with Lisa, the nerd who has a dick."

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