Chapter 14

"You du know that they saw us?", Liam asks me.

"Who?", I ask him back, confused.

We are sitting on the floor leaning at one of the pillars, my head on Liam's shoulder.

We had jtst confessed our feelings to each other and I was still overhelmed by what Liam feels for me. I honestly wouldn't have thought that.

"Jack and our new friend just came outside", Liam laughs, "When we were kissing."

"Oh", I say. No word could describe how ashamed I am fir them to hdlave seen something private between Liam and me.

"Well...we can be happy it was not your brother otherwise the whole city would know by now", Liam says.

"Yes, he's pretty talkative...", I admit.

"Erm...Ella?"

"Yes", I ask lifting my head from his shoulder to look into his face.

"Do you want to...to keep this private or...", Liam trails off and looks at me helplessly.

I smile at him.

"No", I say in a soft voice that reflects my smile, "You?"

"Definitely not!"

I laugh at how quick he'd protested.

"Well, then let's go inside", I say standing up,"I have a pretty good idea of how to tell them..."

Liam smirks and stands up too.

"What do you have in mind?"

I lean to him and wisper my idea into his ear. When I pull back Liam smirks and gives me a peck on the lips.

I walk with him on my heals back in and we walk down the stairs. Right in front of the gate I turn to Liam and kiss him.

He dips me and I hear the people in the controllroom clapping and whistling.

When Liam lets me back on my feet we step apart and laugh towards the still amazed people.

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I swich through the data I brought from the library. The first file was about Jack O'Neil. He'd married two month's after resigning.

I am not shocked that it was Samantha Carter. They died together in their residence in Washington.

The next I take is the one of Rodney. He'd gotten several prides for his works in the Stargateprogramm. He got three times the Nobel prize for physics.

I am so happy that I haven't been there. His ego would have been so stretched that none would have been able to stand him only a few minutes.

He'd married Jennifer Keller and the got a daughter called Astral McKay. He had an accident a year before his marriage what was the reason he hadn't been able to keep on going on missions.

He died two month's after his wife from a heart attack in the age of eighthythree.

The next file I chose is the one of Teyla.

She had lived with her son and her husband Kanaan in Atlantis. When her son was five she got lost with her team in a mission.

I put down the pad. Teyla got lost? I had hoped that she'd lived with her son and husband peacefully, but she hasn't even seen him grow up.

I shake my head and let my head fall on my hand. I tightly close my eyes. She'd been one of my closest friends and I have to fight to not cry over her.

When I've been in charge of Atlantis I've locked myself away. Let nothing close to me. Only sometimes I let something show, like that one time...

John hot beamed into the gateroom with a team of scientists. He's gotten home from his suicidemission. I can't believe that he's there. Just a few steps away from me.

He left with the knowledge he'd never come back. I didn't want to let him go. I've promised myself to never again let any good people die again when they're under my command, but he had to. I knew that. So did he.

He left.

When the Deadalus called and they John had answered over the com I thought I was dreaming.

"I'm home", he says looking to the balcony I'm on usually not aware of me already being downstairs.

When he spots me I'm only a few feet away. When I reach him I pull him into a tight hug. After a bit hestitence he hugs me back.

I pull back.

"Yes you are", I say, but less to him then to convince myself that it's true. That he's back. Alive.

But there's written: 'Whith her team' .

Does that mean.... I take Ronon's and John's file and look on them.

'Got lost at a mission with his team.'

Ronon had married Amelia Banks. They've had two kids. The twins were 2 years old when Ronon disappeared.

John hadn't married Nd didn't have any children. That confuses me for a moment. I've really thought that he was the ancestor of Jack Sheppard. Then I remember that John did have a brother.

Dave Sheppard who'd taken over the buisness of their father.

I desperately want to find out what mission it had been they got lost at, but I don't know if I can find it in the database.

Then I get an idea.

"Atlantis?", I say in a sugary voice.

In an instant theres a bluerobed Atlantis sitting on my desk, dangling his legs off the edge of it.

"Yes?", he asks.

"I try to find out on what mission Jihn and his team did disappear", I say, eyeing the hexagonal, blue stone in front of Atlantis' chest. It's shimmering blue and shines in it's own light from the inside.

"Ah, yes", Atlantis says,"They wanted to go after a signal that they recognised as my brother Troja...He was searching for help...I can give you the gate adress."

"So when you said you didn't believe that Trina or Asuras were destroyed...You meaned that you have a prove?"

Atlantis nods.

"I just didn't want to burden it on you. You already risked enough for me..."

I shake my head in disagreement.

"No, I want to help you with that. I want to find Troja and Asuras and many I will find out what happens to my friends."

"You'd really do that for me?", he asks, his captivating, blue eyes wide open.

"Sure", I say, "You're my friend and friends help each other. I will go to Ella today to make a plan with her and I want you to come too. Make yourself visible, okay?"

Atlantis nods, smiling.

I know we're going to find the cities and find out what happened to the team. That feeling is strong inside of me.

That knowledge is so strong as the knowledge of me breathing.