Anger and fear

JENNIE's POV

Lisa is weird, she began acting weird since we stepped in inside the classroom. She keeps fidgeting on her seat, as if she was really uncomfortable. Though at first, I thought because she found out that Aira isn't a mortal. But then the tall girl was not here anymore, what there would be the cause of her uncomfortableness?

"What happen to Lisa?" Jisoo whispered, snapping me out from my deep thought.

"I don't know." I shrugs while still staring at Lisa's back. I couldn't tear my gaze away from her, it's as if I was afraid that someone might hurt her if I blink my eyes for a second.

"Maybe she's still worried about Aira?" Chaeyoung chimes in.

"Or maybe she's still bothered when she found out that Sydney is a werewolf and Sana ain't normal."

"What do you mean by ain't normal?" Sana butted in, shooting Jisoo a dagger look.

"I mean you're not mortal, but well, you're not really normal in every aspect tho." Jisoo mocked, she snickered too loud that makes our professor to look on us and raised his eyebrow.

"Mind to share the topic there?" The professor asked. Sana and Jisoo are the only ones who snapped their heads at the front, I was waiting for them to put the professor under hypnotism but what Sana said, did broke the laugh in entire room.

"You're nosy, aren't you?" Sana said, making all of them to laugh but the professor isn't having the rudeness of his student, he slammed the thick book on his table and storms towards our seats.

"Ms. Mizaki! I'm afraid that I have to send you to meet the dean for disrespecting your professor." The old man tells her through his gritted teeth when he stopped three feet away from us.

"And I'm afraid to tell you that I'm not interested to the dean, he's old and not my type." Sana retorts and rolled her eyes, making all the students to laugh even harder. Sana never did disrespect older people but I guess, Jisoo really pissed her off.

I can hear Jisoo laughing along with the students and Chaeyoung covering her mouth to suppress her laughte, meanwhile Sydney was laughing her ass off but the nerd sitting beside her is the only one who's not laughing and didn't found funny the whole bantering that's happening between Sana and the professor.

She looked tense and she never dared to look back, she never did, since the moment we arrived here and that makes me really confused. I rose up from my chair causing all of them to stopped from laughing and shoot their eyes at me.

"Wha–." I didn't let the professor to finished his word as I start walking towards Lisa and stopped beside her seat and crossed my arms.

"Tell me, what's wrong with you?" I asked, completely ignoring all the eyes that fixed on me.

Lisa whipped her head at me hastily, she was really surprised and startled to see me standing beside her, her widened eyes darts up to me. "W-what?" She asked stuttering.

"I'm asking you, what is wrong with you?"

"N-nothing, would y-you please get back on y-your seat?" She said. I can tell that she's scared, but why and to whom?

"Are you ordering me around?" I asked in disbelief while pointing at myself and laughed sarcastically. "You don't –." Lisa cut my words off for the first time ever, since the day I met her.

"Goddamn it, Jennie!" She said hardly, digging her nails on her palm and stood up abruptly, I can't deny that the height difference between us was so perfect since she was towering me now and I was looking up to her. "J-just get back on your seat."

I was really shocked at that, even Sydney who quickly tugged Lisa's shirt to pull her back to her chair, was also got surprised on her best friend's sudden outburst. I blink away the shocked and cleared my throat to recompose myself.

"Rooftop, after this class." I said firmly and was about to go back to my chair but I froze when I heard Lisa speak with a certain of austerity on her voice.

"No, I have something else to do after class."

I turned to face her and throw my eyebrows thru half of my forehead. The stoic face that she has, makes me confirmed my hunch and from that moment, I know that there's really something wrong with this girl.

As much as I want to confront her and ask whatever bullshit running inside her mind, I choose to nod my head and pad back to my chair. The professor look at me with his eyes in rage when I sat. I was supposed to put him under my power, I was supposed to put everyone here under hypnotism but I can't, I felt powerless.

There's this strange feeling inside me that makes my body to feel weak, inside my chest, I can feel that something is churning, which caused my whole body to slumped down. I don't know what it is, I don't know what did Lisa do to me. But I know that whatever I'm feeling now, it does have something to do with the way how she turned me down.

"After this class, I want the four of you to meet me in the dean's office." The old professor said and I nod my head unknowingly before he walks back in front.

"Jen, are you ok?" Chaeyoung asked worriedly when they noticed my silence and the frown on my face.

"Nothing." I said with a soft sigh and stopped myself to take a glance at Lisa.

"You sure?" Jisoo asked, I can tell that she's also worried because of the way she hold my arm and squeeze it to comfort me.

"Yeah." I replied.

I couldn't blame them to feel worried about me, even myself couldn't understand why am I like this.

I let the old professor to scold us, I even nod my head to him that I've never did to anyone, especially to a mortal, since I'm the one who always gives orders. I let Lisa to win against me, which I never did even once. But today is different and I couldn't explain why, it's as if something inside me was holding back the bitch side of me, I really have no idea what is this strange feeling inside me.

"This is strange." Sana said, she was rubbing her chin while looking at the reason why am I suddenly acting weird. "Lisa stood on her ground for the first time and Jennie retreat back."

"She's right, it is really surprising that you let Lisa beat you. Why is that?"

"I don't know Chaeng, but she looked so mad to something that I don't have any idea." There's a certain sadness on my voice, as if I just lost my favorite small teddy bear; as if I just found out that my dog died today and as if I just got rejected after confessing my feelings to the person I like. "I don't know what I have done for her to act like that."

"This is really unusual, but Jen, seeing you like that is the most surprising things to see. Don't tell me, Lisa will be the only one who can make our heiress cry?"

I snapped my head at Jisoo and raised my left brow at her. "Bitch what? Are you expecting me to cry just because some nerdy girl raised her voice at me?! The fuck?!"

"There you go, welcome back Jen." Jisoo snickered and shook her head before coughing loudly, causing the professor to look at her quizzically. "Not gonna allowed this old man to ruin my girlfriend's lunch." She said and put the professor under her hypnotism.

"Any idea why did your girl acting like that?" Chaeyoung asked which caused me to scoffed before squinting my eyes at her.

"Are you talking to me?" I asked while pointing at myself, I look behind me only to see Jisoo who's planting stupid thing inside the professor's head while laughing her ass off. And then I looked behind Chaeyoung and saw Sana busy scribbling something on her notes.

"Who do you think I'm talking to?" Chaeyoung asked pulling back my gaze to look back at her.

"I don't know, Lisa is not my girl, so I assumed that it's not for me." I shrugs my shoulders and shifts my gaze at the nerd. I admit, she almost had my mood affected a while ago, but thanks to Jisoo for pissing me off, I got my shit back together.

"But I didn't say it was Lisa, so that means, you really did assumed that it's for you." She fires bacj with a teasing smile plastering on her lips. I frowned and ready to banter back but she shushed me up by covering my mouth using her palm. "Don't say a word!"

"Shit! There's a vampire nearby." Jisoo exclaims. And that's when I noticed Sydney looking at us with a worried face.

"Isn't it too risky to attack inside a campus, where thousands of mortal will see them?" Sana whispered, her eyes shut off while smelling the vampire's scent lingering in the hallway. "And I think I have an idea who the hell they are."

"I don't care who the fuck they are, just make sure that Lisa won't get hurt." I said in gritted teeth while staring at Sydney, as if I directly said those words at her. She nodded before looking beside her and scoot a little closer to Lisa.

"Are we going now or we'll wait till this class– oh never mind, the class ended." Chaeyoung said dismissively when we hears the bell rung.

"Ok guys, see you tomorrow and oh, ms. Mizaki, Mcklein and Kang?"

"Yes sir?" The three of them answered in unison.

"To dean's office, now." We all whipped our heads at Jisoo after the professor stepped out of the classroom.

"Really Chu?" Sana asked in disbelief. "You seriously got to be kidding me?!"

"Sorry Sana, but someone needs to accompany Lisa." Jisoo tells her.

Sana sigh in defeat but nodded after, she then look at Sydney and they nod at each other. I shifted my gaze to the nerd who is now stuffing her things inside her bag, furiously. I don't know what's going on with her but I badly need to know. I admit, it bothers me, as if I want to drag her outside and force her to tell me what's going on, but something was stopping me. And that thing is the presence of those vampires approaching us.

Sana pad towards the two and they stepped out the room, but before that, Lisa steal a quick glance at me. I gasped silently, my heart thumped loudly that my chest hurt for a moment. I clutched my chest trying to ease the pang I felt inside.

Another strange emotion that makes my knees felt weak. I can't be wrong, the emotion I saw behind those doe eyes are disgust and fear. What did I do to made her disgusted with me? What did I do to made her afraid of me? What did I do?

"Jen, they're here." Chaeyoung squeezed my shoulder to snapped me out from my reverie. She was looking in front of us, her face starts showing her true identity, medium gold eye color and pointed fangs. Hissing at them and ready to attack in any moment, same with Jisoo who is now cracking her neck and knuckles.

When I turn to look in front of us, I saw Jim's gang and sigh irritatedly. They weren't alone, they're with Aira. That bitch!

"What is it again this time?" I asked.

"Greetings to the heire–."

"Shut the fuck up and let's fight." I cut Jim's off and showed him my real face. I'm not having any of it, as I want to talk to my nerd so badly.

He chuckled dryly and smirk while glaring at me.

"So eager to kill me huh? Why? Did the Princess and her girlfriend had a fight because of my sister?"

I creased my eyebrows and the three of us exchanged glances before looking back at them. "That explains the reason why I hate that bitch." I shrugs, causing the two girls beside me to giggles. "But no, we didn't had a fight and we will never have fight just because of some pathetic bitch trying to steal my girl from me."

"Whoa, my girl.. that is so not you, Ruby Jane." Jisoo whispered.

"What? That's the truth." I whispered back but not tearing my gaze at the enemy.

"Ain't nobody telling you that's a lie, but claiming Lisa even though she still hadn't felt the same way–."

"Oh please, stop talking about that while we're in this situation, will you?" Chaeyoung rebuked us. She was still in charging position, I haven't noticed how her pointed newly manicured nails grew longer until she hissed through her gritted teeth.

"That was cute nail art." I compliment. Chaeyoung stood straight and checks her nails and smiled at me.

"Thanks, unfortunately it will be dirty later." She pouts.

Jisoo froze and look at her girlfriend with concern eyes. "I'm sorry babe, I'll fix that later." She said to ease Chaeyoung.

"No need, babe. They will not allowed to grow long anyway." She smiled at her girlfriend then wiggles her eyebrow meaningfully.

"Urgh that's gross!" I groan and roll my eyes at them before facing the enemies again. "What are you doing here anyway? Let us breathe for fuck sake?"

Jim laughed and shook his head.  He's really gone crazy to bring the fight inside this campus, we've beaten them many times but they're all stubborn and they won't stop until they kill me and Lisa.

"Relax, Princess. I'm not dumb to fight you, knowing that we've got beaten many times. I just want to see the girl but it seems that she wasn't here."

"Stop fooling around, Jim. I'm not having it anymore, you've been pestering me and my friends lately and I'm getting irritated." I scoffed and move all the tables and chairs to the corner of the room, closing all the doors and windows using only my power.

They got startled and they all alert themselves. His six subordinate cover both Aira and Jim but the latter held his hand in the air.

"I swear, Jennie. I'm not here to fight you. I mean it. I came because I want to tell you something about your girlfriend."

"What makes you think that I'm intere–."

"That nerd isn't the one you know as she is."

My brows knits into one line when Jim cut me off. I actually don't care about what he had said about Lisa and what made me pissed me off was that he cut my words off. He isn't allowed to cut me off, he's not Jisoo nor Chaeyoung and most of all, he's not Lisa.

Jim laugh when he saw me looking at him in knitted brows. Does he really thinks that he really did something there? I don't care if Lisa isn't the one I know, I don't care if she's still hiding something because no matter what happens, I will find out everything about her without coming from other bitches.

"Shock? Well, I can't blame–."

I flicked my tongue loudly to cut him off and look at him blankly. "You're wasting my time dickhead, why don't you bring all your pet with you and get the fuck out here? I ain't gonna waste anymore time with you, blabbering gibberish words that I couldn't understand."

The shock on his face was visible that made my two subordinates to laugh at him. His calm face earlier replaced with grim face, nails digging on his palm and jaw clenching.

"Told you brother, she's such a bitch!"

"I'm not gonna deny that, I'm the bitch and you're slut." I mocked and stuck my tongue out to Aira. She storm towards me without even thinking but Tommy stopped her just before she could reach me. "Here comes the hero." I snickered.

"Let me go!" Aira yelled while jerking Tommy's hand off of her body. She was really furious, I could tell by the redness on her face.

"Aira no." Jim said to her sister and shifted his gaze at me. "I warned you, Jennie. It's up to you if you don't want to belie–."

"Blah blah blah, you talked to much! Just bring your slut sister with you along with this pervert jerk then get out of my sight." I sneered at him while waving my hand to dismiss them.

I saw how Tommy clenched his teeth, his face became the color of an over-ripe tomato, he's mad, he's really mad. I don't know if it's because I hurt his ego the last time we had fight or because I called him pervert jerk.

The corner of my lips slowly curved up to form a cocky smirk while intensely gazing at him. My heavy gaze shifted at Jim and I saw how his eyes slowly widen. I know he's getting afraid, of course I know. I can read his thought without him knowing. He's cussing a lot and they were all talking using telepathy.

"Fuck! Jennie, still not done there?! Lisa is missing!"

I froze when I heard Sana, I was about to look at Jisoo but I paused when I notice Nathan whispering something to Jim and the latter's lips slowly forming a smile and stared at me.

I suddenly felt scared, and even though Jim wouldn't tell me, I knew that one of them also had the ability to hear what Sana had said thru telepathy and it was Nathan.

"Let's go." Jim said before they all vanished in front of us.

"Damn it!" I blurted out and we all followed them but we stopped when I saw a lot of students scattered on the hallway. Jim and his gang lost among the students but I can still feel their presence and I am sure they are not far behind.

"Let's split up to look for Lisa and girls, be careful" I said. They both nodded before we separate our way but I halted my step to look back. "Chu! Don't let Chaeyoung be alone." I said. Jisoo nods at me and grab Chaeyoung's hand before they ran away.

I ran everywhere to look for Lisa, to the library, their house, to Mizaki's, even underground, I looked everywhere. I leave inside the campus for Chaeyoung and Jisoo to look for Lisa, so they won't need to go out because it's more dangerous if they stepped outside.

I know Jim and his gang will not make their identity known on campus so I'm sure that Chaeyoung and Jisoo are safe, but if ever they go outside the campus, things will never be sure if it's still safe for them, I know that Chaeyoung and Jisoo are one of the strongest vampires but those rebellious vampire ain't ordinary vampire, they are just strong as my two subordinates.

So as much as possible, I don't want them to get into fight without me. Though we always bicker, I still don't want one of them to get in danger, even Sana. That girl became one of us, she maybe annoying for how flirty and clumsy she is, but she's our flirty and clumsy friend.

I flicked my tongue and made a hissing sound when I came back to our university but Lisa is still nowhere to be found.

I clenched my eyes and squeezed my brain to think where she might gone to but it's been one hour and the afternoon class was about to start, I still haven't seen that nerd. Chaeyoung called me that they are already inside our classroom and there are still no Lisa. Jim and his gang's presence was gone now, I bet they went to Mcklein's house to look for her.

I'm not really worried about Lisa's mom because I know that all of the werewolves are guarding her whenever Lisa stepped out on that house. They should be more careful because a lot of werewolves will attack them if they make a wrong move in Lisa's home.

"Where the hell are you, Nerdy?!" I whispered hardly and tip back my head and twist my neck a little, I felt a little tired but that doesn't mean I'll stop looking for her.

I need to know the reason behind her action earlier and those emotions on her doe eyes. It really bothers me, I swear. It really did affect my mood and I planned not to go home without talking to that nerd.

After feeling the moderate heat of the sun rays hitting my face, I opened my eyes and gazed at the rooftop. "Goddamn it." I mumbled.

How come I forgot about that place?

I released a lungful sigh before looking both of my sides and behind, when I made sure that no one is looking at me, I jumped.

My feet lands on the hard ground and immediately roamed my eyes around. And there she is, sitting at the bench, hands on her head and elbow on her knees.

I make my way towards her without making any sounds and stood behind her. "There you are." I said calmly but she still got startled and snapped her head at me. "I thought you were going to do something?"

"Y-you told me to go here." She said stuttering.

I raised my left brow in confusion. As far as I remember, she refused earlier and she even snapped at me.

I pierced my gaze at her, gawking her eyes if the emotions I've seen earlier was still there, and yes. They are still there, sitting behind her hazel nut brown eyes.

"Ok then, mind to tell me what's wrong?" I started.

She looked away before she rose up, she clutched the strap of her bag on her shoulder before turning her heels to face me.

"What are you, Jennie?" There's a glint of anger on her voice that makes me really confused. Narrowing my forehead, I sat on her spot earlier and crossed my legs and my arms.

"What do you think?" I ask challengingly while glaring at her.

She stared at me intensely. The unmoving gaze was accompanied by deliberate slow breathing, like she was fighting something back and loosing. "Are you a fucking vampire?"

I was loss for words, I drew in a deep breath, the burning hard stare making a hole inside me, it hurts. the aches came down on my throat and made its way to my heart, I suddenly felt scared to admit my true identity because of her burning gaze and the anger on her eyes.

"Lis–."

"Because if you're a vampire, I don't want you in my life."

Her words were like a knife in my ribs, the sharp point digging deeper. I haven't feel something like this, it's another strange feeling that I'm not familiar with. Is this what they call pain? Rejection? Is this a common feelings that you'll feel when the person you like doesn't want you in their life? It hurts, my insides are churning and it felt like someone was squeezing my heart out and causing me to have trouble breathing.

I gulped hard to pushed down the imaginary lump that stuck on my throat and chuckled throatily.

"What makes you think that I'm a vampire?" I asked nervously.

"That mark on your neck, I've seen that on that vampire." She said while pointing at my neck.

I remained calm though her face was in horror while looking at me, nor was I ever afraid that other people would know my true identity. I'm a vampire, a heiress of the only King, a princess and the next ruler of the vampire kingdom. I supposed to be proud of who I am, I supposed to act tough because I'm the strongest vampire even in my own father.

But why do I feel different now? Suddenly I felt a sense of cowardice, I'm too afraid to admit that she's right, I'm a vampire, the daughter of that vampire she encountered when she was seven years old.

I didn't know that the most terrifying part in this quest, is the fact that she hates my Dad. The one who orders me to bring her home, the one who will be her future in-law. Did my Dad do something to her? But Lisa never told me that there's something wrong happens that night.

I cleared my throat and touch the part where my mark was placed. I stroke it and put my fake smile on my lips as I stared back at her.

"I got this when I was eight, it's not a mark that you are thinking of, a man tried to stab me with a stak— knife, because he said that I'm not allowed to live, he wants me dead, all of them."

Lisa's forehead narrows, head tilting a little with confusion. The anger is still there, but not as burning as earlier and the pain she caused still sits on me.

"Who are they?" She asked.

"Those who think I'm a threat to their lives." I smiled bitterly when I remember that night when a vampire stabbed me with a stake but he failed because I dodged his attack but he still managed to put this scar on me, he flee immediately just before Dad could come to my room. He was so mad at himself that he almost loose me, after that night, I saw him with a cut on his neck, I asked him about that and he told me.

"I ain't gonna let my princess to have that cool marks alone because Daddy likes it too, so I made myself one."

I didn't felt anything that night, I shrugged my shoulders and walk away, but that night, he went away and decided to haunt the vampire on his own, he killed a lot of rebellious vampires and that's when he met Lisa.

The day that changed my life.

"A threat? Why?" The curiosity draw on her face, the anger slowly dissipates as the curiosity eating her. "So you mean that's only a scar not a birthmark or something?"

My gaze darts up to her and smiled softly. "Why do you hate vampires, Lisa?" I asked back.

Her face become paled, her eyes bewildered and looking everywhere but me, as if she was afraid of something; as if she was hiding a secret that she doesn't want to reveal.

Lisa took two steps backwards and lean her back behind the fence and lowered her head, she released a shaky breath before she shot her head up. There's a fear on her eyes, one of those emotions I've seen at her when she steal a glance at me before she stepped out of the classroom with Sydney and Sana.

"Vampires are dangerous, they can kill me in one snap." She said with trembling voice. I know that it's not her real reason, but I rather not to push her to tell me the truth or she might be aloof again.

I drew in a deep breath and heaved up on my seat. I pad over her and reached for her trembling hands, I rub the back of her palm soothingly and I think it works when the trembles lessened a bit.

I look up to meet her eyes, her beautiful doe eyes with a fear sitting on them, meeting my softened cat-like eyes.

"No one will hurt you, Lisa. As long as I'm here and to answer your question? No, I'm not a vampire so don't be afraid of me."

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"Ok wait, so you are telling us that you told her that you're not a vampire?" Jisoo asked and I nodded as an answer. "Because she hates vampire?"

"She's scared of vampires."

"But she's a vampire itself!" Jisoo exclaimed, throwing her hands in the air before sluggishly sat down on the couch in front of me.

"But she didn't know." I said calmly.

"Exactly!  What if she found out she's a vampire? Will she be afraid of herself, too?"

"I don't know, Chu! But I got scared to admit that I am the one she was most afraid of!" I snapped and stood up abruptly. My face has become rigid, jaw clamped tight and teeth grinding. My hands stayed on my side digging my nails on my palm that I can feel a blood dripping from it. "If I tell her that I'm a vampire, she'll push me out of her life!"

"That's not gonna happen, Jennie. She will never do that." Chaeyoung said to assure me. She reached for my hands and covered them with hers. "Jen, listen. You need to tell her about you, she needs to know what are we. We need to go home because there's a danger will come to us if we stay here for too long."

"What if she doesn't accept me?  what if she hates me? what if she shunned me because she knew I was the creature she was afraid of?" There's a glint of fear on my voice and they stared at me in stunned surprised.

"Jen, are you still that?" Sana asked cautiously while looking at me from head to toe. "You're scared? That's —."

"Crazy." Jisoo finishes Sana's words while looking at me with unreadable expression. "You are getting scared, that's cute but this is not the right time to feel that way. We are in danger, Ruby Jane."

"What kind of danger? You keep saying that we're in danger, what exactly —."

"Chaeyoung saw on her premonition that there will be an enormous number of vampires will going  to attack just to kill your nerd."

"Then be it." I said firmly.

"No, not gonna happen Jennifer! I ain't allowing you to fight that huge amount of vampires and you may be killed. As your older sister, I will stood on my ground."

I looked at her ludicrously and arch my left brow. "Not because we shared the same surnames, we are siblings. I am still your princess, who is the king's daughter and you cannot dictate what I should do."

"But as the oldest between us, I am using my age to command you not to engage in any fight!"

"Are you serious?" I didn't dare to hide the disbelief that drawn on my face, biting my lip hardly to suppress the laugh to break out.

I am supposed to be dominant here and fight for what I want, but Jisoo is using our age gap to control me. This is one of those rare time she will use her age to have control over me, I never complained because it's actually hilarious for me.

The snickering behind me was the only reason for me to stifle a giggles and then it turns into a loud and obnoxious laugh when Sana burst out laughing. Even Jisoo's mad face softened then she chuckled at first but ended in joyously laugh.

"Anyway, this is a new task for you Jennie." I stopped from laughing and looked at Chaeyoung quizzically. "You need to find out what's the reason why Lisa hates vampires."

"And we'll take care about the thing what Jim had said earlier." Jisoo said.

"Don't you have any idea why?" I asked.

"I think I have an idea." We all turn to Sana. She was rubbing her chin, the one thing she often does when she was thinking.

"What might it be?" I asked curiously.

Sana stared at me, as if the answer is drawn on my face. Then she snapped her fingers enthusiastically.

"Oh I remember now! It's about Lisa's mom!"

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